Friday, April 28, 2006

   435 minutes of Detective conan:D
yes, my secound DVD o fDC came in, i pre-ordered it so i got it b/f the may 5 release, and all i've been doing is watching it along w/ the first and the import i got, i might soon watch the others i have which is like another 225minutes, but idk, kida hungry/tired. my parents aren't home, moms at a cathlic retreat whilest my dad works, so i watched them all w/o any problems. i'll prolly take a nap casue i was out from 12-4am last night w/ a friend driveing around, (teaching him stick-shift, which he's getting good at) well if you can't guess i am a big DC fan hence the site/6 DVD's i own. yeah i canme to the conclusion that DC is pretty much the only animie i'll actually buy on DVD, instead of saveing money, casue there are alot of other DVD'si want.. but i have to save money. i do buy mangas though of other shows. oh yeah May hopefully should be a good month. Sethos/seth knows one day i look forward to, but also on the 21's new mangas of my fav series come out DC/FMA/Naruto. yeah i rather read my series then watch them..cheaper and i dun have to find a DVD player.
ok ima leave b/f i ramble on and on, like anyone cares..lol.
Lter days
Cycon
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

   Here i am working
hehe, i'm on a off period atm. so why not add something to post...well as there is not much to post other then being bord off my ass as i watch high schoolers work, i will just talk about random things.
Yesterday that guy i talked about you sent me a note in class, i had him in my class again. he was kinda cute, he kept trying to give me his number but i had to be like no i can't casue i work here. if it had been anyother situation i'd prolly woulda responded a bit beter>:P. i did leav some induendo, but i'm a good little boy:P oh i also learned that a friend i made here was bi, but yet i never knew...mostly casue he had a girlfriend. but i asked b/f but then again he did answer vaguely now that i rember. i shoulda guessed more cause almost all his guy frinds are gay and they touch each others nipples everytime they see each other. i know casue he showed his balck/blue/yelllow nipple once, lol. well that was pretty much the highlight. but yeah i'll prolly never hit on any of them cause of two reasons...one casue i work there and that'd be sue worthy, and two...cause ihave a crush on sethos' "black mail":P
Well i'm gonna go now casue i have to do somemore non-teaching type things i guess
Ltr days
Cycon
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

   Worst feeling
The worst feeling ever is when a friend you woulda taken a bullet for desides never to talk to you, look at you, and to never aknowlage your presance again, only wanting to leave. Yeah i had that happen; gave a ride to a friend, and he was still frineds w/ him. when i got there, it was like me just being there hurt him. My life is full of dumb choices i wish i could really take back. Its not so much that he ignores me, but that i hurt him enough that he'd still hate me after all this time. Esp, when he was the first person who ever called me a friend, and ment so much to me. man life sucks so much:(

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Monday, April 24, 2006

   Funny funny times
well today was kinda funny or atleast i think so, most of the day was fine but two periods i'll have to say were funny. first in 2nd period i got hit on and a note from a student that they liked me. But that wasn't the first time nor the last casue then in 5th i had antoher do the same, although this one was more straight forward in what he wanted..lol. well the funny part is that they all were guys..infact almost any note i get about love is from a guy, it makes me laugh, some were hot but i can't do anything casue they go to the school i work at. the thing is too is that i've never said i was gay nor straight but all of a sudden like i'm being hit on by all the gay guys. from freshmen to seniors, and not a single girl. no notes from them...so i guess i'm only hot to guys:\...oh well its fine w/ me, the guys are kinda sweet...i've even gotten candy once:P
well thats about it ima go
Ltr days
Cycon
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Sunday, April 23, 2006

   Spiffy/tired
Well yesterday was a good day, went out to O-con w/ sethos/Seth/anda bunch more that i can't remebr thier nicknames..lol. Dur...well at the conven it was pretty cool, hung out and looked at all the ster'f that theys be selling. Nothing cought my eye at all, but apprently some cought seth and sethos' eyes casue i landed up buying all to gether aboot $95 worth o stuff for them. it were some nice things wallscrolls, t-shirts, dvds etc.
After that we got rdy fur the raid they were haveing at 7. yeah i got thier late after multiple calls from sethos telling me to get there, unfortunitly me mum decided to go furniture shopping fur a new table, and i got drug along.
WEll the Raid only lasted an hour, in wich there was much danceing and some guy was like scareing the crud outa me, but all ended well. oh yeah almost forgot to say, sethos and the gang dressed up as alice in rave land again, alla ushicon, they won a trophy 'n stuff so grats:D
mm..after all that stuff i went with sethos to drop her off at home and get a book she borroed from me and let her borrow my FLCL DVD's, i borrowed her fruitsbasket ones, which are spiffy too. after theat we watched some AMV's while her doggy went sphyco. hmm then i went home and watched animie till aboot 2am then went to bed and slept half a day today and here i am now:P
Well as i said b/f the day was spiffy. and now that i bought all thoses nice things for seth and sethos i own thier souls(little do they know though...muhahahaha). they said they pay me back in a bargain though so i'm happy and i'm glad i was able to make their day too:)
well till.
Later days
Cycon
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

