Friday, October 22, 2004

   Pile of SPOOOOOOOONS!
Haylo alll!!!

WEEEEEEEEEEE!! Today be last of school thingy and I be verrrrry Happy indeedily! Woo no school for a week!

I cuurently be in big group internet phone call yokey with my mattes on skype. It's very good. I recommend it verily. You can get it here: http://www.skype.com/ yup yup

Weh today was same as usual borrrring. But people noticed I was all bouncy and hyper and they were all "Woooooooah" and i was alll "Duuuuuuude!" lol not really but that would have been coolies.

Ugh I'm tired so I'll be off now. I'm sorry my posts are kind of boring but they'll improve soonies promise!!!!!!

anyways booyakasha!!!
eh byeeeee
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Monday, October 18, 2004

   SWOOOOOOOOOOOSHLE BARRels of fun!!! Le moooooooo!
hELLLOOYYYYYYY!!

oH MY GOLLY GORSH i HAVEN'T BEEN ON IN YONKIES! kEH LIFE GETTING IN WAY and stuff........Oh didn't realise I was writing in caps...


Lol anyways Yeh schmoop. I'm just writing a quick yokey during lunch, i got's to go back to school in a few minutes. Wah school I haties it. But it's mid-term break next week, so yayness!! *dances*


Ah I don't wanna go back to school, my friends boyfriend keeeps winding me up! I let slip that I like a guy in his class and he's taking great pleasure in torturing me. He keeps threataning to ring the guy up and stuff and I'm like "AAAAAHH!!" Ah I'm such a big moo for telling him! ^^;;

Ugh anyways off I go back to that place of not-niceness......

BYEEEEEE!!!




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Saturday, October 9, 2004

   depressedness.........
WAYLOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Argghhhh!! i was all depressed and stuff today and I don't know why!!!It was just before I was going to choir and I was getting dressed and I just felt really horrible. I was just thinking lots of negative things about myself and I started cryng for ages. And then my friend called for me and she asked me if I was okay and I just burst into tears again. And she was all "what happened?" And i was all "I don't knoww!!"


I was all kind of depressed when I went to see "A shark tale" today too. I was just sitting there waiting for the moovie to start and I just started thinking aboot how I would never get over it if my mother died. I mean, what a time to start thinking aboot something like that! I dunno, I just take her for geanted but she could die at any time, her being overweight and diabetic with an enlarged heart, and it really really scares me. Ackies I such a big worrier..

Oh and a shark tale was kind of meh. dEfinitely wasn't as goot as shrek or finding nemo in my opinion.


The concert yokey last night was really coolies! Some of the bands vwere kind of crappy but it was still fun anywho. I was just jumping all over the place being merry. I had to avoid the mosh pit some rowdy lads started in the middle. I didn't want to get my arm torn off!

Ahh everyone was making oot and stuff in corners and i was like "Get a rooooom!!!" There was this 13 year old with like an 18 year old all over her and it was just kind of weird.....X_x Anyways yah was goot.

I be going noow yah???

Bye thu byeeee!!!


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Thursday, October 7, 2004

   Parent's suck!! *mutter mutter mutter*
Mah mah wah wah! *stamps foot anrgrily* Damn strictness of stoopid parenst and their being worried and over protectiveness of I HATE THEM!!!

Okies tantrum over, yay I feel better! ^^

But seriously though overprotectiveness=annoyingness. >.<

*sighs* Anyways sozzy i haven't bin on for ages, well a couple of days I've just been busy with nothing in particular. Lol loads of unimportant crap just seems to take up my time. My lifes just been the same old poo so nothing really exciting to say.

Oh they're making us take these aptitude tests on monday to see where our strong points are and what job we'd be best suited to. Woo! Day of taking pointless tests! *dances*

ooh and i be going to this big concert yokey tommorow with all my local bands playing. Should be a larf. An excuse for me to dance around manically :D I wish my friend who be in Spain be here though. I need her to encourage get my crazy side oot!! ;__;

Oh and here be pie




Oh and random quezzie.......If you had to choose between having your two friends sleep over or going to your boyfriend's hoose, which would you choose?

hmmmmmmmmmmmies......

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Monday, October 4, 2004

   Suicide?? Why???
Heidly hooo...

Argh I was all in a goot mood but then my friend had to tell me about this girl who killed herself because she was over weight and being bullied and then showed me her death letter....It made me cry!

