Saturday, May 20, 2006

   HELOOOOOOOO?
bah!

bah!

BAH!!!!!!!!!

why the hell is life so fucking dramatic right now!? i have a friend that i can't trust w/ anything and she's always hurting me physically and emtionally! i hate it! she's so manipulative and controlling and i can't deal with her anymore! part of me knows that most of it's not her fault but that just another excuse i make up for myself so that i can try anf force my self to be friends with her again, because for some reason i can't stand not having her as a friend. im one of those people who always wants everyone they ever meet to be happy. but of course that is never going to become a reality. i always feel myself getting sucked into this girls stupid games where i try sooooo f-ing hard to keep her friendship and make her like me, but it exhausts me and she knows that what she does drives me up the wall and she does it perposely! GOD DAMN!!!! i used to have such a bad urge to want to be her friend, but the more i try and the more i get exausted and fail the more i see that maybe i would be better off without her in my life. im not entirely sure if that's what i want but i can't tell. this all started when i was angry at her at one of my friends b-days and i had to leave early to go to guard practice and so i gladly left. but when i went to pick up this girl i go to practice with i was still angry, so i talke total shit about the girl behind her back to my practice buddy. well the next day there were listings for the people on leadership for my band at school, and my practice buddy wasn't on the list, so she got hella pissed at me for some reason and went off and told the girl who drives me crazy all the shit i talked about her. so now i have a girl who drives me crazy and a "buddy" who i can no longer trust with any thing. GREAT! HOLY FUCK! WHO THE HELL MADE ALL THIS FUCKING DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so now im at my dad's house where no one else is and im far away from all of those people and remembering it all has drawn me back to reality some what and i have found that i needed to vent so there!
well im sorry this post is so fucking long and that i sware so fucking much but im angry.
well now im off to see the Da Vinci Code!!!
hoohah!

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Can you trust your friend(s)? (beautiful anime pics)

Hm, i see we're not so different then. you don't really trust your friend and you lost your trust in them. Your all alone with no one to understand you. Maybe try looking for someone who does understand you and can talk to. You must be the loner type? You don't say much and when you do you just blow off because you want to tell a friend and if your angry you don't controll yourself and just go off. Becareful though when you do.
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Can you trust your friend(s)? (beautiful anime pics)

Your un-sure of your friends. Half of you wants to trust them and the other half doesn't. Was there something that happened between you and you lost your trust in them? try working it out and see what happens. If your friend doesn't react in a good way maybe they're the one thats messed up because your a very good person!
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

   Lovely!
hi again everyone! thanks for all your wonderful supportive comments! i feel better. well my friend told me that she can't wait to break up w/ her bf currently so she can go after this other guy that she has loved for about,....EVER!!!!!! so yeah, well its her adoption day soon and then soon after that its her hubby's b-day and i got them both fucking gifts today! bhahahah! i win! well what i win i don't really know but what i do know is that im listening to the Nightmare Before Christmas soundtrack right now!!!!!!!!!! yessssssss! im doing star testing right now! bah! its yucky! well actually its not all that bad. we aren't allowed to have any homework so they don't give us any and then we get to read and draw after we're done and then we get out of school at 12:15! sweeeeeet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so how was your day? and if you have any Q's about me then let me hear em and if they are appropriate and i can answer them i deffinately will! ;P

Lovies,
-Padfoot-

P.s. since you were all such good children i award you with a quiz! hoohah! *goes to find one* ah ha! got one!!!!

and if you like ill get more! i know i like! i want i want! bhahah! sry! Ta!





What Bleach Character Are You?


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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

   well,...
well i don't have much to say, well hold on maybe i do,
so my thing with my friend is all good now cuz i wrote her a note and it basically explained my self and how i felt but she's not really great at sympathizing and i always feel uncomfortable around her when i try to express my feelings about something, i feel like she doesn't want to handle it and so she blows me off. yeah she needs to work on that part because im a very open person and if she isn't welcoming to that part of me then that part of me will be shut off to her because she makes me feel like i can't talk to her about something because she doesn't know how that feels or doesn't want to think about it or even console me and say a simple im sorry. after she read the note and it told her about how i was jealous of thier situation, all she could say was well i can't do anything about it. i found her response very cold and unwelcoming and every time i try to tell her something about myself she shuts off and doesn't listen and pretends like there is no problem.
BAH! IT MAKES ME MAD! and now she won't be good at talking with people when she's older later in life.
BAH!