   non, um complaining, 'r something
Today i actually feel..umm..spiffy i guess. Idk why, but i feel overly happy/hyper. Yeah no work, lets me play all day. Playing video games till my eyes bleed. then ima go out and walk my ferrets/rabbit. Yes they can be walked..lol:P oo i got another DC DVD, its an import, i have no idea the title b/c i can't read kenji. But its awsome, i also got a Neon Genesis Evangelion, and another DC DVD. They were like >$5<$10. at Sam goody casue their closeing. and oh i also got more mangas, but Sethos stole one, Naruto, but i kept my DC one casue she threatend to burn it-.-
So yeah all week been pretty spiffy, i had work till today but all i did was sit and talk to Sethos, b/c TAKS testing was the past two days and i was stuck in the Cafe not know what exactly i was suppose to do...i think i was just an extra pair of eyes. but all i did really was sit and hang out w/ sethos. Oh and if anyone asks..We're cousins. some teachers/students were giveing stares. And some students kept asking if we we're going out...which we're not, we're just good friends...not friends w/ bennifets you sickoes-.-:P
oh my ticket came in for A-con. so far room and board gonna cost somewheres around $100. so i have to save atleast 200+ b/y that 100 so i can buy more useless stuff for my room, esp DC stuff.
Oh on the subject of my room...its nearly 90% done rearangeing i just have to find a backless bookcase and vacume the lille roaches and bugs J/k:P
And...i can't think of anything else to say except ...Sethos, you prommised to do something for me(puppie eyes)..hehe:P
Ltr days
Cycon
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Monday, April 17, 2006

   Payment time
AHHHH...my bill came in from Fasfa...i owe close to $19,000...and i also owe Texas Loan $11,100...i want to cry...i owe close to $30,000 and i have yet to get a degree yet...omg i'm never gonna get outa school or outa debt ever..and i dun even have a credit card:'(

I hate school. i hate college. and summers almost here...i have to get a real job..but idk wth to do. last summer all places i applied turned me down, Subbing is the only thing so far that ppl like how i work...i might as well just turn in my cloths for papper bags already, casue thats all ima be able to afford
well enough ranting..ima go try something to do that doesn't requare $.

Ltr days,
Cycon
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Friday, April 14, 2006

   what i have learned
What have i learned
is but simple things.
So much time wasted,
to figure what was already known.

People,
full of lies,
envy, hate, lust.
They hide
so much with cover.
Love, smiles, words.
Promises, so empty
nothing fills the void.
Love so lustful,
it only lasts one night.
Friends with secrets
confided, but always told.
Best friends,
who lie about friendship.
Backstabed, molested, painful thoughts
all thats left.
To look up apon,
only to be looked down.
Good intentions, twisted.
To steal, to rape, to beat,
is that what freinds are for?

Darken clouds, never sun.
hidden in the dark, all.
To speak is to be shuned.
To love is to be used.
To care is to be uncared for.
To help is to be accused.
Sweet voice, nice tones,
empty is all they are.
Travel, buy, left alone,
the essence of frineds.

Is it best to be alone?
To let the mind wander.
To have flies by your side.
To kill all thats felt,
but saddness and dought.
Only to have others blame.
Pills, drugs, and sleep.
The only friends,
to rid what is left to feel.

What always befalls me, fallows me,
happens again and again.
Nothing to do but sleep.
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

   what not, i hate thinking of titles.:\
why alone?
never see, never be.
every action done
run, to run
blinded by what we want
forgot,
lost,
days of hate
so many,
why wake
blackness superior
let it flow, and casue pain.
spoon them out,
nothing to see
nothing to feel.
kill the pain, hide the tears.
nothing to fear, save for the hole.
excitement lost, no where to play.
all is lost when your alone.


ok, yeah, i'm bored, just thopught that up...and no i'm not killing myself, ect, just stuff i think of, or feel, not what i act do. alrighty ltr peeps.
Cycon
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

   Hope Is Deceiving, It Spreads Like A Cancer
So here i am, alone, again, hehe. no jobs this week as of yet, so i'm sitting at home in my underware, wasteing time cause i'm so bored i could just shoot myself. atleast that'd be exciteing for the .00001 sec that i relize i shot myself, then die. hmm, i'm rearranging my room, which i hate doing, but that shows how bord i am..lol. soooo yeah, ima go now b/f i bore the rest of you. blah
Cy
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