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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

I don't know anymore...

I'm finally updating, but I don't think it will see fit to anything or the next time I will update. I might not update ever again. I don't know. Right now, I have life issues I need to get over. The depression is really unbareable. It then leads to more than once attempted sucides or sucidal thoughts. The reason why. I don't know. I'm pretty much a living corpse. My heart aches and I can't figure it out. The boyfriend is a big impact...I love him, I truly, truly, love him. But for some reason he just makes me want to cry...I fear....if I get to attached it will just destroy me on the inside. And the fear of losing this relationship over all just really hurts me. But I don't have a reason to be upset with him...We have never even gotten into an arguement.I don't know how to show my emotions anymore....the real ones. Affections are the hardest, and I feel absolutely horrible for danny...he's the one who suffers from it. I can't even hug him. I just put on a smile and become annoying so no one ever knows. I don't want them to worry because of me.
My parents are another reason. The way they fight and yell with evryone is unbareable.
Most of the time I just find ways to stay at school or anything to prevent me from going home.
But it doesn't bother me. Nothing seems to phase me.
The sad thing is all the pain and depression I feel isn't from anyone else....it just from me.
I justed needed someone to listen.
So thanks if you read this.
Goodbye.

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