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Friday, February 27, 2004

Quite possibly...
...One of the hardest nights of my life...

Not the hardest.. I don't even know what that would be.

But right now I feel a mixture of things:

-alone
-will-less
-lacking
-unworthy
-unable

I just generally don't feel too good. Nothing I can go into detail in, because I don't know quite how to express it.

I'm OK. My faith is strong as ever- but my self is weak like a child. I need rest. I need to get over some stuff. And I need God to start working into some other stuff.

"Damn it Lord.. why don't you act??!"

As with the majority of problems with the majority of men.. yes, you guessed it (I hope)- this is all centred around a woman. And my lack of will-power to seek her, my child-like clinginess towards her, and my.. what has become an expectancy that nothing will, can, possibly ever come about of it.

Hazel...

I don't want this to turn out the way it did with Fiona. But I don't want to do nothing out of fear. Part of me would rather close off to emotion than risk it- my heart thinks otherwise but in a situation where I can choose to do one or the other, my closed side always wins.

I need release or something.
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