Friday, April 7, 2006

   Deep feelings of forbodeingness
i don't know why but this whole week and part of last, i've been haveing a feeling that something really really bad is gonna happen. Its just a feeling i know but i've had them before and it typicaly is casue somethig bad happens. One such ocation i can rember is when i had a freind lose his parents when i feelt uneasy, another i lost a beast friend, i almost died, and was in a hospital for about a week. so yeah, i'm kinda scared, i really hope it turns out to be nothing and i feel better, but i just know something bad is gonna happen and i dun know what, i just hope it doesn't hurt anyone i know...well ltr, b/f i freak myself out even more
Ltr
Cy
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Thursday, April 6, 2006

   No job so i shell amuse you, 'r something
Silance,
Is it golden?
we hear what we want to hear,
careing not from who we hear it.
At times much is said, heard,
But do we listen?
Vacant stares, half smiles
only to humer the speaker.
Do they notice, can they notice?
who cares, for all will go silant eventually.

Listen, hear, think, respond.
so many skip atleast one part.
Why?
inept, bored, self centered, busy.
only a few attempt to skip these.
Why?
Does no one care?
Yes, but they are hard to find,
Because, since they care, there are so many they must listen to.

Leave your bubble, show sinsarity, kill the silance.
It all depends on you.


Heh, yeah..idk what to say aboot that, but yeah. today i canceled a job becasue power and water have been shut off since last night. hence no bath/shower for me, and i reak of smoke, no i don't smoke, bleh, but i have friends who do and they decided to do so in my care, and not only cigs, but cigars...omg i was turning green in that car. but w/e i guess its a free day for me. i've been haveing half days all this week thats why most of my other frineds haven't seen me, i miss ya guys..lol. but i'll see ya eventually. k well,
Ltr Days
Cycon
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Monday, April 3, 2006

   Too much sleep
Well i just ruined today in an effort to act make today better. It was so hot last night i couldn't sleep, that and it was earlier then my normal bed time due to daylight saveings. So what do i do, i took sleeping pills, useally i only take one casue i'm tired but can't fall asleep. but this time i took two casue i wasn't tired and needed to sleep, big mistake. I was out the whole night and half of today, i couldn't move. i'd wake up a frew times but couldnt move and then fell back asleep in a sec. Was suppose to work today but some how i got up at 730am and canceled the job, i was litrally being a sloth on my way to my pc, that was only 2 feet away. danm i needed the money too>.<, i'm still tired even now, legs feel like 100pds and i have a slight shiver in he hands. wow, i sleept like 16hours, prolly be more if i can't stay up, which i'm haveing a hard time now doing. man i feel like, weird, in a since it feels good, but i'm fighting it so its not that great. so the moral of the story...more then 1 pill makes you zombie. man i'm tired, going back to bed...lets try for 20hours..lol, ltrs
Cycon
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Friday, March 31, 2006

   Regret for ones past.
What is it you have left after a day, but regret... For pain given, pain received? What truely is left is what there is at the end of the day, only your thoughts and your dreams. Are those thoughts regret for dreams undone, alone, left? Dreams are what we want to have come true, but if they did they'd not be dreams, so to dream is only to lie to oneself. So what all dreams equal is that...regret.
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Monday, March 27, 2006

