Sunday, May 14, 2006

hmmm
Happy motheres day to every.. well whos a mother neway...


wow it's been awhile hasn't it? yea alots been going on. i got a cell phone for an early b-day present finals are coming up and im totally freaking out about my spanish final im already shaking and i still have like 2 weeks. yea thats bad hmm? but yea.. i heard she was really lax with the spanish oral but still im soooo scared!!

i had the ebst night with jen last night. i laughed harder than i have in a while it was nice. haha we talked down the street and this guy screamed out a car window FUCK YEA! haha im like okay then... then we were sitting on the curb and another guy passes us and was like YOU THINK YOUR FROM THE CITY!?! YOUR NOT YOUR NOT!!! lol.. yea it was funni.

So i didn't get any sleep last night i was so hyper and elijah called me at like 2 in the morning we talked for like an hour.. i fell asleep after that to be waked up an hour later by my brother dale in texas he called me all cryin and all.. so i guess the doctors said my sister in law is dying. she is goin in for major sugery on her stomach and its really risky so they don't know if she'll come out living or not... shes makeing plans for the kids and everyone when shes dies already... it sad i was really close to her.. well okay as close as you could be living like 6 states away.. and i know my brother can't handle another death.. first our brother and now his wife.. its horrible but yea... so goes life hmm?

ok well yea i have to go but yea i will tty all later and heres a song from

Fort Minor- Where'd you go?
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...


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Saturday, April 29, 2006

lil update
Last nights play went well. me n hannah hung out along with zach we went to the coffee shop on the campus. I have 2 more plays today and then it's all over. whoopa heh but it's fun I like it, heh i remember now why I always liked to be in plays. Mother has a car today.... but I very much doubt she cares enough to show up. so w.e one of my friends might be comeing *hopefully*

other than that nothings really going on. how are you all? I won't be able to visit to many sites today, it at all.... but yea sorry ttyl
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Friday, April 28, 2006

Hullo
Hey everyone sorry i've not updated in so long but yea its been really hectic the past few days. the end of skool is fastly aprouching and the teachers are killing me. haahaha i have 3 project due in a row next week plus HW and a bunchof stuff... bbllaahh

tonight the sr. high play the miracle worker, ima a lil blind girl lol yea.. wish me luck!!!!

but thats about all thats goin on in my life. how about yours

*love you all* Shorty
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Hey *Update*
Morning everyone. Not to much going on getting ready for school, but I have like 10 mi ns so I decided to update. heh. I have to get help on my math on the 45 min ride to my school bllaahh blah blah...

Oh weird! Okay on sunday afternoon I noticed I had a cut on the side of my eye about half an inch long.. didn't really hurt so I didn't do nething about it. Monday I wake up and there another cut on my eyebrow!!! today I wake up and theres a lil cut on the right side of my chin. so, I'm like hmmm what the heck!?!! I check my bed and theres nothing that could be doing this and Nothing really touches my face at all so it really weird and I don't know where they comin from.

Okay random story for the day over. How are you all doing?
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

*update real fast*
Hey everyone school today... blah I really don't want to go... like.. ReAlLy don't want to go.... this vacation was way to short... but w.e Look at the bright side... summer vacations only about a month away!!!!!!! WHOA... im afraid of finals though... expecially my spanish final... but maybe I can get someone to study with me... but yea.. so i went to visit lil angel girl in the hospital the other day and shes doin a lil better but in some pain... hmmmm yea hopefully things will work out for her.. my bf made it down to he was supposed to be safely. so he's doin aight, but i miss him so freaking much... and it's not entierly suncj in that he left so.. iss like when it does... it's going to be 10X worse.. not that i mind but yea...

so how are you all?
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Monday, April 17, 2006

Hmmmmmm?
Hey everyone. Not to much going on today.... Just finished doing research I should have done about a week ago. Ha, my procrastination skills are horrible.... gawd! But yea, other than that it's a boring day in no-wheresville NY. So though nothings going on, I have to say it's a good day, I mean.. I'm still alive to there some good points to the day haha... Aight Off to do absolutly nothing! FUN! whoopa! yippee!.. okay play so it's not that exciting.... ttyl everyone!

take care!
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Sunday, April 16, 2006

Happy..... emotional..... Easter!
Hullo everyone, Happy Easter!!!! I tried to get to everyones sites that I could!

