Friday, September 30, 2005

Well I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up lil' soldier.
Stiffin’ up that upper lip.
What chu cryin' bout?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom
And I know you miss your dad when I’m gone
But I’m trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you’re sad
Even when you smile
Even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes
Deep inside, you wanna cry
Cuz you’re scared
I ain’t there?
Daddy’s with you in your prayers
No more crying
Wipe them tears
Daddy’s here
No more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it
We gon’ do it
Lainie, uncle’s crazy ain’t he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We’re all we got in this world
When it spins
When it swirls
When it whirls
When it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Looking puzzled, in a daze
I know it’s confusing you
Daddy’s always on the move
Mama’s always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it
But somehow it seems, the harder that I try to do that
The more it backfires on me
All the things, growing up
As daddy that he had to see
Daddy don’t want you to see
But you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way
You’re mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don’t see us ever being
Together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course
Everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it’s just something
We have no control over
And that’s what destiny is
But no more worries
Rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we’ll wake up
And this will all just be a dream

Now hush little baby don’t you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya, daddy’s here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommy’s not here right now and we don’t know why
We fear how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise, mama’s gonna be alright

It’s funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christamas presents up
And stuck them under the tree
And said some of them were from me
Cuz daddy couldn’t buy ‘em
I’ll never forget that Christmas
I sat up the whole night cryin’
Cuz daddy felt like a bum
See daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed or shot up on the block
And your mom, was saving money
For you in a jar trying to start a piggy bank for you
So you can go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars
Till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mama’s heart
And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart
Mom and dad’s was arguing a lot
So mama moved back on the chalmers in the flat
One bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novara
And that’s when daddy went to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me
But daddy had to work
You and mama had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the TV
And mama didn’t like it
And you and Lainie were too young to understand it
Papa was a rolling stone
Mama developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I’m just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I’m sittin’ in this empty house, just reminiscin’
Looking at your baby pictures it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown
It’s almost like your sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are
And daddy’s still here
Lainie I’m talking to you too
Daddy’s still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It’s got a ring to it, don’t it?
Shhh, mama’s only gone for the moment

Now hush little baby don’t you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya, daddy’s here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommy’s not here right now and we don’t know why
We fear how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy pretty baby
But I promise, mama’s gonna be alright

And if you ask me to,
Daddy’s gonna buy you a mocking bird
I’ma give you the world
I’ma buy a diamond ring for you
I’ma sing for you, I’ll do anything for you to see you smile
And if the mockingbird don’t sing and the ring don’t shine
I’ma break that birdy’s neck
I’ll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And he give me every karat
Don’t fuck with dad
Haha
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Friday, September 16, 2005

   LoVE thIs Song... FerGEts wHo COmpoSEd iT...
SonG oF thE DaY.
"Always On My Mind" (From Kingdom Hearts)
YePs, Ya'LL wHo plAYed KH wIll RecOGniZe tHis SOng rIght WheN thE KingDom dOOr iS beINg CloSed aNd jUst BEfOre tHE VEry EMoTionAL FinaLy :,(

HeY HeY HEY!
Yeah, I bEEN buSY. SorRY thAT I haVen't GoTTen to ANY sItEs iN aLl thIs Time.
WelL, lET mE tElls Ya'Ll... JuNioR yeAR iS MURDER!
AH AHHAHAAA!
Well, NoT sO mUCh, bUt whEN yeR dOin aS mUCH as I aM, wIth eXtrA eVEntS heRE anD thERE, oNe geTS FaTIgueD, or FriKin-A TrieD o.o;;
yeAh, sO nOw I finALLy haVe tIMe tO uPDate This heRE sITe Of Mine... ReALly pOOr eH ¿o.O?

Ahh, WelL, hoW aRE ya'LL aLL? GooD I hopE.
AND noW I musT be Off, AH HAHHAA!
*FLy AWaY!*

HaVe A gOod One.
(:(

Q: What's yer favorite color?
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Wednesday, September 7, 2005

   It's True, IT's tRUE

You chose brown eyes.
Brown eyed people are normally very romantic. You
love to daydream, and sometimes you get
confused with your own fantasies over reality.
You are pretty outgoing, but some days, all you
want to be, is alone, reading, or thinking by
yourself. You have many talants, and you will
probably have a very important job when you're
older.


The Eye color personality test
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   YeAH, no lYRics fOR thiS onE...
SOng oF tHE DaY.
"Back in my life" -Alice Deejay
YeS, I reALizE I dIDn't PuT uP LyrICs fOR thIs GRRRRREAT! sONg, bUT it'S prEtty aUdiaBLe *c'Mon! it'S tRANcE!*.

