Wednesday, June 21, 2006

hey pplz! sorry i havn't been on here 4 a while i have been on my other site CDDElric1221 for u ppl that dont no well as u can c i have changed my site around plz tell me wut u think about it well ya well cya lata bye n_n
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Thursday, June 8, 2006

An Angel's Lost Love part21
As time goes passes,
she's not able to talk to that guy,
because something happened to there commacation,

So one day,
she is able to talk to that guy again,
throught that time she was not able to talk to him,
he was all she could think about,
he was her angel with out wings,
she loved him so much,
he made her happy,
but when she could talk to him again,
he broke her heart,
he crushed it,
he shattered it,
the one she loved so dearly,
has just let her go,
her soul is gone,
her heart is shatted,
her wings are pure black,
she can no longer live on,
but yet she does,
the pain of this,
he's sorry for this,
he asked her to forgive him,
she does,
for,
she still loves him,
he loves her,
but not in the same way,
he loves her as a friend,
she loves him more,
she no longer feels pain,
she wants to cry,
but she can't,
he wants to help her,
but she wont let him,
she just wants to end all this pain,
she just wants him to be happy,
she wants everyone to be happy,
even if she's not,
she doesn't want him to worry,
but he does,
she loves him,
yet she knows she can't,
she feels sick,
her stomch hurts,
her heart is pained,
she can no longer trust herself,
she wants to die,
to end all the pain,
once and for all,
to end her life,
but she can't,
there is something holding her back,
is it that she wants every one to be happy,
but yet,
she thinks everyone would be better off without her,
but she doesn't want them to worry,
not to worry at all.

(well ppl that part 21 plz comment n_n and tell me wut u think well thx 4 reading more coming soon n_n)
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Sunday, June 4, 2006

An Angel's Lost Love part20
Later on,
he tells her,
he loves her back,
her wings turn white,
she's happy,
joyed,
and feel with love,
but this is a peoblem for him,
because he loves two people,
he loves them the same,
the angel,
and his girlfriend,
he doesn't want to choose between them,
she is troubled by this,
she loves him with all her heart,
but she doesn't want her friend to get hurt,
her firend is his girlfriend,
she feels like this is her fault,
but he told her that it's not,
he sayss "It's not you fault that I love you",
but she still feels responsable for all this.

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Saturday, June 3, 2006

An ANgel's Lost Love part19
After a few minutes,
she goes back,
he's no there,
she just sits there,
she sits and waits,
he comes back,
he asks "Why did you run?",
she answers "I don't know",
"Was that a joke or are you serious?",
"I was serious........maybe thats why I ran".,
she can't help but feel nervous about this,
she loves him do dearly,
if she had to,
she would give up her,
mind,
body,
and soul for him,
he can't help but wonder why she loves him,
but she doesn't know why either,
other then that she just does,
he thinks about this,
he rejects her,
but she inderstands,
her wings turn pure black,
but atleast he still talks her,
even tho,
her heart and soul is broken,
she still wants him and his girlfriend to stay together,
pained and torn again,
crushed and shattered,
but mostly all she wants is to make him happy,
she doesn't want him to worry,
not to be depressed,
not to be sad,
she just wants him to be happy,
to be joyed,
but,
at this moment,
he just doesn't know any more,
all the pain she suffered that he didn't know about,
he does now,
all the pain that was caused by him,
he knows now,
what she didn't want to happen,
happened,
what she didn't want him to know,
he knows,
she just wants to find a dark corner in her closet,
and sit there,
just sit there waiting for the pain to go,
she feels like this cauesed her more pain then not telling him,
but,
then she thinks,
there equal,
no pain is greater,
nor is the pain less,
pain is just pain,
no matter what happenes.

She sees now that,
it doesn't matter what she trys to do,
that pain is going to fallow her,
through out her life,
there has been pain in some part,
but she can't help it,
all she really wants to do,
is get away from it all.
(plz comment i would love it if u do well thx u 4 reading this part ^-^)


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Friday, June 2, 2006

An ANgel's Lost Love part18
(sorry ppl that i haven't been posting my story i have been very busy with thing so ya here is part 18 enjoy n_n)
She talks to that guy,
He want to know who she loves,
she won't tell him,
he's worried that she might end up dead,
in the end,
he wants to help,
he wants to know,
she won't tellhim,
he starts to think that it's him,
she doesn't say no or anything,
but she doesn't say yes either,

Atfer a while,
he starts to get depressed,
because she won't tell him,
he just wants to know if it him or not,
she still won't tell him,
he says "I should just walk",
she begs him not to,
he stays,
he feels that its his fualt,
she tells him its not,
she wants to cry,
she wants to cry for him,
but he feels it is,
she asks "do you really want to know?",
he says yes,
she says "I Love You",
then she runs,\she runs away,
far away,
she sheads a tear,
and stops,
she falls to the ground.
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Monday, May 22, 2006

by a twist of fath i'm not geting rid of this site! u ppl got lucky! -.-
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Sunday, May 21, 2006

i'm deleteing this site! soon! if u still want to be my friend sign my gb and add me as a friend on my other sn which is CDDElric1221!
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

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sorry i havent been posting on here that much! i have been going through sum stuff and i mostly post every thing on CDDElric1221 so ya i might start posting my story on here again! so yaya i'll cya later on ok bye! much love!
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

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i need to change my icon and background O.o i no i'm very off topic but hey it's my site! lol wel cya later bye n_n
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Sunday, April 23, 2006

An Angel's Lost Love part17
(ppl i'm behind on posting! i wrote this in my book a few days ago.....so yay but there r other parts to it coming up ahead n_n''' enjoy ^.^)

Time goes on,
she's there,
just there,
asking herself questions,
Is life worth living any more?
Is love worth all this pain?
all she wants is an answer,
a amswer from someone,
from something,
from somewhere.

She just wants people to understand and be happy,
the pain of things just kill her inside,
she can't help it,
the love she had,
how she missed it,
but she wonders,
was the love real?,
or was it just a game someone was playing on her heart?,
looking for answers but never finding them,
she wants to tell people how she loves them,
But,yet she doesn't want to get hurt onec again,
she thinks as she flys,
that guy she loves,
is gone for a while,
she wants to talk to him,
she feels like he is the only guy that would listen,
listen to what she has to say,
but still hiding her feelings for him,
wanting to tell him,
she loves him,
but being afrid of being rejected once more,
the rejection from him,
might just brake her in pieces,
to the point of her not living anymore,
not caring anymore,
to crying,
to eturnal sadness,
to eturnal darkness,
to the point of no return,
from that dark hole,
to the point of eturnal depression,
to the point of forever heartache,
to pure black wings,
no return,
no excaping the pain,
and a heart.....
a heart that will never be put back together ever again.

This pain can only be caused by one person,
the one,
the only person,
who she loves so dearly,
that guy.

Oh how she longed to be held in his arms,
to be loved by him,
to be happy with him,
but, she knows this could never happen,
it's a fanticy that will never come true,
knowing this,
but not giving up hope,
she flys thinking about this,
her wings darken,
her heart crackes,
but her sprit still bright,
and strong.

She loves him,
theres no denying it,
she loves him with all her mind,
body,
and soul,
even tho,
he doesn't love her back.
(ppl i'm behind on posting! i wrote this in my book a few days ago.....so yay but there r other parts to it coming up ahead n_n''' enjoy ^.^)
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