Well, it's official. I must have done something to really anger some important diety or dieties this month.
I had two job interviews in the past two weeks, both of which interested me very much. I had put the second on to the back of my mind with the idea that if the first one fell through, the second one could be a fall back position. The first, a position at a restaurant, would have been something fun and different for me. I was surprised I even got the interview at all, since I have no work experience. Have you ever done something and could tell by the way things were going that it was too good to last? I can tell that with job interviews. I've been interviewed a few times, so I have an idea in my mind's eye of things. When the interviewer is overly impressed, and seems not to be bothered by negative aspects of the interview or application, it's time to worry. When the interview goes that well, I know I can't expect to get hired.
The second job interview was for a temporary position at a seasonal costume shop. My having three years of theatrical experience, I thought I might stand a chance, but after going to their open house/group interview, I don't think I'll hear from them. They had six people divided into four teams to conduct four rapidfire interviews all in one night. I tallied my points (one for each interview station) based on the interviewer(s) reactions to the way I answered their questions. I came out negative three, and that is not good news for me. As the shop is to begin activity this coming week, I won't count on being one of their employees, since I'm sure they'd need at least two days to properly train employees on register, inventory, and whatever else they'd be doing. Anyway, that one went downhill fast even as I was bouncing from one interviewer to the next. If lessons be learned from this, don't get your hopes up when applying for a job you really want to get.
Now, imagine my surprise when I finally get on here after a few days(more like a week) distraction with employers to find that Art of Otaku drawing guide project being brought up on theotaku main page. For those that don't know, I loudly expressed my issues with that project back in April or May when it was first presented, calling out to the self proclaimed Anime art experts, wanting only their input to make the project successful. It seems the wound from that thorn in my side has not yet been healed. It seems the initial abasement was not enough to satisfy the Fates, and they want me to suffer more agony and bleeding from a still sore gash.
I would go into the weak man's pity me routine, but quite frankly, I don't give a [Censored] about pity, and I don't really want it. I'm too tired to care about any of that. I'm too tired to care how I feel myself right now. Of all things, I want a simple break. I want something that I try to do(other than my art which is driven by passion) to go right, and get me further than I am right now. I don't know why I even mentioned it at all, since I can't get the break I'm looking for here.
Words of wisdom elude me tonight, as often they do in times of stress. I'll sign off for now. . .
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