Keshite Namida Wa Misenaide
Still tired today, but I did get some work done on one writing project of mine.
Comments:
kout3uka
I'll drink to that, I'll take being an oddball over normal any day of the week.
The art style is visually appealing to me, that's the technical definition of why I use it, but it's more than just pretty faces and big monsters to me. Let me tell you a story, it goes back a couple years to a Saturday morning. I'm sitting there watching the regular fair, then someting new comes on, something with an odd name, odd theme, and characters like I had never seen before. In following this new program over the course of weeks, I saw parallels to my own life in the characters on the screen, an unwilling boy with the tremendous weight of responsibility thrust upon him, a girl, uncertain about her feelings, and unsure of her future, a man who's nobility and honor wasn't all it seemed to be, and many, many others. I had just gotten through a tough senior year in high school, and seeing bits of myself on the screen in other people got my attention. I'm theatrical in nature, so I could appreciate the level of emotion that was there in that show when I saw it, and I made a point to remember the name so I could get it on video (I didn't have a DVD player at the time) to have it all the time, that show was Escaflowne (I have the box set on DVD now). It wasn't till I got CN a couple years later than I started seeing much more of that stylized animation that I learned went by the name "animé". I draw mostly because I was impressed by what I saw six years ago on TV one saturday morning, and told myself I would be able to draw that someday (I don't even know where that thought came from, it just sort of happened). Ironically, I have yet to actually draw anyone from Escaflowne. The art style fits me too, I think that's why I kept it when I tried it out. Not to get off the subject, but I was just remembering the version of Transformers that was out with Escaflowne, and I'm the only one who seems to remember it ever being on. It was the only time in the whole genre that Optimus Prime
was a fire engine (I will not argue the point with someone who doesn't know/recall the series), the main human character's name was Koji (he was a kid, which made for a few moments of "what is a kid doing in the front seat of a fire engine that's running full speed down the road with no one driving it?"), and his father, a scientist was abducted by Megatron, something about what he knew about energy sources. Am I the only person on the planet who remembers that release of Transformers? It was one of the better ones in my book, closer to the old 80's version in characterization.
Realisticically, there's
no way on this earth I can shoot for doing what I
want to do, what I'm
interested in doing, or what I
know how to do while I'm here, because podunk West Virginia just doesn't have a market for those things
at all. I
know how to design and apply make-up effects for stage shows, and I love the theater, but there's
zero market for that skill here. I
know how to draw and can do it reasonably well, but again,
zero market for that style in the foothills of appalachia. I
know how to handle some basic computer problems, but not enough to do busniess in repair/troubleshooting, and I
know a few things about electronics, but again, not enough to use that knowledge for my own gain. I can also sing a bit, but I'm only on key in Japanese, and I don't think the adaptation of
Take Me Home, Country Roads used for
Whisper of the Heart would go over well with the natives since I do live in West Virginia, the subject of the original song (I'll point out that even John Denver doens't mention the rude, ignorant, self-centered, clannish, territorial, and inconsiderate people of West Virginia in his song, just the beauty of the landscape). I've long accepted the fact that I'm
not going to find any job in the categories of "what would fit me", or "what I would enjoy doing", because I know I'd stand a snowball's chance in Hell to actually land something like that here in this hole. Why do people ask me that anyway? Asking me what I'm interested in doing or what I would enjoy doing won't help me right now, and neither will trying to force out an answer that I can't in all honesty or good conscience give. I can not get more specific than saying "anything" because I don't know exactly what I'm looking for in terms of employment. Aside from that, I'm more concerned with developing a steady income to pay off the debts I have rather than the nitty gritty details of what I have to do to get the money. I'll learn to like the job if necessary. I know what I
can't do, I
can't take any job that requires driving, I'm amaxophobic, which means I'm scared to death to drive a car. I
can't lift much more that 40 lbs, so construction is out, I don't have a higher education, "professional" skills, management skills, sales skills, customer service skills, food service skills, trade skills, people skills, and limited hospitality skills for that matter, so any job with emphasis on those fields is out for me too. I apply to them anyway hoping someone will give me a chance to prove myself, but that hasn't happened yet. Though I would prefer a job that lets me be creative, I can't say anything more than that, nor should I be expected to answer absurdly irrelevant questions that serve no purpose other than to antagonize me, draw uncomfortably undue attention to my limitations, and irritate me to no end with their nonsensical values. That's the kind of "help" I would expect, and have gotten, from the Job Service, and I use the word help as loosely as I can get it.
Anime Dreams!
| Picture Requests |
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| Pending | Complete |
- Sanosuke (Rurouni Kenshin), for Caprice
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- Melfina (Outlaw Star), for Outlaw Melfina
- Duo Maxwell (Gundam Wing), for kout3uka
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| Project Closed Upon Completion |
