Tuesday, February 3, 2004

Not Goodbye...See you Later!

Will Miss You...When Come Back...Gonna Write in Right Away!

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Be Back Next Month!
I am going away for 40 days or more to this place, in Korea. If you wanna know the name of it, its called Cheong-Pyeong. Yea Crosscarsamurai (I hope I spelled your sn right...^^; ) knows the place :D Heh.

Anyways yea...I am going to stay there for 40 days from tomorrow...I dunno if I can post tomorrow, but I wll try...okay? See you. :D

Click for A Bigger Version. - Tonari no Totoro - My Neighbor Totoro

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Monday, February 2, 2004

Just saw a Ghibli Movie
Hey today, was ok.. the good thing is that I got to talk to my dad. 2 times today. After 20 minutes that I finished talking to my dad, then he called again.

Well yea, remember when I said that the staff told me to go to this place, my dad said I should stay there for 40 days. But I trust him, I mean he at least TOLD me, unlike the staff, thinking that they told me, and they didnt.

Yup, I miss my dad. I miss my mom. I miss my brothers.

I also figured out that my youngest brother, his BEST friend, his only friend that he was with for so long, doesnt talk to him anymore.

I dont know what happened, but my youngest brother officially, practically doesnt have many friends anymore. Only school friends, but church friends.... ¾ø¾î¿ä. (thats in Korean, just incase you didnt know what it is.) Oh yea the english, none. ¾ø¾î means none. Well yea.

Ugh, I feel so sorry for my brother, thats why when I get the chance, I am going to try to talk with him, and maybe with hi friend. Oh yea his friend is Shinji... ^^; thats in english, Japanese its Shinchi. Haha cool right? Anyways, I gotta go. Dinner, Sushi. ^^ And Riceballs....but they dont serve Sashimi here....soo bad for me...hehe...anyways yea.

Some terrible things happened today, but I dont want to talk about it. Oh yea my friend, who went to this place, came back! Her name is Gloria. A Full Japanese, ^^ Her sister is best friends with me here in the dorm, her name is Satoka. :D

Well see you later.... :3

Neko no Ongaeshi - The Cat Returns

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Sunday, February 1, 2004

I went to the place..that they told me to...even though they said it was my decision...andI said no...but they kept bugging me untiI said...yes already.

so I went. It was good time because I was with my friend...

also...it was good but bad...not that much bad....

yea. Gotta see some people who left the dorm the day before or something like that...

hey I was outside a lot...which I am not supposed to be...and I didnt even go to the special hospital there...plus
my ears are hurting now.
Ha.

Well Pictures...and see you laters.

Spiral Manga 2

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Friday, January 30, 2004

ARGH
Now they are making me go to this place, and tells me on the last minute! I mean I made plans for today (which is Saturday) and, NOW I HAVE TO GO THERE!

And I come back on Sunday night!

What I WAS going to do TODAY, was sleep take a shower, and RESTORE MY ENERGY!!!!

Right now I am pretty mad.....3 DAYS STRAIGHT!

I Dont know about ANYTHING thats whats going on with me.

PLUS, I am supposed to go to the doctors today, too see if the medicine worked....and guess what....

One of the Staff memembers said I dont have time to go....

HELLO???? REALITY CHECK?! IF THE MEDICINE DOESNT WORK AND THEN I HAVE TO GET AN OPERATION!!!!

ARGH! And I told her that! SO ANNOYING! GOODNESS!

TT Isnt my life going great. I "LOVE" it so much!

Now a picture.... >:P

Doreamon

Haha its so small....^^; I have to go now...the staff wants me in the office...maybe for another one of those talks...man...I NEED A BREAK! SLEEP!!!! ENERGY!

See you later...IF I live.

