Wednesday, April 30, 2008

   enter sandman
hello everyone^^
well, i have to go to dinner..at my uncles place
i like him, but im really not in the mood to go places rite now....and we always leave there really late...and it smells like super cigg smoke...and it gives me a headache ><

well...besides that gayness, everything else is goin cool ^^
i had to go t oa fuckin...therapy session last night
so
fucking
homo

u know wut the psychologist peep said?
she said that im a simplistic person, and slightly mischieviouse and apathetic :\
apathetic as in
i never let things afect my mood, wich apparently is a constent easy-going type or w/e

o_o so thats me
i am constent tho
always in a pretty good mood
and i am VERY mischieviouse XD
hm....im failing my classes now
ive finally fallen below 2.00
ha i could just get my GED and go with that....
iono
SUPPOSEDLY
something happend....and i hcave my dorms paid for o.o
iono if i wanna do that
ill probly just leave my guardians house when i turn 18 next year....and go from there
i hate making plans -____-
they never turn out like u think they will
ever
so....y plan anything at all?
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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

   scorpian sleeps
HIIIIIiiiii everyone
even those who left myO ^___^
i love u all so fucking much man...
i miss talking to e veryone, tho i talk to a select few even more since the stabbing of myO XD
welll, im still learning to play bass, and...kid named brandon already performs at places ( hes amasing) and offerd for me to play with him when i get better ^^
IS THAT FUCKING AWSUM OR WUT XD
my hairs growing out ( slowly but its growing nonthe less) and like, it grows just rite so itll cover my right eye XD
i look so emo already
um...im looosing wieght even more
i weigh 164, and im 6 feet tall o.o
lol im so hot <3
omg i miss u guys ^^

cept mercury :\ ive been talking to u more :p
im not gonna name names tho....
OH
also, if i do happen to becum a fucking rockstar, u all get free tickets to my concerts for life XP

i less-than-three all of u


<3 John
i leave u all with this ^___^

So empty, just a shell of a man
Stillborn, this I understand
The feelings I once felt
Are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you
For so very long

i say hell is love
u say i should suffer
shes a motherfucker
resurect me

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Saturday, April 12, 2008

   all for you
omg god HI XD
its been to fucking long since ive fucking posted man...i keep hurting my arm, and now its got permenent splintage going on~~~ ( i have to wear a splint)
um..yea doc said that IIIFFFF i keep on using my arm like r, that...ill permenently damage my "partially severd ligaments" yea....my lig's r like...cut in certain places
wich explains the pain

um...'cides that...ive been off an on with school..
everyone wants me to go to some colledge...and i might have to quit school and get a job ^^
such is our money situation :\
lol they found monney for me to go to colledge...but...iono with my dyslexia an all..i dont think ill make it with 6 page essays and junk an stuff like dat
my grades r improving some how...wich is wierd cause ivebeen doing less work lately
um...my life is in like...fast forward rite now...days just go fucking ZOOOMMMM
i dont even remember some days..like yesterday
like...apparently i had whole conversations with people, cause they like told me today, and like on the same subject (supposedly)
and...i had no idea wut they wer talking about...such is my drug abuse apparently -___-
freind got this stuff yesterday that mad everything look fucking....two demintional XD
had to try it...it was like paper mario XD
walking all over the place pretending to bonk peope and stuff with my "hammer" XD lol
im so awsum.........all the time ^^
i mean it
im great
i r the graetest XDDDDDDDD
no one else iz on :((
*super sad face*

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Friday, March 28, 2008

   tokyo drift
THE SONG, not the muzik....i love tokyo drift XD
its cool ........
um...i broke my fucking wrist lika 2 weeks ago now ^___^
lol i just got it x rayed...cause well...*story time kids...so scoot up and sit cher asses down XD
alrite
um..it rained last saturday, so my dad had me go out and tilt the boat bak...to let the water drain out...and like, i went to set it down,. and the wheel slipped out, and it fell on my forarm XD
it was grass, so it hit softly, adn like...my arm BENT....like the bone didnt snap or nothin, and it..hurt alot tho ><
well, it didnt feel like i broke it, so i didnt really wanna go bother the "good ol' doctors" at the hospital....so ... i refused to leave the house :|
lol a week later...i was gonna go to buy a lighter, cause mine broked T___T (im still crying for it)
um...and i fell XD and i fell on that arm, so it hurt more, again, so my dad took me to the free clinic...and they xray-ified my arm....(tingly XD)
um...so...like, its a fracture :x
so i was like, "well, ive been ok for the past week, so i dont really need anything special..." and they made me wear this fucking cast thingy T___T
so fucking gay
and they said i cant do any physical activity ( me : "not even se-"?

