Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Life so far
Hey, if anyone is still here (being summer and all I don't really expect so lol). Interesting things happened. I passed my driver's test, so I'm happy... took me 4 damn times, but that's because the first two times the lady I had purposely failed me because she was failing everyone to pocket money, among other things she was doing, so they fired her... didn't get no refund >:/ Anywho, currently looking for a car to drive to college, at least under 5 grand or so. That, and something kinda scary happened to me.

The other day I went to the store with my dad to pick up something, but I stayed in the vehicle. A really old fragile man walked out of the bank next door and tripped at least 3 feet off a ledge and fell. I know it doesn't sound that bad, but it was. He was so bloody everywhere, glasses broke, cuts on his head, arms, and knees, I mean the poor guy was hurt and he obviously wasn't in good condition. I was freaking out, and I ran in the bank to have someone call an ambulance since I didn't have a cell on me. I was so scared for him, and was afraid to move him if he broke something, nobody else was around and I didn't know what else to do.. he thanked me and I didn't get his name. I hope he is OK now.

The other bad things is that my mom got really ill a couple days ago. I don't remember if I told anyone this, but a year before she had a tumor. Granted it wasn't cancerous, it was scary since she is plagued with other illnesses. I am a little afraid if something were to happen. I also have siblings whom are special needs, and I couldn't bear what could happen to them if something happened to her... I'd have nothing to support them with.. or maybe I just worry too much.

I am currently in a "band" with a few friends, but I don't know how serious it will be... the bassist isn't very experienced (playing for a few months w/ lessons) and our drummer hasn't played for long nor does he have a teacher or a place to practice, and I've never even met the singer... don't know what will happen, and with college coming up, how long it will last.

I also recorded a little spiel I did.. my first video really. 'twas a month ago and made it up right on the spot, no preparation, completely improvised and freely so there's some mistakes but oh well. Anyone into experimental/jazz music? ;)



Music is truly difficult to create... either I don't have the liberty to sit at the computer for more than 2 hours, contemplating, writing, or I don't know how to go about it. I sometimes have ideas but it never sounds right. I want to create, but my skills are limited to guitar, and there's literally no one in my whole area that wants the same sound I want.... not enough for the vision I want to achieve. I guess I feel I'm not good enough and I have really high standards :/ that's me with everything though, lol.

Eh, right now I'm, guess, listening to music. These Lowlands by Swallow the Sun, a softer, but heavy song with all the emotion of a true musician, at least I feel so. Something I wish I had in me. It may not be music liked by the mainstream, but it affects me.. music has always been a part of myself. Maybe I should start writing again... still can't figure it out.... I'll stop my brooding artist rant now lol.

That's all really, sorry if you had to read that lol. I'm not sad, but I've been thinking a lot.
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