Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Hello!
Hello everyone. I trust all has been well with each and everyone of you. Well, I've personally been great. However, my friends have been having so much drama, and I fear I may be the cause of some of it.

First off, my ex boyfriend is totally obsessed with me, and it annoys me. He constantly tells me he still loves me and that he is going to kill himself without me. It really frustrates me, because if he thinks that losing a girlfriend in high school is the worst thing that could ever happen to him, then I'd like to let him spend a day in my shoes. I have lived with a drug addict mother and raised my two younger brothers, I know what real pain is. I'm really just considering cutting him out of my life, because I can't deal with all the stress he comes with. But he's a good friend, and I don't want to lose him as a friend. My friends tell me I'm too nice, but I think people take advantage of my kindness.

Furthermore, one of my best friends continuously asks me out. Last night he told me that he loved me, and I just didn't know what to say. I've continued to turn him down, but it just keeps getting worse. He told me that I'm no longer allowed to hug him anymore, because he may fall back in love with me. So that's one less friend I get to hug each day T-T. And now he's pissed off at me, because he went through my best friend's phone, and read a message I sent to her about him, and it upset him. All I said was it annoyed me that he talked Shakespearian (sp?) to me. First of all, I don't understand why he borrowed my friend's phone in the first place. He had his phone, he shouldn't have needed hers. Plus, he had no rights reading my messages with her. Yet, because I'm the bigger man (woman) I apologized for talking about him. But I still believe he's upset about it.

I hope this is my final guy-related problem, but it's a minor one. I've been seeing this guy, and he dated a few of my friends a while back, and well, I just don't know what his feelings for me are. Each of my friends that dated him said he's not a great guy, and I hope that they're wrong. He seems different from how they describe, and I've known him for years. I've not been letting myself become too attached, in case my friends are right. Always have to believe your friends over a guy. lol. Anyways, I try to just cope with not knowing, and just going on a few dates, but I honestly want a relationship. I don't want to just casually date. But I'm not sure how to bring it up with him. Any advice on how to bring it up?

Well, today I had to turn in my research paper rough draft, and honestly, I wrote it in one night, so it's awful. But as long as my final draft is okay, I shouldn't have any problems. Anyways, so today at school while I'm trying to print it out, I couldn't find it, and I was freaking out, so I just got a pass from my teacher and skipped english with my friend. My teacher didn't notice, so no harm done. I can't believe how easy it is to skip in high school. This is my first time really skipping a class, but it wasn't so bad, but I don't plan on doing it again. I'm a goody goody two shoes. :-P

Well, I should go for now. Talk to all of you later. Bye. Comment.

P.S. My comment link has been acting funny, so PM me if you can't access it.
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