Tuesday, November 8, 2005

I feel...Fa..

hey everyone.. today was fine i guess.. i mean during b-ball in P.E i got my thumb jamed by the stupid ball.. then i almost passed out.. weeiirrdd feeling.. heh yea it was kool i guess.. i went to the nurse and she said it was cause i havnt eatin since sunday. plus the excesive running.. lol w.e im not going to start eating more.. not unless im hungry.. so she raped my hand up and i got home like... 20 mins ago and mother and gram have talked to my many many times and havnt asked what happend to me hand.. lol i feel so loved.. anyway

How are you all?
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Monday, November 7, 2005

And everything is changeing theres nothing left thats real.. make up your own ending lemme know just how you feel...

Hey people.. how are you all doin? sorry i havent been on again... yea busy... but thats no excuse... sooooo

well then Weekend- was exciting i guess.. i got to baby sit Ky hes like.. you ARE my girlfriend lauren! want to move in with me?.. hes like 5 i thought it was funni.. i got to see chicken lil cause yea.. lol well it was free. it was ok for a lil kids show ^_^

Later saterday- i got into a big fight with mom and yea well thats not unusual.. i called dad.. and we talked forever...( this is after i got pissed cause my project partners mom hates me) and yea well.. i complained like always.. and well.. he asked me to seriously think about living in NC with him and his family.. hes asked this many times.. and i still am i just.. dont have the...oh whats the word?... courage? to leave... i mean the only people i would really miss would be ... eric jenny and dave.. and they all have other people that can go to.. sooo really im not needed her.. its just.. gawd i donno...

Today- today was fairly decent cept in the moning mom started yelling at me cause i didnt work hard on the tabernale ::rolls eyes:: and hes like your going to get the bible teacher hating you! im like uhm i dont care?... sooo i ending up leave super early to wait for the bus and it was really windly and like yea i froze it was soooo cold... zachs hypocrit mother invited me in the care though. im like uhm hell no! but oh well.. the rest of the day was fine... nothing bad happend nothing good happend.. ::shrugs:: ig ot home and i just got my coat off and mother was again ranting and raving about the latest thing ive done.. which was uhm? walking home?... oh well GAH!... should i leave? or would that be cowardly?

Thought- me and vory wanna enter a poetry conest together and see if one of us wins.. course he would win but yea.. im going to post a few of my poems.. if you dont mind and you can pick you your fav outta the stupidness lol

Ok well im done boring you all.. sorry
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Tuesday, November 1, 2005

Hola Amigos!
hey everyone.. i had a whole post thought out but then i got here was like i dont have time to type that much... i got to the sites i could in the time i had sorry if i missed you!!! uhm... yea well today was first day of cheerleading.. yea im still the suckyest cheerleaserd and stil being yelled at for not smiling and yelling loud enough.. honestly i donno why i stick with it.. ::sighs:: its gonna get harder cause like hw, practice, school,social... yeah oh yea i have to fit sleep somewhere in the mix.. lol

Oook well then besides that found out this is my friends last week with me.. yea sad ::tear::.. but oh well things change people leave.

How are you all doing?
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Monday, October 31, 2005

   WHOOPA!!!!!

IT'S HALLOWEEN!!!! FRIGHT NIGHT!!!

Whoopa!!!!! I'm going to see Saw 2!!!! I'm SOOO happy!! WHOOPA!!!

Oh yea thanx for the advice i told him already though ... heh i made it more clear today but yea thank you guys!!!

Now if you will excuse me... I must start walking to the Movie Theater!!! ^_^

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Adios! HAVE A HORRIBLE HALLOWEEN!! =P
No no jk

HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO ONE AND ALL!!!

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Sunday, October 30, 2005

   Daily News Update.
Hey peoples of da world.. heh im bored as hell here... i should be doing HW teh w.e i will later.. well later as in when i get off... nothing bigs happend today have youth group tonight still trying to find people to come heh i have to friends to invite!...

my real mom called us up crying saying "Oh i have bipolar!! i was standing in front of cars and changlleging them to hit me cause im invisible and i also have water disease!!" i rolled my eyes.. last week she had breast cancer and some kinda blood disease.. its like.. what will she come up with next?... shes all cracked out asking random people for their pills.. gawd the sooner she dies the better!! she was spreding lies about me all over the place it got back to my mom that i was on main street and making out with like 23-24 year old guys.. im like WTF!?!? yeah im really gonna do that when i know for a fact i would be caught do i look that stupid!?!? either way mom didnt believe her cause the person she said saw me was Jeff Deming and he and my brother almost got into a fight about this cause he denied ever saying anything about it.. and he likes me anyway so w.e i try not to let her bringme down anymore... it just made me mad a lil.. i mean im her daughter! why does she hate me!?!?

Okay other than that i wanted to cry soo bad last night cause one of my bestest friends was talking to me last night and said shes not going to go to houghton much longer she'll be going to wellsville sometimes between now and before christmas vacation... so i wont see her to much anymore cause like i never see her outside of school that much cause her parents hate me... reason unknown... but yeah..::sighs:: oh well such is life eh?

Oh yea can you guys do me a favor?
If you didnt comment on yesterdays post can you go throw and read it and comment? i really wanna know what i should do... or if i should do anything.. i know this is a long post in itself so if you dont i understand but yea i would appreciate it alot..

THANK YOU!
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Saturday, October 29, 2005

Hey everyone.. how do you know if i guy likes you?
Ok soo can you guys help me?

I have a friend hes kool and all and on frieday i gave him and back rub and him me i got a dollar cause im like soo good and all lol.. but i think he was comeing on to me!! EW! hes my friend and all but i donno its.. i donno i would never be attracted to him! but yea i got a guy already and he knows that! im talking to him on AIM and hes freakin me out.. can you guys tell me if this sounds like hes comeing on to me?