Well... we aren't doing to much for easter... It's been the most emotional easter ever though... My bf Elijah came to my house at about 3 in the morning and stayed until 7 then he hit the rode for a very long ride to his college... Gawd that night came to fast... went by to fast. I miss him so much already and it's only been about 5 and a half hours since he left... I ended up crying when he was here... he held me for most of the night though... im going to miss that.... im going to miss everything... he said he loved me n would come back, im going to visit him during the summer... which is fastly aproaching so im looking to foward to that. I went back inside after saying goodbye and fell asleep so fast, everytime i woke up though i was in tears... but hey... he said he would call when he stops for a rest tonight.... gawd i love him.... hmmm

ok enough about that... happy easter again hope you all are having a wonderful day!!!
take care!
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Posters, Projects...Vacation? Hmmmmm
What's up everyone? G'morning! heh.. I'm having a good day. But yea heh you know that feeling that you are having a great day but you know if someone says just the right thing at the wrong time, it's going to crash? lol yea, that's my day. lol I walked to the park yesterday, well, i walked everywhere yesterday, took a few pics. it was soo nice out!!! It made me happy. heh.. yea so today I have to walk to the store and get a poster board. I don't know what color it should be though. HmMmMmM... lol
For a death camp project what color do you think the poster board should be? lol yea yea so I'm not a good desicion maker.

That's about all I have so I will talk to you all lata.

How's life treating you all now a days?
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Monday, April 10, 2006

Well hullo there li lbuddy
Hey everyone, thanx so much for all the comments left yesterday.. means alot.

Yea so I cleaned my room!! Omg it took me just about all day. haha I used 2 garbage bags to. Does that tell you how much I clean my room!??! lol But yea, it looks ok. My room is sooo plain. But I'm not good at decorating at all.. so it's like.. a random poster here one there white walls everywhere else. lol. so yea.. still on vacation. I should be a "wise student" and start my english project on Anne Frank. Gawd I hated that book. It put me to sleep!!! Have any of you ever read it? Yea my projects going to be based on Death camps and I don't even have to show my "knowledge about the book" thank god because I didn't read it hahah well aside from like maybe 30 pages lol.... yea so thats about all I have to say for today.

How have you guys been?
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Sunday, April 9, 2006

Well Well.. My god..
Oh goodness goodness... Yesterday was an interesting day. Can't say it was bad.... persay. I got upset alot though. I was with my boyfriend for his birthday. He got me flowers, he's the best.... But yeah, He wasn't in the best mood ever today, we took him sis back to her college and hung out there for a lil. His mother wouldn't leave him alone.. *since I've been gone, alot of things have happend* His mother, well she thinks I'm a whore who's going to seduce her son before he goes off to college *which is in like.... god like the 18th 19th er seomthing* so, she puts a choking cerfu on him and all... if twere me I'd say fuck it fuck you, I don't care... but It's not and I'm not to rational when it comes to things like this... He's being smart I guess and I can't blame him. But yea... we talked on the way home and I just... blah I broke down and started to cry... I've not cried infront of anyone in.. atleast 3 years... I hate letting people see me cry, but I couldn't help it... I was holding back all day... all week, I was either at the point of break down or destruction, self combistion BOOM! ya know? heh.. but yea... we pulled into Dunkin Doughnuts and he held me... I love him.... I really honestly do..... god... I don't know what I'm going to do when he goes away... It's just like.... I donno.... everyones leaveing.... everyone you know.. and it's no ones fault but mine. people say I don't show enough emotion er w.e I don't say I appriciate them enough, I just want you all to know... even if I don't say nething, Even if I don't reture the hug, the favor, the call... I do really care.. emotion is something I really have to work on... I donno... I just.. I just don't want to be hurt again.. and If something happens... I don't know... Just... I would give up... things happen soo much in my life... and its the same with everyone, "I love you, I used you, I'm leaving" or " You don't care about me, You're not a good friend, You're never there for me"... I wish i could fucking be perfect..... but w.e... I'm done rambling.. I don't even know what I'm really saying nemore... I'm soory to like dump on you guys, you have enough to handle w/o me....

BTW, you guys should check out lostsoulsbeware and add him as a friend, very awesome guy right there ^_^

yea.. but How are you all?..
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