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myOtaku.com: CosmicSailor
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Saturday, March 27, 2004
Back on the Soapbox, It's not Bad This Time!
 | I'm not so down today, I have my reasons. In truth, the simplest of gestures can make a difference to someone like me, and one has done just that. I wonder how I could come back from a break and get this stressed out already. It's only been about two weeks, and I'm already planning my next one for July sometime. I'll know more whe nthe time comes, that's all on that.
(Yes this section is about my art again, I'm horridly obsessive aren't I?)
As matters of principle and honor, I made a choice not to submit artwork here anymore. I'm going to stand by that, only because I feel I have been insulted as my submissions fail to gain acceptance, while others of similar quality are accepted. I've cleared all the technical hurdles involved, so that only leaves the personel equation, how many people look at it to determine postworthiness? That is the variable behind this that I can't ever get right, so I'm giving up on the problem altogether. If I had a little more heart I'd try again, but after spening about two weeks on that last pic, I just can't do it again.
(Done ranting about art)
I'm taking a long hard look at myself, still thinking I'm the community loser and all, but I think that mentality comes from my days in school being the outcast loser for my being smarter than those around me. It's a dirty habit, but I'm not ready to let go of it until I have tangible proof of success. I'm not easily convinced anymore, when something takes that much out of a heart, it's hard to just change or go on as normal.
I'll continue to to try to understand who I am, and where I want to go, but I can't promise miracles here. I tried one once and it didn't work out. Anyway that's my soapbox rant for the day,
Anime Dreams,
~Cosmicsailor | |
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