WelL, I fEEl beTTEr noW. ThaNK You eVeryOne fOr thE suPPorT (:

I haD a STupENdouS dAY TODay.
I rAN a Mile aND a HalF fOR tENNis, :/ bUT oh WEll... I fELt gREAt aFterwARDs (:

I alSO haD a tEST fOr aLGeBraII/TRig aNd I thinK I aCEd it! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
*oh yeah, it was the same test I flunked the other time too -.-;*

WeLL, I alsO HaD tO tyPe an EssaY beFore mY eNglISh cLass STartED, aND I gotS thaT dONe (: *It was supposed to be late, but me teach, being so awsome, said he'll give me full credit for it! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!*

YeSS, anD to COncluDE mY dAY...
I spoke to my special someone (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (:
but only for a minute... BUT IT FELT GRRRRRREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WelL, HoW aRE alL ya'S? GoOd I hopE. How'S lIFe tReaTin eVERyonE? gOOd I hopE *aGAIn*.

WELLp, I'm OfF.
HaVe A gOod ONe.
(:(

Q: So who still isn't in school?


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Monday, September 5, 2005

   NoT fEElin tOO gOOD...
No NeW sONG. sORRy.
Well, HElLo eVERYonE. HoW is EVeryOne? gOOd I hOpe.
I aM sICK. I haVe a sTOMaCH aCHe, aND I thinK I gonNa geT a HEaDaCHE sOOn...
I juST wANtED tO sAY hElLo.
HaVe A GOod One.
(:(

Q: Ever broken anything? or torn a ligament?
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Resident Evil: Survival Horror


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Thursday, September 1, 2005

   No... I aM nOt A gOTH... I aM mE...
SonG oF ThE dAY.
"My Immortal" -Evanescence
YeAH, I liKE tHIS SONg. MusIC is MUsIc RIght?

(:
HeLLO eVeryONe.
HOW arE ya'S? GoOOd I hOPe (:
WelL... tOdAY (YeSteRdAY) WaS a DisSapOinTIng DAY, aNd I hoPE iT geTS beTTER (oR hOPefULLy it DID geT beTTER...)
WelL, FirSt oFF, I wOKe Up Late, BoUt 6:20 am, YEs, AM. *I liVe fAR fROm mY sCHool, sO I gOtta WakE uP eARLy (6:00am) tO geT thERE -.-*
SO I sHowER qUicKLy, rIDe WiTH mE PopS OveR aT thE... wEll, bUs STOp thaT iS cLOsER tO mE sCHool.

WE aRRivE thERe, aNd We bOTH miSS ouR buS... *mE poPS tAKes THe buS tO wORk, tO sAVe uP on GAS anD so tHAt he no wReck tHE TRUcK wIth baD milEAgE -.-*
WelL, hE noW haS tO dRIve In bAD tRaFFIc, aNd I gOTTa WaiT anOTHer 15-30 MinS fOR thE buS (iT aCtuALLy tOOk bOUt 40 minS T.T)OH, yeAh... aNd I haVe a PosTErboArd aND a CasE of COlorS fOR mE prOjeCT in ENgliSH :( SO I wAS hOLdin THAt on THe ExtrEMely PacKEd buS T.T

I fInaLLy gET tO sCHool aFtER aNotHer 15minS, aND THe BeLL rIngs. sO I baRely geT tO clASs, (2nd period Tennis! HAHAHA!!)
ThAT wENt wEll, so dId 3, 5 peRIodS...

4tH peRIod *algebra II/trig* I gET mE tESt I tOOk "YeSTeRdAY"... aNd I tOTaLLy BOmbED it T.T
gOT 46%... T.T
bUT oH wEll :/

THeN aT luncH... I BuY mE fOOd, aNd... I dROp IT T.T in THe tRasH cAN nonEtHEleSS T.T
GrEAT, sO I skIp luNch.
By THe tIme I geT tO 6tH peRIod, I aM wORRIed sOMEtHIn baD wIll haPPen AGain, aNd SO sOMethiN dID.
IN EnGliSH *6th period* wE aRE dOin pResenTatIOns, sO wE geT fEW miNutEs tO wORk oN ouR prOjeCTs. I huRRy aND tRY tO fInisH tHE PosTErboard, bUt hE sTOps eVEryOne aFTer tEN minUTeS (aND hE saId he'D gIvE uS 15...) sO I eNd uP wIth a Half DrAwn IN cALendAR... (Native American presentations, by the way.)

He cAlls On ThrEE gRoupS tO gO "TOdAY" aNd... aS mY luCK haS it... WE, mY gROup, waS thE lasT to PrEseNt, aNd We Only haD 5, 5! miNs, beFOre tHe BelL raNG... ANd We wANtED tO wAIt tIll "TOmORRow" beCausE wE noT prEParED T.T

SO wE bOmb, I gUesS...

7th peRod wENt SOmothLy, eXcEPt I fORgOt mE cOLorS thERE :/

WelL, aFteR sCHool cOMes A fEW baD thinGs, buT thiS posT longeR thAN eXpecTed, sO I leAVE iT aT thAT :/

HaVe A gOOd One.
(:(

Q: SO who else has had bad days eh? HAHAA! Rhetorical question :P
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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I wiped away all of your tears
When you'd scream I fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face, it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All of the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I wiped away all of your tears
When you'd scream I fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I wiped away all of your tears
When you'd scream I fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

Me…
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

   Mmm... FeElin BeTTer... MayBE...
SonG oF tHE DaY.
"SOL Theme"-Harry Gregson Williams
(From Metal Gear Solid 2: Sons of Liberty)THis SOnG iS KiCK-A, thAt'S aLL thaT's tO iT.