Oh yea thanks for the comments...so much.
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I HAVE A STICK LIFE!
I DISLIKE today period. And it just HAD to start from the morning of today, until currently NOW. I mean HOW GAY IS THAT?! Oh wow, now I see other people I know are having trouble with their life, and they arent even livning the dorm like I am! I mean look at it this way,

THE STAFF IS MOVING ME TO THE 2ND FLOOR WITHOUT MY SAY IN IT! I MEAN HOW STUPID IS THAT??!?!?! It like it just saying to ditch my only roomates WHO CARE ABOUT A LOT MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE HERE?!?!?!? Today I practically didn't smile at ALL. I am not moving to the 2nd floor. Almost everyone doesnt appreciate who I am. They dont talk to me BECAUSE THEY DONT KNOW WHO I AM!

Yea, and all they know whereI came from, and what my name is, what I like (ummmm no not all a few) and other commom details but they dont know who I really am.

I mean at the begining, we are like lets be friends with everybody! We are all sisters all united! No one is supposed to be ALONE.

Now lets rephrase that.

We have our own little "groups" of friends, even though we still talk to other "groups", not everybody is in a "group", and they practicallty arent spoke to at ALL. We arent all united. AND PEOPLE ARE ALONE.

Now you get it? Things change. and this is one of the things that changed. Yes probably you know that maybe I am alone, but so what right now I dont even care! At school we took 4 tests right? And during break, all I did was DRAW. and thats it.and writing to myslef how I feel. And then after school, I was im my room all alone for hours, and guess what, no one cared, I was forgotten.

Yes maybe the person who TOLD ME THAT EVERYBODY HATES ME AND MY BORTHERS might be true. But it might not be. THE WORLD HAS MILLIONS OF POSSIBILITIES!. And guess what MORE stress on ME! Yesterday I went to the ear doctor right? and she said if the medicine doesnt work, I WILLL HAVE TO GET AN EAR OPERATION. Oh yea, THE PERSON WHO TOLD ME THAT THEY WHISED FOR ME TO DIE IN MY SLEEP FREEZE...WHATEVER. MAYBE ITS GOING TO COME TRUE! YaY!!!!!!!! ARENT YOU HAPPY?????!!!!!!! I am sorry, I AM JUST PISSED!.THE STAFF DOESNT EVEN LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY WHEN THEY FORCE ME TO DO THING I DONT WANT TO DO! I MEAN ISNT THIS MY LIFE I AM TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF!!!?!??!?!
HOW CAN I SURVIVE THIS WORLD IF I DONT MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS?!?!?! HOW CAN I LIVE HAPPY IF I DONT LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES?!?!?!?

WELL THE PEOPLE WHO KEEP TELLING ME THAT I EVERYTHING THATS HAPPENING LIKE ME MOVING TO THIS ROOM AND EVERYTHING IS WRONG.SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes I know, life isnt fair. and I cant always get what I want. But right now, staying in my TRUE ROOM with my TRUE ROOMATES is what I need! Guess what. I wrote like 5 pages of how I feel so far today....and I AM NOT EVEN DONE YET!

HOW HAPPY TODAY IS ISNT IT?!?!?!?

Sorry. Thats how I feel. Yes I know that how life is, and its so crucial, and the staff knows every LITTLE thing thats wrong about me, THAT DOESNT MEAN THEY HAVE TO MAKE IT WORSE!

Yes I am grateful for them loving me, but if I am not happy with what they FORCE me to do, isnt that wrong? Yes I know I cant have all of the things I want. but this one I need. Without it, I wouldnt even smile as much, and show my true feelings to this world called Earth.

Sorry. Yea. I know I am supposed to follow the rules and all, and each and everyone of us in the dorm tries our best to follow them but ummmm when we do room change, ITS OUR DESICION we PAY to sleep in the rooms....so I DONT HAVE TO MOVE...and I am never goin to move unless I want to....yep.

Now that my attidue..change I might not even get accpeted for Prep in the dorm. But you know coming again to the dorm isnt all that good, yea I will miss a lot of things but not everybody will get accepted. So yea.

Anyways I am sorry again. See you later. Goodbye.

Heh. all day today though, no one talked to me. except for 5 people...but mostly what they talk to me is for their needs, questions.

Thank you for listening. Ummm Picture.

Spiral. Such a cool Manga/Anime

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Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Dead
I failed. My speech. Dead.

My ear infection..came. I stopped saying it. and then I countinued after one minute.

I died. I dont think I made it to the finals.