Why are people so fucking horrible? There is nothing wrong with being overweight and it's no reason to get bullied! Bullying is mornonic anyway, especially over something so stoopid as the way you dress and waht you look like and shit like that. It just makes me so angrry!

Here's the letter:

It was 8 o'clock, my alarm went over half an hour ago. I was waiting for mum to walk up the stairs and walk in. I turned over and hoped I would never wake again.

I used to give a girl a lift to school each day, even though she used to hit me, it didn't matter, she was still someone to follow to escape lonely ness.

I waited for my mother to walk in 'Laura im sick off running up and down these stairs now get up!'

I would look at her 'mum, I don't feel well'. 'Whats wrong now?!' 'My tummy hurts and I feel sick'. 'It's a girl thing now get up!'

I did, I got up, walked over to my door, took of the school clothes, I was a shocking size 24, I just ate and ate, I didn't care anymore, I shoved myself into it and went down stairs. I put in my lunch box and I felt my heart start to beat faster, and gripping pain inside myself, but no, this wasn't a special day, this was everyday.

This had gone on for a few weeks now, I was fat, ugly and worthless. Monday aah Monday.

There we were outside the school, people looking at this fat lump which is myself but oh well. I didn't want to leave the car, I wanted to die. I walked down the corridor, Here, Boys standing just before the stairs, legs out, waiting to trip me up, how wonderful. I managed to get through without making a compleat prat of myself, I felt my fat wooble as I walked into the hall. I hated it so much, I used to talk to myself in my head, only thing that kept me ok to live. Ahhh here it was Leah. 'Oh my god, is it true, your a dyke?'

I didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything and walked off. Why were they doing this? Why me? I was fat. Still a person. It had gone for six months. Same thing every day.

I saw some boys laughing at the fact I was fat, and possibly a 'dyke' I wannted to cry so much. But I couldn't. I had on friday, I can't again.

At last! Here Mrs stephens comes 'morning 7c, Nice weekend?' I felt like saying 'Ohh yes, It was wonderful, I cried all the time, how was yours?' But no-one cared anyway so what was the point?

Yes, I had told my parents, they thought I just didn't like going to school. I just hoped like they said 'they will get bored'. While I got fatter and fatter and sadder and sadder. Everyone got meaner and meaner.

I sat at my desk and got my books out, Everyone looking at me, I felt worthless. I didn't care about numbers, spelling, or how many drops of acid you had inside you, all I cared about was this gripping pain everyday.

Some of my mind on my work, some on my aunty, Lovely lady, Rosemary. She had just been told she had Lung Canser, Made my bit of builling seem like nothing, but it was , oh but it was.

The seconds seemed to take ages to tick by, most pupils waiting for break, I hated it, a chance to be with the whole school, and have the piss taken more.

Yesss! English right at the end of the school. I raced down the stairs trying not to fall, ingoring everything that was said. Here we are English. I sat down and started drawing flowers, not pretty ones, dead ones, hanging, lifeless, worthless, a piece of shit you throw out in the rubbish, thats how I felt. Just like that.

Break, People flooding into the halls. Running, Pushing people over, how much better could you get? 'Oi!! Outa the way fatty!' I just moved, I wanted to close my eyes and it all to disappear.

Only ten minutes left thank god, I don't think I could take much more, I wannted to throw a sicky, but I needed a new illness, It was tummy ach last week, I needed something new, I didn't even need to make myself feel sick, they did it for me.

They never really believed me anyway. They didn't believe I was being bullied, or I was Ill. I was standing clutching my bag. Holding myself together as if to let go of this bag, would to let go of any pride, or anything I had left, I wasn't too stubborn to ask for help, I did ask, but they didn't pay any atten. Lesson three, Tecnology, cooking Fruit salad, I ran up the stairs, got called 'fat fuck' this time, wasn't too bad.

AT LAST the final run Home, I rushed down the road, holding the tears back. 'Hiya how was school?' 'Fine' I replyed, didn't seem any point saying anything else did there? They didn't listen.'I'm going to the loo', I didn't even enter the bathroom, I went into the box room. I took out a scissors, I knew what I was doing, maybe this would show them what they were doing. I draged it over my wrists a few times, the next few times pressing harder, It felt really good. I hurt, but I pressed harder, shit. There was a mark, a deep red one, what can I do?"

