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myOtaku.com: CosmicSailor
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Sunday, October 30, 2005
Making the Music, Dreaming the Dreams
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As I was working on a drawing the other day, I came to realize that I had lost sight of why I draw in the first place. As I thought about it in depth, I figured out when it happened. Now it's no secret I've been vocal, not always positively, about the Art of Otaku project. When that was first announced, I was very much against it in fact. It was that project that first skewed my perception, and tainted the reasoning behind why I draw. I don't even know why I let not being good enough to volunteer for that poject get to me now, but the reason was probably a small one. When I figured all that out, I reminded myself that I draw because it makes me feel good. I don't draw for recognition, I don't draw for profit, I don't draw for this site, I don't draw for friends or family, though their encouragement does push me to continue, I draw because I enjoy it, and it makes me feel good.
Because I'm a bit self conscious about my artwork, I rarely check my own portfolio. Recently though, I did take a look at it, and something very obvious hit me right away. My friends and family tell me that my art is good, however, the numbers here don't reflect that sentiment. Are my feelings too delicate that no one is willing to risk damaging them with the truth? Am I too fragile a person to be given honest reviews of my work? Am I too naive to handle even an ounce of constructive criticism? Have I really presented myself as that kind of person? One who needs constant assurances to keep going?
No matter what the numbers say, I'm going to keep right on drawing anyway. I don't draw for the pleasure of others, I draw because I feel good doing it. Even the worst criticisms won't rattle me now.
Anime Dreams!
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