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• 2006-02-07

myOtaku.com: Dark4893

Monday, October 30, 2006

how could he?

update on my life at school since my vacation. lol let’s see, remember how it was @$$-smacking week. well i got smacked on thursday…by a guy. -_- anyways, i got colored hair-spray and i’m gonna use it on Halloween!!! guess wat color it is. i also finally got my own digital camera and i love it. my friends hate it cuz well they hate cameras and their own pictures. which is kinda funny. XP

MY SITUATION:
i been feeling worse than i have ever been. i’m getting depressed again and it’s worse than before. i don’t want to feel depressed again, it’s hurts a lot. i have been crying myself to sleep again. thinking about those memories that kill me inside. but i wear a fake smile outside and they don’t realize wat’s going on. i don’t think i can handle these things anymore. i can’t stand being blame for things that aren’t my fault. why do they keep on blaming me when i didn’t even do anything. if only he knew wat he’s doing to me. why does he do all those things to me? it hurts so much to a point where i don’t want to exist anymore. i’m starting to hate myself again. i want to blame it all on him but i just can’t. i think i hate him but i don’t. how can he be so cruel without even realizing it? everywhere i go, i see something that reminds me of those times and i can’t take it anymore. then there’s other who just used me as a tool. they only need me for their advantage, to make things simpler for them, something just to help them and be left on the side after. i really can’t take it anymore. i need anymore problems from anybody, i already have enough of my own. so why can everyone just stop blaming me and using me as a tool? i think i hate them now. this excludes from my family and a few friends of mine. i’m sorrie, this is the only place where i can say everything. i can’t tell my friends, he, or anyone else. they don’t care, they don’t want to listen. i’m sorrie. i just feel like crying right now. there’s probably only one person who can stop me from crying and make everything rite again, but he doesn’t care about me. i don’t want to be depressed again… -_-

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