There yeah... I'm going to go before I start ranting about the cum of the earth again..

Toddles!
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Sunday, October 3, 2004

   It's colddd
Wah I woke this morning and the hoose was bloody freeezing. Ugh I had to get up at thhe ungodly hour of 8.00. On a friggin Sunday!! Who's idea was it to go into town at 10 anywayz darnit. I shouldn't have went to bed at 3am. ^^;;

Well when I woke up there was 3 eppys of yu-gi-oh in a row and i was all "Whaeyyy" But I seen them all billions of times before and I was all "pooo"

Well that's been my morning I may returrn laterz.

Bubyeeee!!
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Saturday, October 2, 2004

   Janey macaroni!! Lookie at that rain!!
Well actually more hailstones I think. Ugh the lovely weather we get here in Ireland......blechhh.....

Anywhooooze meh. I've kinda just been on the net all day boredies. Weekends are always so boring for me and stuff. And my parents are gone away and I'm all home alone and it's all spooky cos I keep thinking that there's someone in the house but it's actually just my next-door neighbours hammering and listening to really loud dance music.....though i don't get why, I mean they're kind of deaf and dumb so music seems kind of pointless to me...

Lol I was so bored this morning that I decided to do homework! Lol I must be the only person who ever did their h/w on a saturday morning. ^^;; Oh and I think I'm the only person who's homework causes them to burst into tears and throw their pen at the wall in frustraion and breaking a really cool pen in the process. Oh silly me...

Hey the sun's out now. How queer. o_O

I'm gunna go into town tommorow and see a film with my friends but I don't know what film I want to see. My friend wants to see Wimbledon, but I'm just not in the mood for a romantic comedy. What I really want to see is Hero but stoopid Irish cinema and they're not bringing Hero over her for Crobo to see!!! >.< I hate them!!

Okies ranting over now. Anyways can anyone recommend any filmies?

Gots to go noow.

Bye the bye!!!!

*wavies*
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Friday, October 1, 2004

   Fuair Crobo and ticeidi!! Ta an-sasta orm! ^__^
Haylooooo!!

Yayness. It be fridgeyaaa!! Weekend, yaynesss!!! *does jig*

I gots my Blink 182 tickets today. My maties and I got to ticketmaster just in time cos there was only 11 ticketies left! 0_0 I'm all happy noow anyways. I have to borrow some of their albums from friends since I don't really, like you know......listen to them ^^;;

In other news, my friend in spanish land is coming home!! Yay!! I be all happy! Aparently she hates it over there cos it's real boring and everyone ignores her and so she be coming backies! She had to fight with her dad loads first, but yah!! I be happy. :D

Oh I'm just really glad school is over for the week, the flipping amount of test I got was yucky! And I definitely failed the irish one cos I wrote a completely irrelovant to the question, 1/2 of which I think I might have written in french....oh dear.

Anwyas I'm gonna leave you with floogle!!

Bey the beyyyy!!

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Wednesday, September 29, 2004

   Normal days are soooo borring......
Haylo!!

Yup yup today be another boring day so I'm not going to bore you with it.

Instead I'm going to talk about the important topic of school toilets. They suck! Bringing a bucket to school would be more hygienic I mean yeeeeesh!! If theres not a loada blood down em there's a shitload of well shit.....

Yah okay I've probably grossed enough of you out now, but I just had to get it off my chest!

*coughcough* yes..... Lol I'm on msn at the moment and me and my friends are talking to this guy who's afriend of my brothers in his 20s and we're telling him we're in college and stuff. It be amusing indeedles. He thinks I'm doing arts in Ucd and I was at THAT party the other night. hee spoons ^_^

I can't wait till the weekend free house parteyy!! But no really I don't want to be keelt.....I'm thinking aboot getting my nose pierced though........what do uez thinkys???

Ok I gots to go noow.

Bye the bye!!

*wavies*
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Tuesday, September 28, 2004

   Third toilet's the charm.......
Yah school sucked today but I'm overr it!! I jus get my mind off..........woooah colours.

Woo! I might be going to see blink 182 with ma maties. I don't really like em that much but it'll be a larf. I wish I was going to R.E.M though *smiles sadly*

I NO BE PENGUINNNNN!!! *shakes floogle barrel threataningly*

Sorry for the weirdness Crobo be hyper..... ^^
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