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Friday, March 3, 2006
typeing whild subbing and thinking
well today, at lunch, everyone appeared moody. idk why. was it me, someone else, or what. all i know that half way through lunch me and nathen where left alone. in the end nathen said i should go talk to sethos but i have no idea where the band hall is nor do i think she felt like talking. so i landed going back to my classroom for the rest of lunch. well when ever i'm alone i tend to think too much and well i did. so now you get to hear my thoughts or so since i hav no other thing to do atm.
well i started thinking about the past; you know all the things you did, and although i've know the truth since for ever, i just alwas bring it back up for no apprent reason. heh, i even woke up last night thinking about it; couldn't even fall back asleep. i hate myself that i can't just let go, but i always remebr, and it prolly always haunt me. who knows? I mean at the time i thought i was so right but i realise i was being controlled by my emotions, with out any consideration to what his life orhis past maybe like. i mean i knew alot, and i tried to help, but the more he pushed me away...i dun know. to care so much as to hurt him. I hate it, I hate myself. it always always hits me at any and all times, can't even have fun w/o the thought hitting me. i'm so afraid i'll do it to others, i hate it. why..i alwasy ask why..WHY!!. what is the fing point to try anything if everything lands up failing anyway. why..why...why am i fated to live with all this. i didn't mean to i just...i dunno.. i would have done anything, i'd still do anything. everyone, they know, i don't know how, maybe its the way i act, maybe i sould just be blank, like before. it'll never be the same; just the same as before, before it all. ugh i hate this feeling, why why can't i just kill all emotions, i just miss what was, and like anything good i have i ruin it. how long till i ruin waht i have now, prolly less then a year, like everything else...
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