Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Merry christmas to all. Er...Happy holidays?
Seems I have been watching too much Witch Hunter Robin. Not that I mind. <3

Salem

A nomad ventures from the wood,
Now unblocked by rigid trees.
He lurks in darkness all he could –
Such violent ways silence sees.

One day, he knows, he must be seen.
“Do you know what is at stake?”
“A witch,” they say, “Not yet a teen,
Whose young will they could not break.”

He sighs and states quite clearly,
“It seems my question was mistook.
Blind believers will pay dearly.
For, they are the potent crook.”

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Saturday, December 3, 2005

Some people are so fucked up
Never speaking in my physics class again – I’m sick of all the (verbal) sexual harassment in there- if there is such thing. Or it’s called “my teacher is a complete ass” And no one cares as long as its not them, which pisses me off. That was the beginning of my day. At the end of the day I got to hear about this guy asking some other girl out in his dream while he HAS a girlfriend. I mean gah! My day is complete from start to finish.

Ok. I’m calm; I swear. No more ranting about school =) –cleans off bloody metal spork- I’m just post poetry and go get some rest…It’ll all seem so far away tomorrow.

Unwanted Feelings

“Stop!”, the subconscious screams
While haunting me in dreams.
I’m aware it’s a trap,
Yet I still nicely wrap
Right around your finger
And quietly linger
For seemingly too long.
Do I really belong?

Is this my fate?
Did I willingly create
My doom?
It’s too soon
For me to die.

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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

I’m going nucking futs!
Yes, an actually shirt in Key West…That’s how I feel though =| And I could go on complaining about my day but…what’s the use? It’s in the past. Except one thing that really ticks me off. This guy in my foods class kinda has flimsy relationships that, if lucky, last more than a week(one lasted about 8 hours?). You know what? Fine, whatever. But he asked me for my bet on how long this one would last and that’s just…ugh. Its really bothering me and I don’t know why. Guess I’m sick of the word “love” being thrown around as if it was nothing but…gah, iono whats wrong with me.

Interesting rhythm to this next poem:

I fell long ago
But, like a tree,
I’m held by former roots of common sense.
So, you see,
I’m held down so
My fragility makes no difference.

A little different…

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Moving on from this heartbreak, whether guilty or not
I cut my hair, like always after one of these things. I’m so cliché. But, for once, Hilary created (or had someone else create) a nice song. Must pick up emotion with pop songs <3

If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away

Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay?

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Friday, November 18, 2005

While I was away some people did some major critic bashing...
My turn to defend them. I understood his comment. I entered the "desert rose" poem and, after lurking around the poems for about a week, i found how choppy it was. You know how people from other countries kinda skip verbs? I do to try to ryhme and not get too crazy with syllables. I've learned quite a lot and i hope to whatever diety that it helps me in english class. =P They are cool people and look as you as an equal. There are some who just bash you but I wouldn't get upset about that. Just, going through revising poetry is difficult(ugh), and every time i get shot down i have to raise my standards. So this next one is revised to have more flow!! yay!

Went to a physics day- wonderful feild trip, might i add. but~ there were no lines so you realized how little was there. we did most rides 2-3 times each. some 4. + eating + worksheets in 7 hours. some lovely people took carmeras on water rides and got them ruined heh heh heh...-cough-

And...despite my cheerful mood, I feel like poking my eye out. I entered into something I shouldn't have, and I hurt someone I cared for.

The first time,
if failed.
The second?
I bailed.
I just myself unready for this emotion.

okay, actually revised poetry.

Tea leaves

Tea leaves, when swirled in water, hold
Fortunes they have yet to unfold.
Their magic seeps into their drenched brew-
Left, undefined, for chosen few
Who can unravel their secrets.

Beware how much, though, is believed;
Manipulation has deceived
Translation of the greatest reading;
Trivial mistakes are feeding
The incomparable regrets.

if any bad comments on it, I'd like to know. before i enter it to be torn to shreds =)
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Saturday, November 12, 2005

Ouch
yay! 3 day weekend, but im disorieted because it feel slike sunday xD oops. Yea, went to see Prime - twasn't as good as hannah and i expected. o.o to dramatic in the end.

And the other interesting thing that happened, which will explain why there is no poetry, happened at a lovely little website i know that has harsh critics. I EXPECTED my poetry to come back in shreds and it did. but one commentor(without any malice, they actually offered some good suggestions) asked me if my native language was english x.x -smacks self- That's like asking someone if you like your hair cut and them commenting the your hair was dyed well when it's natural. that's just...ouch ^^;;
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Wednesday, November 9, 2005

I feel so mean, I feel in-between
-head bang- I’m sure crap feels better than how I feel. –sighs- My writing goes up during these periods though xD so I’ll just post them rather than complain

Revolution
If you could see the future, would you save those doomed
Or would you let them fall and burn?
Believing those that were only consumed
In their mistakes would truly learn...
It seems I find

I've walked down that road once before;
The path is still warm from where I treaded.
Would you trust me in offering another door
And relieve me from watching the scenes embedded
Repeating, so clearly, in my mind?

Which side do you take?
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Monday, November 7, 2005

Sometimes what was once bitter can grow to be sweet, and my concious kills me for it, because it knows better than to give into sweet temptation
I dislike and love people that remind me of boyfriends that never really died with me =| Okeii, now that that is said and done...

I've been having really strange dreams. and if it was one or two, I wouldn't mention it but its been 4 in a row now. Stuff like I'm starting to talk to turtles in my dreams that turn into either people I know or things that represent people i know. My subconcious is getting back at me. Makes me think of jane saying last year she drempt of talking kangaroos....the mad house will come and take us both away fairly soon.

Schools actually stabile for now -phew- No P.E. teachers to deal with thankfully =P And...now No Doubt is my current music obssession. XD

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
And you know it makes me sick to be on that list
But I shoulda thought of that before we kissed

You say you're gonna burn before you're mellow
I'll be the one to burn you
Why'd ya have to go and pick me
When you knew that we were different
Completely

And I feel so mean
I feel in-between
Cause I'm about to
Give you away

I believed it when I said you were going to die
Now I'm gonna watch you and you know why
Its gonna kill me to see you with the next girl
Cause I'm almost awfully so jealous cause the next girl
But I shoulda thought of that before we kissed


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Saturday, October 29, 2005

Jealousy…forms imaginary tears that evaporate as soon as they hit air, but the pained look remains.
Sick of chemistry between people. Gah, I feel like a sadist but I just don’t want the pain myself. I’ve finally dumped all of my current chemicals with all threats of having the chemicals thrown back and burning my face. I will be the first to point out that I am weak, but I love them so much…or is it lust? infatuation? A combination of all three? I lack the mind to decide.

Had a wonderful Halloween party =) small group but it was fun running around, especially in the mall scavenger hunt. Plus, I got some great pictures….-snickers to self-

Also I seem to now have the phantom of the opera ringing in my head. I can’t sing well enough though~~ =’(. I’ll practice suckily though XD

Songs in head….constantly hearing songs in my head….

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

We are encouraged to ask questions, but forced to follow our teacher's thoughts.
Just poem...gah. I love T.A.T.U. =)

Better TOmorrow

Give me your hand.
You might understand
The length of my pain,
But there's nothing to gain
But music of sorow.

See how my Ocean churns?
Don't believe water never burns-
Innocence and ignorance,
there is no difference
But experience you borrow.

Carosels mess with our view.
It seems I messed up with you-
So don't doubt I made mistakes
Or that i'll do all in takes
To make a better tomorrow.
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