well as a response to one of the comments that KarinSama left its "S-U-N-B-U-R-N" NOT SUNBUM! BHAHAHAHA!
well i feel somewhat better than yesterday i suppose, so today my duckies, you may have a quiz! ;P

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What wise quote fits you? [pics]

Your wise quote is: "The best antiques are old friends" by Unknown...
Your buds is the source of your happiness (maybe not all but still). Even if it's just one, a couple or a whole group they are the ones you can't wait to see. It does not matter if you're shy with everyone else or not, with them you let your true spirit shine and can be as loud as you want. They accept you, and you love them for that.
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What is your connection with darkness? [pics]

Your connection with darkness is through your interest in vampires. Theese occult beings fascinates you. Their lives are just something you would kill for, and if you would have the opportunity to be sired, you would. Living a mortal kind of life is just so ordinary and boring. You aren't necessarly evil just because of this interest/obsession, you just can connect with them and their lifestyles. Though people have a hard time understanding this and chances are you're a social outcast. Perhaps you hate your life and therefor developed this interest, to escape reality.
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or maybe even 3! you lucky ducky!

What is your element? [with pics + detailed answeres]

Your element is Light. Your heart is pure and shining with love. You believe in the goodness of those around you and give almost everyone a smile. You are not the kind to hide your happiness and tend to smile all day long, both in and out. But when sadness hits you, you become very devastated and may be upset for quite some time. What you need in your life is friends, friends who will love you unconditionally, like you love them. But you have a naive nature and don't always notice when someone is trying to hurt you. Some would say you are oblivious to mean people, which makes you an easy target. However, your true friends will probably be there for you and save you. In school you are either the popular one or the little weird one. It all depends if "the higher people" find your caring side irritating or not. Nevertheless, you have a bubbly personality and are social. Big partys may not be your thing since you want bonding time with your friends, so slumber-partys fit you more. You like the happy things in life and like everyone else to be as happy as you are.
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well enjoy them all! have a kick ass day!


Lovies,
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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

   i laugh so hard cuz i want to cry! ;P
hey everyone! how goes it?
well im pretty much over my old sunburn and the one i got just after that too. but hey life rolls on.
so i have this friend who has a boyfriend and he is really unatractive to me and im jealous not necesarilly of them but of thier situation and i have this other guy who i really like and i know i can't have him because he's taken and so i see my friend and how she talks all the time about it and i see this guy that i really want but i know i can never have and its really hard! BAH! im frusterated!
grrrrr
*vent vent vent*
many people think that i should just get over him but its really hard for me cuz he's a really nice guy even tho he's kinda bad, but underneath you can tell he respects women and is a really good person and his parents own a chinese restorant and he knows how to cook and he's the only guy i could ever see me going out with and i know that it will never happen and it breaks my apart.


bah! i sound so dramatic and dumb but that is how i feel. and it sucks!
well i certainly hope that all of you will have a much better week than i have had so far.

OH CRAP! ITS ONLY MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry no quiz today, but i still love you all! ;P

Lovies,
-Padfoot-
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Friday, May 5, 2006

   whoooooo!
hey all! well im really supposed to be doing my homework but fuck that! bah! well i guess i should cuz i normally do but i just don't want to! bah! well anyways, guess what im listening to?

yeah thats right!
well maybe not,...

CHINESE RAP!

yeah i know! and the fact that im taking Japanese! wierd! but hey its all good. Its this guy named Jay Chou. if you've heard of him tell me! that be kool to talk about! weeee! well im really tired and i was digging a hole outside cuz my little bro wants to make a "fox hole" so i decided to help him cuz the shovel is just a little too big for him, and i didn't want him to hurt himself. so i start digging and the earth is pretty soft from all the rain so its all going good till i step on the shovel wrong when i try to shove it into the ground and i twist and my leg scrapes into the spade part of the shovel and now i have a fatty gash on my leg! bah! it hurts! and i can tell im going to get internal bleeding from it too! god damn! bah!
well i hope none of you scrape yourselves on shovels anywhere out there cuz it hurts like a mother!
so i hope you all had a bit of a better day than i did today. how was it? do tell.
k love you all, heres a quiz!

