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• in the darkness where no light shines through...is someone searching for me?
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• 2006-02-07

myOtaku.com: Dark4893

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

everything is my fault...

i now understand that i was alone all along. he was gone but i couldnt face the truth. so i kept on hoping that one day he would come back to me. i realized that i was just lying to myself. he doesnt want anything to do with me. in fact he hates me. now why was it that i was so blind and see the truth? im so stupid and now here i am crying. but i brought this a upon myself so i wont blame anyone but myself. but i have to see him everyday and the pain inside of me is unbearable. the pain of seeing him, seeing him with someone else, my regrets of not cherishing him before, seeing him ignore me, knowing that i am nothing to him, not even an existence in his life. for i am invisible and i have no value. at least not to him. im just someone he once knew and now im just some annoying girl who wont leave him alone. i have decided to forget everything but its just so hard. theres nothing i can really do but just stand on the side and watch everyone pass me and ignore me. for i am invisible but thats probably my fault also, for my voice is too small. for i keep everything inside. evrything is my fault either way so it makes no difference if i get hurt anymore. i now understand that i have gotten numb inside, cant really feel anything anymore, im just a mere existence in someones life with no value. in his eyes, i am nothing.

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