Only 10 people can make it. And there are about 50 kids in the pliminaries.

Plus, I dont think I got a good grade either. And I studied for it so much, putting so much effort, it all goes away just because of some ear infection.

I care about my grade more than the finals or the prize money.

But I suck. I dislike this. But then, Life isnt always fair. I cant always get what I want. And this is one of them.

Yes. Thats it. I lost. I lose the game. All of the effort goes down the drain.

Oh well...I should be happy for the others who did better, I mean. I care for others more than I care for myself. Oh well.

See you. Picture.

Thanks. See you.
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Tuesday, January 27, 2004

Lunch Break here in the dorm/school
Hey everybody...hahaha I am on my lunch break..I dont think I am going to use the computer after this...maybe...but I am not sure..
I need to study my Speech....because the pliminaries..are tomorrow. You know...Gotta ghet to the finals..

this speech contest counts 50 percent of our korean conversation grade. Its that important...its half!

plus...if I win at least 1 2 or 3...I think I get money for a prize...or whoever wins.

Yup...so see you!

No picture today I guess...sorry!

EDIT!!!

woooo its like 10 min to study time here in the dorm. hahaha

I gotta study my speech badly...feel asleep when I got to my room. Also...I drew...TT;

Oh yea just to tell you peoples...I drew this guy holding a gun...yes a gun...and it actually came out good! Man thats rare. It came out so cool! hahahahahaha...he looks so depressed... XD

and then I drew a girl...but I didnt finish it yet...hahaha...I dunno what to make her hold...a gun or a knife/dagger...thinger.

Ha she looks depressed too...^^;

Anyways yea...they are my characters...I love them...hahahaha they are awesome!

Anyways its now four (4) min until study time...

cant put a image up today..sorry. See you laters!
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   Real Entry Gone...
Darn it...the window closed so my entry is gone...oh well...^^;

Anyways yea...today is TP's B-day...people dont ask who they are to hard to explain...but crosscarsamurai....arent you happy? hehe Kaori is happy today I think...we went to the stadium to celebrate and the entertainment was so cool! hehe...^^

yup crosscarsamurai if you are reading this.... XD oh yea...if you wanna read what happened at the stadium crosscarsamurai... here is my xanga Bc site...rememeber? ^^; curixchan405 is the sn...hehe

:D Oh yea everybody! I have a xanga called hunterxgon405! ^^ hehe and a deviantart hunterxgon405

hahahaha same sn...^^

okay picture :D

Mai, Kuraki - Fairy Tale

Hehe right now I am listening to this album... :D The fourth track called Key to My Heart...I LOVE THAT SONG! hahahah ^^;

Here are the tracks that are on the CD... ^^

01. Fairy tale ~my last teenage wish~
02. Feel Fine!
03. Ride on Time
04. Key to My Heart
05. Winter Bells
06. Loving You...
07. Can't forget your love
08. Trip in the dream
09. Not that kind a girl
10. Like a star in the night
11.
12. fantasy

this is her offical fansite..thinger...

Mai-Kuraki.Com

hehe I guess thats it! see you later! :"D
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Sunday, January 25, 2004

Hey everyone again
hehe its lunch break right now...2 more periods and then I am free froms chool...w00t!

But right now I am pissed...there is this family I know back at home...but I dont really know the youngest child...but yea...I know him just enough to say hi...but recently...I talked to him thorugh Xanga...and he said something pissing and then I told him something and then he said...they Everybody hates my family and hates me and brothers....except for my parents....they are perfect....

Thats ...okay I disklike cursing...so thats....just wrong...I mean...thats a diss in my face...and yea...my bros say mean thing to him...but boys kid around a lot..I mean here
in Korea...
these guys in my class....they were beating up eachother for fun....like all the guys in the dorm do...and one got into the hospital...and they still beat each other up!

Thats worse then.... "you like to hump ants" (my bro says gay things...lol)

Anyways yea... and his sn is supposingly "cool"

sungisSOcool hahahaha sucker....yup

now picture then I got to go to school... ^^;

Hahahah Mentante Conan (Detective Conan) and One Piece.... LoL
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