Saturday, September 11, 2010

Hey how you. it's poem time and they aint all too good as i did them right now off the top of my head so yeah...enjoy.

if i slipped away in a deep dark sleep
would you cry and lie with me
why cant we be the modern romeo and juliet
and die so peacefully


what it love truly
a fake and a fraud?
a lie to make others behave?
waiting as your life fades away
for the One to walk through the door
you can hope and you can fucking wish
but it's like believing in the lord your god
nothing can help you, take you out of the dark
you only got noone but yourself
so you don't believe me?
you'll learn soon enough
that there aint no reason to be alive
am i a depressing waste of space?
fuck yes to hell with me
but if you knew the shit i been through bitch
then maybe you'll be able to understand me
i believed in him, loved him so much
but as usual i was dropped like a stone
ignored, left alone, not a word from him
and now he wants to be my best pal


i cant express myself cause i have no words to tell
so i stick a fake smile on my face
it gets me by whilst strangers are around
but it starts when i'm all by myself
it stalks up to me holds me by the throat
torturing and tormenting me
there aint no getting out, escaping myself
i'm too afraid of who i'll become

when will i die? how will it be?
wishing that the time will come soon
cause nowadays i cant breath all to well
nurses think its nothing bad
but they dont know the pain that comes with
i cant breath in or i get stabbed by a pain
so should i just not breath at all
or should i just bear through all the hurt and pain


i've never had control of my life
so is there a point to start now
who knows what is right for me
i guess only the man upstairs.
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Thursday, August 26, 2010

hey howa you all? have pretty much had a reality check today as i thought about all of the bad stuff that has happened to me and realised that i'm a well rounded person despite but the journey hasn't been easy so i want to thank you all for being there for me and i wish you all the best for the future xx
~CHU
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Saturday, August 7, 2010

TIZ THE DAY TO BE WELL JOLLY! FALALALALA LALALALA!!
IS MY BIRTHDAY AND I'M WELL HAPPY HOWEVER I GOT A RASH FROM ROLLING IN STINGING NETTLES SO MY IMMUNE SYSTEM IS FUCKED SO I'M PROPER ILL AND EVERYTHING. AIN'T GOT TOO MANY PREZZIES AS I AIN'T GOT TOO MUCH FAMILY BUT I HAVE A CANDY FLOSS MACHINE!!! =D (AKA COTTON CANDY) AND MY MUMMY WILL GET MINE LIKE TOMORROW. HOPEFULLY I'LL SEE STEP UP3D SOON ENOUGH WITH SOME PALLIES BUT WHO KNOWS. LOVE U ALL. OH AND CAMP WAS GD =D BYEZ XXXXXX
~CHU
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Thursday, July 29, 2010

   movie times =D
hey dudies how are ya all doing?
ain't updated in a while and am missing everyone muchly. am on holidays but can't find a job but am going to camp which will be fun. am going on a zip wire, motorbike, dirt biking and a whole lotta stuff am well exited. is nearly a week til my 17th birthday and i really don't act my age lmao.
anyway in this week i've seen three films. they were incepttion which was pretty awesome and leonardo dicaprio was well sexy lol, karate kid which is epic and i think everyone should watch it. jackie chan was amazing and as for jaden smith...lets just say if he was a few years older WEHEEEYY!! lol and also the a-team. thought it was gonna be rubbish but it was altight. the man who played face was gorgeous when he put on the glasses YEEHAAAAH!!! heeheehee. anyway...gosh i say that alot. i don't want restricted vocab no more =( thats beside the point i can't wait the expendibles omg like all of those explosions and that haha. the last airbender.....hmm...what can i say. wanna see it cause i watched the series but i don't wanna pay money to see it though XD
so i gotta go is early in the morning and i'm a busy lady later. take care my lovelies mwah!
~CHU
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Sunday, June 20, 2010

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLO!
Went to the music video shoot for aggro santos was kewl. took pics with him and got him to give me his autograph had fun except there were some people who rawly pissed me off but either way ME CAN WINE!!! lmao
missing you all lots my babies
ttys xxxxxx
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Friday, June 11, 2010

   =]
hiya my lovelies how are ya doing? am at home bored out of my mind. have luckily finished my exams for this year. YAY! but now for the next month imma be learning things that im obviously going to forget but thats life lol






*HUGS* TOTAL!
give CRACKHEADZUNITE more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own


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Monday, May 24, 2010

trapped in my body, no way to get out
no matter how much i struggle and how much i shout
left alone in the darkness, no light to lead the way
no human contact so all i can do is cry
my tears do not comfort me, just leave my body
cascading to the floor where they sleep solemnly
no god can save me in this terrible life
its just me and the devil who snickers as i shout
can you hear me out there? do you choose not to hear?
as you leave this young girl who has felt only despair
so please save me from this inhumanity and learn oh please god to love me



So how are you guys doing? its been a while since i've been on here thats for sure. Am currently on study leave and am awaiting thursday when i have to take my english exam. I gotta admit i'm overly scared about it but i'll get by i suppose. Anyway love you all greatly and i hope to talk to you soon xxx

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

   wow its been a while
i feel as if im dying inside
being eaten from the inside out
i cut myself to bleed out whats inside
but this creature nevers wants to come out

i cry and grieve at the loss of humanity
realising im the only normal one left
everyone else trying to claw out my eyes
or in general just ruin my life

i've got myself to blame for what i've become
but thats me thinking like that
people have fucked with my life thats why im like this it isnt really my fault anymore

i scratch at my arm urging blood to come out
and intensify the feeling of pain
this isn't strange its just how i am
wanting to destroy myself but from the outside in

i'm always alone even when i have people there
cause i can never really express myself
i dont live in a hugging, 'i love you' society so i feel no remorse of comforting

i believe the world hates my and wants me to die
and its the same for my family aswell
i wonder if i was an accident and if id die if they had to choice to be rid of me

i hate myself as others hate me
i admit i learnt from the best
i may seem happy to some but im completely melting inside of myself

i beg for help and mercy but no body comes to my rescue
then they wonder why im so emotionally wrecked
when i want to get fucked just to feel some love and a touch

i'm not a whore just a low life
wanting to feel wanted by someone
its just my way of feeling good about myself
even if others look at me in disgust

sure it doesn't last for ever
but im those who enjoys the present
so dont fuck with a fucked up person
cause they'll kill you like you killed them
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

   .
its weird how no one is on this site anymore. remember when this place was jam packed.
but anyway how is everybody doing?? i am finally doing something with my life is exciting. and im'm so damn old aswell damn. next thing you know i'm going to have wrinkles and that XD
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Friday, July 3, 2009

   HIIYAAAZ!!
Hey, aint been on here in time, how are all of you doing? what you been up to lately?

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