WeLl, yeAH, gOin On aBouT yeSteRdAY...
I'M sTilL fEElin WieRd, bUt sLiGHtlY bETteR *oNlY sLiGHtlY...*

I sAW heR tOdAY, bUt sHe dIDn'T sEE mE...:/ Oh WelL...
Oh WAiT, sHe dID (: bUt, sHe Was A FeW mEteRs AwAy, FAR aWaY
:( WeLL, I sIGnAlED a "HelLo" By sLiGHtLy bOwinG *aS I dO tO EVeRyONe I KnOw, eVen If TheY dOn't T.T* bUT I wAS aLreAdy LaTe fOr ClAss, aNd sHe WAs tOO (:( *bOTh gOOd aNd BAD...* sO I cOuldn'T sTOp -.-;; *beSIdEs, I geT neRvous -.-;;;;;*

WelL, I guEsS I sHOulD cOme Out WITH iT...
She'S The "Certain young woman" I wANt TO wiN thE heARt oF :P
Seriously.
SO I koTan *thANk yOu LaurA (:* (Kotan= Happy)*niCe LEssON IN THe laNGuAGe oF CREOL (:*

BUt sTIll FeEL wIerD, I dO...
HaVe A gOod One.
(:(

Q: Crazy me huh? Well, what do you, my friends, think of all this drama? Like yer own personal soap opera eh? -.-;
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Sunday, August 28, 2005

   LOng, aNd PoSSiblY boRing... oR MaybE A pErsONal SOaP OpErA?
SonG Of tHE DaY.
"Simple and Clean" -Utada Hikaru (From Kingdom Hearts)
I lOve ThiS sONg. BrinGs baCK veRy gOod MemoRies.

I sTill FeEL wIerD. YeStErdAY, I foRgoT tO eXplAin WHy, sOrrY bOut THat *Was SLeEPy...*.

WelL, bOut sEveral DaYs aGO, aCtuAllY, ON tHE 26th of August, I mEt a Girl In a VeRy AkwArD wAy...
YeS, iT wAS mY fAulT eNtiRely in MakINg THe MeEtinG aKwARd...
WelL, HeRe'S wHat I diD...
I wrOTe Her A LeTTer, anD GavE heR tWO pResENts. ThaT wAS nOt AkwArd, gIvin SomEonE a PreSenT fOr an AnnIvERSarY *b-DaY*, bUt WhaT wAS aKwARD wAs THaT shE HaS nO clUe WHo I WaS. Of CoUrSe I knOw thAt. SO iN thE leTTer I iNtROduCed MysElF, SpoKe oF hOw I kNow It WaS hER AnnIvERSArY, aNd... WelL, sPoKE tHE TruTH tO hER...
WeLl, ON THe dAY oF hER AnNiVerSaRy, I, bEinG thE bIG IdIoT, gAVe HeR thE PreSenT *oH yEah, iT wAS ONe Of ThE wIeRd, bUt "ElEgANT" dRaWins I dO, aND A sTUffEd BeAr, "Pooky" fROm GaRfiElD, tO bE CleAr* aNd SO sHe sAID "Thank you." I gAVe IT To hER BeFore SeConD pEriOd sTaRtED, anD sO, sEcONd aND THiRd PerIoD pAsseD bY, aNd I wAS hAppiLLy SinGin whIle WalKin TowARdS mY hANgOut SPoT whEn BrunCH aRRiveD *BrEak tiME*.
So, I gEt THeRE, aNd NoTHin HaPPeNS. I sTArT tO tALk TO mE fRIeNdS, aNd SuDDenlY, mY fRIenD *wHo Is AlSO heR fRIenD* CaLLs Out TO mE. I gET SuPriSed, anD mY heARt StArtS tO poUnd hArd. I WalK oVer TOwaRd whEre HiS vOice I heArd, aNd I sEE, fIrsT, heR, anD hEr thRee FriENdS...
WeLl, I WaLK uP, OuR fRieNd sAys "Well, we just leave you guys alone" aNd All tHe TwO guyS rUn oFF, litterally, sHe ThEN sAyS "Hey, wait!" heR onE gIrl FriENd sTartS WalkinG awAy, BuT SHE sTopS hER. So SHE taKeS mE nEar THE BenCH, wHeRe Me ANd ME FriENds HanG, aNd SHE stArtS tO tALk...

Well, I wON'T sAY WHaT We SPoKe OF, bUt All I CaN sAY, Is THaT, I tHINk I wEIrDeD heR ouT... seriously.
sO, eVen aFteR... wHat, FouR dAYs, I fEel WieRd mYsElf.

AnD THaT'S mY sTorY. WelL, I tHank All WHo ENdurED thIs LonG aNd BOrIN PoSt.
HaVe A gOod One.
(:(

Q: The method I used is a wierd way to know someone huh? *maybe I should've approached a different way huh? Oh well, no regrets.*
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