Saturday, May 20, 2006

   HELOOOOOOOO?
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BAH!!!!!!!!!

why the hell is life so fucking dramatic right now!? i have a friend that i can't trust w/ anything and she's always hurting me physically and emtionally! i hate it! she's so manipulative and controlling and i can't deal with her anymore! part of me knows that most of it's not her fault but that just another excuse i make up for myself so that i can try anf force my self to be friends with her again, because for some reason i can't stand not having her as a friend. im one of those people who always wants everyone they ever meet to be happy. but of course that is never going to become a reality. i always feel myself getting sucked into this girls stupid games where i try sooooo f-ing hard to keep her friendship and make her like me, but it exhausts me and she knows that what she does drives me up the wall and she does it perposely! GOD DAMN!!!! i used to have such a bad urge to want to be her friend, but the more i try and the more i get exausted and fail the more i see that maybe i would be better off without her in my life. im not entirely sure if that's what i want but i can't tell. this all started when i was angry at her at one of my friends b-days and i had to leave early to go to guard practice and so i gladly left. but when i went to pick up this girl i go to practice with i was still angry, so i talke total shit about the girl behind her back to my practice buddy. well the next day there were listings for the people on leadership for my band at school, and my practice buddy wasn't on the list, so she got hella pissed at me for some reason and went off and told the girl who drives me crazy all the shit i talked about her. so now i have a girl who drives me crazy and a "buddy" who i can no longer trust with any thing. GREAT! HOLY FUCK! WHO THE HELL MADE ALL THIS FUCKING DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so now im at my dad's house where no one else is and im far away from all of those people and remembering it all has drawn me back to reality some what and i have found that i needed to vent so there!
well im sorry this post is so fucking long and that i sware so fucking much but im angry.
well now im off to see the Da Vinci Code!!!
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Can you trust your friend(s)? (beautiful anime pics)

Hm, i see we're not so different then. you don't really trust your friend and you lost your trust in them. Your all alone with no one to understand you. Maybe try looking for someone who does understand you and can talk to. You must be the loner type? You don't say much and when you do you just blow off because you want to tell a friend and if your angry you don't controll yourself and just go off. Becareful though when you do.
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Can you trust your friend(s)? (beautiful anime pics)

Your un-sure of your friends. Half of you wants to trust them and the other half doesn't. Was there something that happened between you and you lost your trust in them? try working it out and see what happens. If your friend doesn't react in a good way maybe they're the one thats messed up because your a very good person!
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