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Birthday
• 1991-06-27
Gender
• Female
Location
• The United States of America RULED BY A REPUBLICAN PRESIDENT!! W00T!!
Member Since
• 2005-05-23
Occupation
• student/student driver woot
Real Name
• Sakura Fujiwara

Personal

Achievements
• What Achievements?
Anime Fan Since
• I dont know. A long time I guess.
Favorite Anime
• Trinity Blood, Ergo Proxy, Eureka 7, Ghost in the shell, Rah Xephon, Fullmetal Alchemist, Chronicles of the Cursed sword, +Anima, Naruto.
Goals
• Finish High School
Hobbies
• Video Games, internet, music, playing with younger brothers :)
Talents
• Drawing I guess...

myOtaku.com: CrimsonEyesOfMine

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Problem
For a year now I have been online dating a boy in Texas through a mmorpg game called "Illutia". Just last month he confessed to me over the net that he loved me, then a couple weeks later I managed to call him on my cellphone and we had a good talk. Aparentley my mother found out about it, sent me to a shrink, and put me on absolute internet lock down. AOL does not permit me to be on longer than an hour, I have to have all the sites I go to checked by my mom before I can enter them, and I cant e-mail anyone. My friend has been telling him what has been going on the whole time through e-mail to keep him updated.
Just last week I told my friend to e-mail him asking him that I wanted to break up and his relationship with me was hurting me. My friend came back with a reply the next day saying that he would never break up with me until I was truly gone...I dont know what to do. I dont want to hurt him, but seriousley. If I keep this up, I'm only gunna be more screwed in life. I'll probobly not be permitted to use internet or my cellphone until I move out. I'll be given guilt trips every day (still happens...) about how I'm betraying my mom's trust on the internet. Not only that but I dont really have feelings for him anymore.
My heart is being torn two ways. I want to go out with another guy at my school, but at the same time I want to keep this guy in Texas happy and not hurt him.
My friend is giving me guilt trips too on how I should stay with him. Wich doesnt really makes sence because he lives in Texas and I'm in Michigan. How can I keep a solid relationship with him if every day I have to tell my friend to give him messages and I cant truly talk to him myself?! It makes me snap every night when I think about it...I just want him to go away...I dont want to worry about him anymore...I'm sorry...I dont love him anymore...If I tell my friend that, she'll tell him and then he will be sad and then my friend will make me feel bad about it. I cant stand getting all this guilt trips from my friend on how much he loves me and stuff.
What should I do...?
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