Thursday, July 5, 2007

meh
call me an ass call me what you like, i dont put up with the shit anymore, why do you think i dont put up with corban, or really talk to michelle anymore, or leave partys when certain people show up, cause im through withthe fucking shit, i asked you a simple thing, you asked me many things, and many of them i did, but im not putting up with the shit, now good day to you, and you know who this is for if your reading it
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Wednesday, July 4, 2007

heh
well she cant make me feel like shit anymore :D, yay, well i dont know what to say, theres this chick down my street named faye, ive talked to her a bit, and ive asked her for help trying to find my way back to christ, she agreed, and said that since she will be helping me i can help her, i guess this is a good thing,not to sure but i sure as hell want to get back into christianity, well my thought for now
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Saturday, June 30, 2007

man
i really did fuck up, giving up on my religion, no not a religion my faith, giving up on alot
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Sunday, June 24, 2007

soooooo ya
whent to a party tonight, first the ex, after like 93 hours of waiting for mike, we whent to the ex whent on the drop of fear or whatever mega drop or whatever the fuck it was called, was fun then we gbot kicked out cause of a "tornado" i didnt feel my ears pop.

thenw hent to a party made some one mad with my whole redicle about some people not beign decent enough do be alive, THENNNNN when i was driving home cause i only had one beer at the begginng of the night didnt finish it, but had it, some dude who stole the rest of my beer almost came and kicked the shit outta mike]


ok so people know ill describe my friends

Mike- mike is just mike likes gin likes sex what else is there to say about him hes awsome one of my better friends these days, i have known him for about 3 years
Corban- can be a douche hes a good guy lies a little to much for his own good, no not lies extends the truth, but all in all a good kid
gavin- is being an asshole right now plain and simple
milton- is our mexican cocain dealer, who eats tacos
alex- is our stoner buddy i guess you would say hes cool
michelle- is my best friend(most of the time) i love this girl with every ounce of my body, i have tried to push her away so many times, but she never does go away, i lov eher i honestly do, not the love of a man who wants to screw her or hold her or be with her in any physical sense, i love her like shes my true sister, some one who im meant to be with i dunno just a really really close friend,
heatheris mikes chick shes cool, has a few tie ins with rachael
greg is rachaels ex, same as me:P ummm we have gotten closer i guess hes cool
aurora an ex of mine, shes cool, as i would say to her id do her, lol an insider with me and her, ummm ya
nathine met this guy tonight and a few months back at a bar, hes cool, has friends with a closer friend of mine named carlen, who i wont mention cuase i havent talked to her in months but ya

well them are my friends i talk to these days, now a list of friends i have lost !:D
josh trevor melissa chad well gavin carlen rachael mike laura rachelle will man oh man am i a loser
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

whats the point
to living in a world, where no one belives you, can accept that you make mistakes, whats the point in living when the only person you have really ever cared about, just up and leaves you?
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Saturday, June 16, 2007

crazzzzzy night last night, ate some brownies drank alot and dont really rember the party, altho i do rember throwing my phone and cursing both rachael and michelle meh thats life!
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

why the hell does she have to bring that up?, ya i screwed her, ya i pushed till i got it, ya i had a shotgun in my mouth because of it, fuck cant she just realise that IM FUCKING SORRY, god damnit what do i have to do cut it into my arm and burn it there so it stays?, or should i cut my wrists and write it in fucking blood on her bedroom window? cant she fucking get that im sorry, that it wasent me, that i hate myself for every second i did that, well guess not.
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Friday, June 8, 2007

so yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i just realised dragon ball z is the most amazing series i have ever known, and the best villian in it had to be buu, he was so multi demensional, first buu caring kinda niceish, and evil, but sweet at the same time, next bu a complete asshole, but still not THAT bad, the buu after that, pure and utter evil, and goku dosent kill him when he can so vegeta has a chance at doing it, what a douche bag, vegeta sucks balls...
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Wednesday, June 6, 2007

ya ok then
well im officaly a fuck head :S no sorry im officaly fucked in the head, about 3 days ago i downloaded EVERY iron maiden cd, and some that i cant even find in stores, its crazy i have over 160 songs now, i also did that for man o war motley crue and zz top, oh and ac/dc, ummm whatelse can i say, oh ya umm aurora isnt holding that grudge against me anymore, 2 fucking years and now shes calling me awsome, and all this junk, meh ill let her belive that, not show her the real me, the wounded limping deer surounded by cougars, na i wont, umm michelles back, just as i thought forgot about little old me, meh its fine, oh having a party at corbans next weeekend should be fun wont be a fucking cock fest for once, umm whatelse, oh ya it feels amazing having a job again, and some of the people there are awsome others i just want to stab in the face with a hot saudering iron, but oher then the stuff i wrote here, i guess life is going, grinding me down, what can i say ? im a slave to the grind, its what i get with the way ive treated everyone
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Sunday, June 3, 2007

so ya
theres a party in like 2 weeks at corbans, going to be hard to save cash so i can buy me some beeeer dont know what kinda i want tho :S keiths or kokanie, meh ill figure it out, heh wont be a cock fest this party so it should be good, umm waiting to talk to angela, just need to hear a friendly voice, ummmmm dled about 160 iron maiden songs, and around the same for acdc, doing man o war and some motley crue right now, know what im going to get as my tattoo, probobly something like jesus saves on my upper arm, well this thursday im joining a gym i need to lose fucking weight, well peace.

Song Playing:Angel and the Gambler - iron maiden
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