   Wak it a bit ha-da
well this weekend was a fairly good one, first on Sat. sethos and lemoney and i all went to see V for Vendeta which, i might say, was an excellent movie everyone should see. before which we played DDR and then frogger on the highway just fer some icecream, then we saw the movie. after which we then whent to pick up one of thier friends for a sleep over, so after much driveing, dun forget the donuts, we make it to her house, a bit lost but still there at 5mph:P we then went to sethoses house, where my adventure was brought to a close casue i am a carrier of the netorius Y..lol.
I went home while sethos had one of her sexy lesbian parties ala stewie from FG. J/k J/k. well at home i crashed for the night. the next day i find out that mail had come for me, i had gotten DC stuff for my room, wallscrolls, posters, etc. well that made my day as i attempted to find space on my walls for the new additions. then after which i just played video games till my head hurt and i was vomiting..um vomit i guess..yeah i was sick fer a while. so i wnet to bed.
Monday comes, i have a half day of work, i come intime to have lunch w/ the lovely sethos and the taft group. as we sit sethos and um...i forget her name...crud..hate brain farts. well they were going the animation they were makeing for their mangas, they looked cute, and i'm a little succubus in the animie, male succubus, that goes around waveing a sowrd while saying DOOM. oh and i also am ppls concentenc or something...but it'll be full of DOOM, so i'm happy. oh yeah sethos ate me in there too..and yet magicly i come back??? after lunch i subed for a math class, big bore. then came home where i am presently doing this...yay. so thats my recap of my dull life..laugh if you must..lol
Ltr Days
Cycon
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Thursday, March 23, 2006

   Stupid teachers
ugh, its thursday and no work...(crys), yeah everyone would be happy to miss school/work, but i need work, nesisto denero mucho. everyone, when you go to school cough, hack, sneeze, w/e just get your teacher sick so i can be called in to work...pls...stupid teachers needa stop feeling good after a week break and um..take another week off:P
Well other then the lack of work. i'm just sitting at home doing nothing, although when school lets out i talk to sethos abit, i miss everyone at taft been like 2 wks..lol, and then i talk to some one else^^ it might be good or bad idk, but sethos said she has to test them for her nil-kun...(i think thats right spelling), which isn't bad eather. but she said she may get me hooked up w/ some one better^^, but idk. i'll take it as it comes:D
oo just got a call for a half day, dang you guys work fast:P k gotta go
Ltr days,
Cycon
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Monday, March 20, 2006

   Nothing much, though much... or is it...???
well since i have nothing really to post i will amuse you all w/ a sorta question type thingy..yeah, thats it...lol. So answer honestly and if i like it, you get a gold star...Yay gold stars!!

and the question/statement is...(drum roll): Life is....
Fill in what you think it is, aren't i philasopacal or something. yeah i'm kinda hyper atm too, No work today so extra day of spring break, aha all you guys are in school. act i wish i was atm so i could get payed but w/e.
Ltr Days
Cy
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Sunday, March 19, 2006

I want to scream!!!
well that pretty much sums up my week. till ltr
Cycon

PS..An update..omg i know, how could i. But its more Conan:P
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Thursday, March 16, 2006

   One of thoses days
ever have a day where you can't remeber wth you did or happend...and your not on crack or drunk..lol. all i remeber is wakeing up, then i spaced out the rest of the day...i think i went out...but i'm not sure... Maybe i have like a split personality and my evil/good/neutral side took over while the rest of me zoncked out for the day...or for all i know something horrible happened(thinks thats where these scars/scratches came from...j/k) seriously i have no clue wth happend today. its like when i subb and the class is all quite and i zone out...everything went by soo fast i wake up when the bell rings...maybe i was asleep. kinda freaky. but its not the first time...wait could it be like the butterfly effect(a movie) ima come back and relive this day to try and chang itO.o well who knows...and no i'm not a pot head or drunk..so stop thinking that..lol:P
ltr days
cy
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Monday, March 13, 2006

   random doings
well i'm slowly redoing my site, mind that i said slowly, so dun expect something immediatly, it will still do w/ DC, casue well he's pimp like that. yeah i found out that this spring break is most likly going to be boreing casue all my friends i useally do stuff w/ left to go visit their families, or go to florida(cough)Sethos(cough). so yeah nothing much. prolly clean my room, and get a new book case...my manga and animies already filled up a two shelved book case. hmm so yeah dun know what else to say, kinda bored, naw really bored. hmm, well umm mooooooooooo.
Ltr days
Cycon
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