Voldemort405: u make me feel all good and fine when u give me one
tmorrowsangel35: ahhh hahaha that sounds odd.
tmorrowsangel35: you should come to my youth group!
tmorrowsangel35: PUHLEASE!!!!
Voldemort405: ok
Voldemort405: then i get backrubs for like 6 hours
Voldemort405: yeah
Voldemort405: but what i meant was
tmorrowsangel35: hahaha
Voldemort405: that when im around you i feel comfortable
tmorrowsangel35: heh really?
tmorrowsangel35: thats good right?
Voldemort405: yeah
Voldemort405: like i feel like i can tell u stuff and things when i cant around others
tmorrowsangel35: heh yay! i feel special!
Voldemort405: like when im around u i feel like ur my "girlfriend" so to say like i would say some stuff to my girl friend and i would tell u
tmorrowsangel35: O.O oook but im not... lol mesa loves ericsa! lol.. but yeah i know waht you mean you is a kewl guy
Voldemort405: "i love u lauren":-Dnot really like that though
tmorrowsangel35: AHhhahaha nice one johnny
Voldemort405: i luv u
Voldemort405: not really
tmorrowsangel35: im so sure
tmorrowsangel35: lol
Voldemort405: wanna go out wiht me?
tmorrowsangel35: Swy to late. Im taken hun.
tmorrowsangel35: Happily taken.
tmorrowsangel35: lol
Voldemort405: noOOOOOO!
Voldemort405: i wanted to kiss u
tmorrowsangel35: ::raises eyebrow:: uhmm
tmorrowsangel35: lol you are joking right?
Voldemort405: uhhhh..........no........
Voldemort405: jk
but yeah since i found u attractive it was kinda like "YES" she let me give her a backrub!

I think thats enough what do you guys think? what should i do?


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Friday, October 28, 2005

   Hey everyone
Hey everyone I'm in study hall once again.. i post alot from study halls don't i?... its reletivly the only time ihave to update soo yea oh well... we got out of lab early so we had second lunch insted of 3rd!^_^ it was kool but i had to sit with a really annoying smelly person... almost thought of not eating at all but i like pizza soooo oh freakin well lol.... hmmm

Home life's going fine had an argument with mother the other day but then again when arent we fighting? this is the jist of your argument... not much yelling this time though...

Me: yea its spirit week if i didnt tell you
Mom: why are you doing it?
Me: its stupid? i have no school spirit and never will have, i like to show people that.
Mom: you should be more thankful you are even going to this school! houghton is wonderful and people lov you there!!::yells::
Me: yea well youd be surprised how much things change over the summer mother!::yells back::
Mom: do not raise your voice at me! and you have friends lauren! I know you do!
Me: GAH! how!?! do you see them around? huh? NO cause i have what 3? does that even count if you take friends off the internet?
Mom: all i know is you attitude laletly is unexceptible and if you keep it up you will be homeschooled for the rest of your life
Me: WHAT!?!?
Mom: i told you a long time ago that public was not an option! as long as im alive you go to houghton or home taught! From now on if you are not in a good happy mood no dinner no tv no computer and noone's coming over!
Me: yea well if you take me outta houghton im moving to my dads.. no visits back to this place..go ahead take everything away see if i care!::walks out the door::

Ok so i ended up repeating most of the whole thing but oh well she wants me to act happy all the time.. i can do that whoopa!

SoOoo how are you all doing? Fairing well i hope!

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

The used Poetic Tradgedy post at bottom
"Poetic Tragedy"

The cup is not half empty as pessimists say
As far as he's sees, nothing's left in the cup
A whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge
Since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up

A singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
He gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....
Is just a tragedy

So he voyages in circles
Succeeds getting nowhere
And submits to the substance
That first got him there

Then in violent, frustration, he cries out to God or just no one
Is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
Is just a tragedy

He feels alone
His heart in his hand
He's alone
He feels alone
I feel....

Then on that last day he breaks
And he stood tall
And he yelled... and he takes his life


Not to much to say I have to go to school pretty soon... i can feel it already going to be a bad day... partly cause mother woke up a lil after me and hasnt shut up since... im not a morning person at all!! gah! oh well i hope im wrong and its a wonderful day but how can it be? its freakin school lol.. ok well i hope you all have a good day how are you guys btw?
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Song... over again lol ^_^
well ok i had a whole post and stull but i pressed add post and it did do it it said error and i really dont feel like typeing all that over again sawy.. but just to let you all i know im fine. im alive at least ya know? lol things are still coming at me left and right but cha know what? ya just gotta buck up and deal right?... well then heres a song i really like....

AUTOPILOT OFF LYRICS

"What I Want"

I never thought I'd come back around
I never thought I'd see you again
And it took one night when I packed my life
And one to take it out again
I took a look at a photograph
Where we didn't even notice the lens
Something came to life from that 3x5
It was you and me and innocence

This is what I want
This is what I need
This is exactly what I've been waiting for

I set it up in a picture frame
Then I put a nail into the wall
Time has put lines here on my face
But it doesn't matter now at all
It was me and you when we were together
It was me and you when we were apart
It was me and you in my mind and
It was me and you in my heart

It took so long to find it and some they never will
A color print it took time and it held it still

SoOo how have you guys been?i havent been on to post for awhile im sawy ::holds out arms so a hug:: FORGIVE ME!!!! lol

Adios!
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

::smiles....puases....screams.... composes self again::
::lets out a blood certling scream::.... Hello everyone! how are y'all doin?

I'm fine. Schools... fine. Today was wonderful. Had a test, didn't studdy... My studdy habits are horrible. But oh well.. Thats about all I have to say about today. I'm outtie.
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