well..........im still working out and riding my bike, and...yea im not a god listener XD

well, its hard to type, so im not on much...and the pain killerz r making me tired....i miss talking to u guys, ur all like dead or sumthin T___T

ahhh.....well, imma.......gotta nice tan <3

im so fucking sexy....
lol i love u guys ^_________^

oh yea, im 17 as of...tuesday ^^ the day i fell off my bike
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Sunday, March 16, 2008

   Chi
well
friday....i lost ET
lol its funny tho XD
we wanted to stay after school... and go out in the town to smoke pot ^^' so it was me, a fellow junkie named brandon, and ET, who went to school forthe first time in 3 weeks...hes been hi offa barz...and went to jail or w/e,...wont tell me wut he did, and i know EVERYTHING about him...some things i realy..REALY wish i didnt know...so..yea
um...we walked to the nearestbus stop...like 4 miles...smoking cigs on the way..tho i had one..and i didnt like it :p
so i didnt get more...but i was the only one with money...and brandon kept asking my to buy liquir >< i dont do alchohol
i never got it....so...ET had to pick up his little sis...so on the way we stopped atta windixi...and ET looked at ME..and said not to go anywhere...cause i have a tendency to...THINGS HAPPEN WHEN IM INCLUDED XD

i make bad luck XD
..i broke a mirror...and im supposed to get 7 years of bad luck...but my lawyer says he can get me 5 :D

anyhoo...he was gone for a while...and i got bored,...and et's house was close...and my house is like 5 min away when walking...so i says..lets go to my house cause i made som pumkin bread.....and i persuaded brandon...but thing is, wut wouldv taken my 10 minuse....took us 40 :| no bullshit
we started a 4:05 , and got bak to the store at 4:56 no kidding
we never found et...went to his house an everything
we lost a midget with orange hair XD

i called him later and he said he stayed at the store for a long time, went in and out...and he had the pot XD
so i never got high :((

well...not of pot ^^"

i found this stuff growing out in the everglades...its so awsum
it doesnt get u as high as other stuff,....but when u light it...everything smeels like marshmellows :D:D:D:D
including me XD

i walked into class one day after smoking one in the bathroom,m and the 2 rows of people around me could smell marshmelloes burning XD

u guys r the fucking greatest man, i love u all, even if most o u left ^^ *hugs*
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

throw me away
hello little ones...and the one older than me

^_____^ everything okieday?
well...et is dropping out...hes missed 17 days of school....inna row :|
i havent seen him inna long time..i miss him
we had junior a senior olympics ...i went to a park for a field trip thingy...and i just walked around with no shoes an no shirt...and i climed trees XD
it was nice...but to boring ...i could go to it again tomarrow...because they wana get rid of the seniors an juniors while the freshies and sophmores take fcat XD
OH
mom made me go to a psychiatrist yesterdaylyness
the doc wants me to stop ritalin...and put me on aderal ^^'
that stufs gonna FUCK with my personality....
*sigh* y cant they stop trying to control my ADD -__-'

mom says i "behave better" when im drugged up....wich is true....but im also hollow...and show very little emotion...not that the whore cares very much :\

how r u all doing? bridget....i miss talking to u...ur not on aim or myO TT___TT

i love u all...and i miss pmming u guys...love ya <#
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Thursday, March 6, 2008

   wut....da fuck
wow theO has changed so much...man it looked so wierd ><
i like...dont know wuts going on man....
no ones like pmmed me inna while and i got one comment....so i guess people stoped using this thing....wow i guess i should to XD

eh...ill stay on fer a while i guess.....

