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Monday, December 22, 2003

....
The best way I can describe it is "What the **** was that??!?!"

Something just felt incredibly evil.. dark, hopeless, as though something was just torn away from the light. Everything just seemed.. I dunno. For a moment all truth just seemed wrong. Everything I knew seemed to be in question. And I don't mean in a good way- this was just damn evil.

imagine the hope that must come from knowing the one true and living God- the only thing I can adequately describe that feeling as is the hopelessness that comes from losing that knowledge.

It was just.. for one moment in my mind the thought that God was somehow formed by men just.. made sense. It's as though for that second or so my faith was hanging on a needle point.

I can't even describe the vastness of the hopelessness I felt just now- it's not something words can really convey. I chose to pray to God and break the darkness, and now it's gone..

..am I glad that's over. My only fear at the moment is the thought that it was someone else's experience I was feeling- that someone just got a lot further from the faith.

I mean, it won't be the first time I've experienced what someone else is feeling... but man, that hasn't happened in a long time.. I'd only believed for about a month at the time, about a year and a half ago.

I seriously hope I'm just crazy, or under some personal spiritual attack.
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