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• 1993-04-08
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• Female
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• in the darkness where no light shines through...is someone searching for me?
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• 2006-02-07

myOtaku.com: Dark4893

Saturday, November 4, 2006

the sadness overwhelms me...

i feel sad today cuz i saw some things that made a deeper cut in my heart. i wish i could let go and forget it all. i can’t handle seeing them. i can’t handle the present. i’m afraid that my time is running, i don’t have much time left. it’s gonna be too late. i’m pathetic, i hate myself for not able to something important, but rather someone else did it. i want to go back to the past. i hate the present. i don’t want to cry anymore. it hurts trying to smile each day, pretending i’m over it. it’s gotten to hard to deal with it all. i want to run away, to escape this pain. but i still constantly wish for his happiness even if it means for me to drown in my own pain. i just want to be alone and maybe the pain will disappear and i’ll forget my memories. or when i wake up from my sleep, it will all just be a dream. i don’t blame him, i blame myself. i want to know the truth that lies behind everyone’s eyes. i need him but i can’t never expect anything out of him. it would just hurt me more. my happiness is only temporary. i wonder if there's really anything left to hold on to or is it merely my imagination? if only he ever knew, would he care? would he show it?

go to my photobucket, my username is Dark4893. and u could see some pictures of my friends and other people. my picture is not on there. Kogasgirl4ever and theotakufan, if u see the pictures, can u pm me? have some stuff to tell you.
i’m gonna go to sleep and maybe when i wake up, it’s all a dream or i forget and i will be happy somehow. i find this impossible.

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