im home alone...parents goin toa seminare thingy...and theyr leaving tomarrow for a weekend XD
ill be home alone ^_______^
as soon as some one fids out, they say that theyll come over...but i kinda dont want them to...
so i tell them ill just be walking around my house naked all weekend........

now only 2 wanna come over still XD
i love u alll so much ^^


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Tuesday, March 4, 2008

   legs
wow i cant remember today...like at all
lol i took...i think about 240 mg of ritalin today XD
super overdose

um...i do know i signed up for the army :\
yea....iono y
i dont wanna do it >__<
actually i just signed up for information...and i gave the guy an aplication with my phone number and stuff...iono
i did get another rubber abnd thingy for signing up tho XD
well....iono
mabe ill end up in the reserves or w/e...tho...im not exactly army material ^^'
man....i cant feel anything....iono wuts going on

i am tired
well i might gotta give up doing this...seeming as im not as fun of a person to talk to when im like this...amphetamines like...make me very quiet..and i like dont talk and im just...blank
but i cant sleep..cause it wont let me do that either >< god
well, brandon want me to start selling this stuff :\
iono...w/e
ill be..here i guess
not online tho...i think im just gonna rest till this gets out of my system..
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Thursday, February 28, 2008

   numb
yea im getting into rob zombie ...ive also been sayin "man" alot XD

how ya been/....havent been online a whole lot...

i was almost arrested ^__^

ok...ysterday...we wer in one of the schools wings...fucking around in the halways during lunch...when this fucking gay kid we kicked out of our club (because he talked about gorril penises -__-) left his ipod on the floor and ran to somewhere...because somthin happend...iono the hole story cause i wasnt really paying atention XD

but...lateer my lacky joey cums up...and hands med an ipod ..im like "ok..w/e" and took it...and then we went to look for the cathlic jew...( call him CJ from now on XD) and...we didnt fine him...so i gave it bak to joey

ok...then we went to period six...joey snot in that class...so randomly a security guard cums in witha police officer :\
they ask for me ....and i go out...and they fucking strip serch me in the fucking halway :|
oh yes...real nice, and real cold
lol
they asked me where the ipod was...i replied by asking y they thought i had it

they said they have it on camera that i put it in my pocket -__- and they couldnt see where i gave it to joey...well...i told them i gave it to joey...and now...the police officer wants to take me in for acomplice in fucking staeling stolen property :|
well...they got me for a while but joey gave the ipod bak...and CJ (XD) said he that having his ipod bak was enough...so the pig let me go FREEEEEEEEEEEEE XD hahahaha XD

pretty gay tho....strip searching inna halway....T_T security gaurds touched me in places only certain girls r aloud to touch :((

stupid fat guy

lol well at least im not in jail gettin rammed by some murderer guy....

wellz other n that, im perty goo....how r u guys doin aye?

i wont b on this weekend...im goin out in the everglades :D:D
love u all ur the fucking greatest ^___^

( strang thing is...when i say the hand cuff on the cops waist...all i could think of was on of my girlfreinds XD)
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Sunday, February 24, 2008

   dracula (still playing, way to loud XD)
well ive been gone for the past 49 hours
yea...grandpa wannted to show me some herbs and uses....wich he does eveynow an then..its kinda cool sometimes...but he gives me the recipies for things i will never have XD
he gave me a list for a cure for pms TT_TT
he said it worked on his ex wife....iono
i got the thingys for head aches and like..calming oils...mostly different herbs that can be found in the everglades....(im so awsum)
i havent made any ye like, on my own yet...BUT ONE DAY WHEN I GETTA BRAIN ILL DO ...something
DIFF SUBJECT
srry bout last post XD
i am just so excited bout ozzfest lineup this year XD


i was glomped friday in the morning b4 school :|
some crazy senior totally tackled me to the floor XD when they finally pealled me off the floor...we just stood there looking at each other.. :|
then she said " uve been glomped" and turned and walked away XD


STILL learning guitar
lika retard trying to lean algebra....something id actually like to watch one day XD

i love u all so much ^^ ur the fucking greatest man


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