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What kind of wings would you have? (Anime Pics)

You have black butterfly wings. You are very quiet and love to listen to music. You do have a few close friends but you are kind of shy. When you open up and show people how you are they love your gentle nature.
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Tuesday, May 2, 2006

   SUNBURNT!
bah! i had a way intense weekend! it was crazy! I had a Camp at Santa Clara Vanguard and we were there fri sat and sun.
fri was 7-10
sat was 9-10
sun was 10-5
BAH!
all together i spent about 13 hours in the sun! gah! can you even imagine how sunburnt i am? not to mention sore! we learned 31 sets of drill in 2 days and then those same 2 days we put it to work! as in we already started doing the flag routein! bah!!!!!!
it soooo hard too! and i really want to get on rifle line but the rifles they have are really big and really heavy and its really hard for me to toss a f-ing 6 when i can barely toss a 5 on my 36'' rifle!~(the Vanguard ones are 39'') baaaaaaaaaaaah!
im going to work really hard tho and see if i can stay on riffle line! ;) watashi wa ganbarimasu! ;P

Lovies,
-Padfoot-
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

   bah!
hey everyone! im so excited! Santa Clara Vanguard Cadetts is starting soon! i can't wait!
thats more of my color guard thang!
bah! im hungry! does anyone have cookies or cake at their house that they want to bring me? please! i want cake! bah!
oh well.
but seriously, do you have cake and will you give it to me?





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P.s. LIGHTBULB!
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

   IM BACK!!!!!!!!
hey everyone! i missed you all.
but i also had tons of fun in austria!
it was sooooo beautiful there i couldn't hardly stand it! sooooooo much fun too! i got to know several people better than i had and i got to make some new friends too! hooray! and i got to know the guy i like a lot better too! but thats a whole nother story, one that is worth telling all the way through!
well happy easter (uh yesterday) and yeah. also happy birthday to my brother, who is now 13! (um back on April 9th) ok so i was gone in austria, what was i supposed to do? i did buy him gifts tho! give me some credit! hmmm well other than being reeeeeeeeeally jet lagged im doing just fine and in better spirits than ever before! comeing back to school even hasn't been as hard scince i went to austria! please excuse the spelling errors! Love yas!

Lovies,
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Thursday, April 6, 2006

   AUSTRIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAH! IM SOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED TO GO TO AUSTRIA!!!!!!!!! IM LEAVING FRIDAY NIGHT AT 5!!!!! I WISH WE COULD LEAVE EARLY THO CUZ I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BHSAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!! < 333333333333333

>.< XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A;SDJKFGHA;UIDFHVJKNARWEUISHF;D[POIHJ;CA;WERUIOHGV;DOIUFDHNACKERLHTGOIDFUPUOFERAN;GOIUUDFJOSGIHRESOGIUYHDFASKJNRE;GOUIVHAOWEURASOG;IHJANJEWRIUAYFHLWERAHGIUAH;ERAOUIGHJKRAELGPVOUHAN;REOIGUHJNOUIWAERHGVIUSDFHJGNVFO;UID;HJTFRUOA;SFHJVP;WEAIOUHJTG90UIPORJA;IOUS4HJRNGMVXFIODUHAJNRWE;HGUIFHAWERUIO;;GJVJDFNFSERIUGHA;N;ERGOI;AWJHERO;GKJDFNVIUSERSHJG;OHEIRUDFZIHVNAKJRELHEGOI;ERHGJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF ANY ONE CAN INTERPERATE THAT LAST PARAGRAPH OR FIND THE HIDDEN WORDS , I WILL LOVE THEM FOREVER!!!!!! (OR AT LEAST UNTIL I GO TO AUSTRIA AND MEET SOME HOT AUSTRIAN GUY!!!!!!!!! XD!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE IT!!!!!!
THIS WILL BE MY FIRST TIME OUT OF THE COUNTRY!!!!!!!WOOOOOOOT WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK IM DONE!

Lovies,
-Padfoot-
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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

   SKORE!
ANOTHER QUIZ!!!!!!





What Humonculi Are You?


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