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Birthday • 1993-06-14 Gender •
Female Location • Oregon Member Since • 2007-01-26 Occupation • I'm a Sophomore now! Yea! Real Name •
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Achievements • Still being alive, and actually being at least moderately good at a shooting game. Oh, and my drawing is way better than it used to be :D Anime Fan Since • Since I was about five, 'cause I used to love watching Pokemon Goals • Finding somewhere I belong, being happy, opening my own all-anime-and-manga store, become an author, and learn how to speak Japanese, Latin, and German fluently. Hobbies • Writing, drawing, thinking, daydreaming, playing Halo 3. Talents • All the above hobbies. [Except maybe Halo]
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Sunday, October 14, 2007
Antisocial
I've been very antisocial lately...
I can't exactly stop either for some reason...
Especially on theO...
I...just don't really want to talk to anyone anymore...
Yesterday even, when there was a party, I went through it all without even smiling once... (except to be polite to my grandma)
Homecoming was fun though. For once I wasn't left all alone during a dance.
Ja-san was there, but he wasn't dancing like how he normally does. I asked him wat was wrong when I was waiting 4 my mom to pick me up and he said that the girl he wanted to dance with had gotten grounded before the dance an wasnt able to go. ;-; Not only does THAT make me depressed (even more) it seemed he had been avoiding and ignoring me during the dance. Alot. Cuz whenever I would try to talk to him he would pretty much just look at me and walk by or away. That makes me even more depressed now and I just want to go sit in a corner and cry.
Though, at the very last song of the dance, (of course it was a slow dance D:) I was going to wakl out into the hall and leave when some random guy came up to me and asked to dance with him. I said okay and we did. It was quite fun actually. He and I talked while we danced. I didn't actually know him or anything but it made me happy that someone would actually want to dance with me. He was very cute and funny. D: Sadly as soon as the song was over and the lights turned on he said thank you, hugged me, and left. >< I didn't even get his name, what grade, ANYTHING. It makes me kinda more sad. My first slow dance with someone and I don't even get his name. Well, at least I knew it actually MEANT something to the guy. He said that the only time he danced was on slow songs, and that he was glad he found someone to dance with....so that made it better...
right now I just hate talking to people...
I just need to get away from all my 'friends'
right now i feel as though having 'friends' around is just destroying my life, making me feel alone and left out and all the emo crap.
so now I just want to be left on my own, maybe finally making a mense in my life.
I have no clue what started this hell, but I know that ever since I can remember, I've always felt left out of games and things my everyone around me...
