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Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Leaving MyO
 I hate people...i hate them...why is when i trust someone they end up turnin against me? Am i that disgusting people feel the need to hurt me...why do people like to hurt me. Im so confused...one of my friends, who i have trusted everything with, is apperantly...*sigh*...Im leaving MyO...weither for good or not im not sure...i need time...away...from everyone...at this moment i just want to die...i fucking hate life and everything it has to offer.
I will put up a chatterbox shortly, and that will be the only thing i talk in for a few days at the MyO. So if sumthing serious comes up, ask me there. Ill still be around MSN so those who talk to me there can still find me *sigh* bye bye for now...till i sort my life out...
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Back at home
Ahh finally back at dads ^.^ not that i dont like mums, but its alot easier being somewhere where your aloud to smoke whenever where ever >.>
Ok im guna go into detail about a few dreams so bare with me.
Dream 1:
Well has anyone seen the movie '28 days later'? With all the strange infected virus people. Well it was like that, and the only bit i really remember is the end. Me and this guy (i have no clue who) were in a school filled with soon to be infected. They started coming to life, and me and this guy were trapped. And i didnt want no one else to kill me, so i grabbed one of the virus and stuck my tongue down his throat oO;; and then went over to the other guy (the one with me) and stuck my tongue down his throat. I mean WTF !! I purposely got the virus and then gave it to someone else. But it wasnt me just being some slag, when i was kissin the 2nd guy i was crying, and i kinda covered his body, protecting him from the other virus >.>
Dream 2:
The other dream with the kids was emm strange, i was working in a nusery type thing (which is totally weird for me, since i hate kids). And they kept coming towards me and huggin me. Two of them i remember being scary as hell, they were like living dead dolls >.<
I mean, why do i keep dreaming of people with virus' ?? ARGH annoying, but i dont wake up suddenly, like i would nightmares, they are just...creepy.
Hmm anyway, before i start thinking too much a poem that came to me in the dead of night:
Darkness
Grab my hand,
Don't let go,
I'm gagging, drowning, dying.
Help me,
Pull me from my darkness and save me,
But you let go and turned your back,
Why?
Was i not there when you fell?!
The black now devours me,
And i'm losing the battle,
I fight for life,
Now knowing i can't win alone i let go,
And let my soul be killed,
Why didn't you help me?
I hate you,
Why didn't you save me?
Now that i'm dead,
Are you happy?
Theres no structure to this, and thats the way its meant to be. It just came to me and i wrote down XD
Hehe Iruka your mean comparing my Kakashi's hair to a pineapple XD ahh ain't they cute thou ^.^
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Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Neh
Sorry that the Kakashi x Iruka theme aint back up yet. Im still at my mums, and i have all the stuff for that theme on my dads computer, so sorry ^^;; Im beginning to get a headache as well. You know after you wash your hair you shouldnt go outside. Well i did, into the frezzing cold outdoors -.-; so i can sense a headache coming on.
I really dont have much to say, other then i hope i stop getting all these creepy dreams i have been having lately -.-; last nights was about a bunch of kids with virus' i swear dreams are meant to have meanings >.>
Ohh before i go have any of you seen an anime called 'Bo-Bobo' lol this is the most random show ever, believe me if you like things random that make no sense check it out ^.~ me and Ryudo get a great giggle from it
Ohh i like this piccy ^.^ whenever i get back to dads ill start with more KakaIru piccys >.>
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Monday, October 11, 2004
Sephy-sama
I just found out yesterday that my obsession with Sephiroth has stretched over 7 years oO;; well thats what i think anyway. Ryudo said the game FF7 came out about 1997. And i was obsessed with Sephy the first time i saw him, so yeah. Might as well call us a married couple neh ^.^ nothing much to talk about, playing FF9 again, for some odd reason heh. And the theme will change back again tomorrow. (To my Kakashi x Iruka one)
[Edit] *Hits head* Awww i knew i forgot sumthing, neh neh neh neh..sorry. Happy Birthday Petie hun ^.^ hope ye have a great one.
Anyway thats all from me, heres a piccy of Sephy ^.^ i find it quite amusing.
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Sunday, October 10, 2004
Ekk
Yesterday has to be one of the worst days of my life yet. Well i watched more Naruto saw this cool 40min movie. But i had a talk with my sister and soo many fucked up emotions came through. I gave up on my dreams long time ago. Ever since the 1st overdose i have. And so i have felt empty, like my life has no meaning. I kinda just drift around. Its hard too explain what we talked about. But i was crying for about 3 hours straight. And it wasnt just little sobs, it was tears that just continly flowed. And by the end of it, i told Amy (my sis) i loved her and went offline. Obviously she got the wrong idea, and thought i tried something again. So i had Mum calling me constantly, but i wouldnt answer. Why? I needed time alone. My bro kept asking what was wrong, but i wouldnt tell him. So yeah that might not sound too bad to you, but if you were in that convo with me and Amy, you might see the patheticiness that is me and my life.
Anyway without going too much into details (believe me if i went into details, you would ne sat their reading it for decades) that has to be one of my worst days alive *sigh*.
Anyway heres a cute pic, and yay for my 5000 visit heh. Thanx to those who have stayed with me thru so much. And i have to especially thank Shanny. Hun, you mean loads to me.
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Saturday, October 9, 2004
NARUTO NARUTO
*Squeels like a big fangirl* NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO
NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO NARUTO !!!!!!
Emm sorry about that ^^;; i just saw 10, count em 10 !! Episodes of Naruto. And i feel like a happy drug has just been shoot into my brain XD KAKASHI SAMA I LOVE YOU !!! Damn im sorry, but at the moment no intelligent thought is coming to mind. All i keep thinking is about all the episodes i saw. And next episode I MIGHT SEE KAKASHI'S FACE !!! If you have seen that ep no telling me !!!! *Runs around and runs into wall* Im sorry im so freaking hyped up. I could run up a wall. I also have downloading the Naruto movie GAHHH I SAW A LITTLE TASTER OF IT and its looks GREAT !!!
No wonder this is my fav anime <3
Ok must go, before this convo makes your IQ drop some what ^^;;
[Edit]After seeing my dear Shanny's site. I will say one thing, and i will only say it once, so listen up and listen good. If anyone and i mean anyone hurts my Shanny's feelinngs, expect fatal consequences. I will find where you live, come to your home (by any means nesassary) rip out your vocal cords then pull out your heart with my bare hands, and i might just decorate my room with your pretty little insides. I always did wanna do that *smirks*
Love this pic *shakes fist* or else lol
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Friday, October 8, 2004
Neh...
Honestly i dont know what to post about. Its 5am and im still up, cant sleep. I feel kinda shitty...actually very shitty. The only thing keepin me sane at the moment is most likely Shanny. We been talkin for hours now heh, so thank ye mucho hun <3 also Milky's dirtest smuttest yaoi story ever (damn i love that)
Why am i depressed? Rather not go into it all. Alot of old bad emotions have come rushing back and all hit me at once. So that sums it up. My theme is taken from one of the wonderful pics by Morten Bak. His link is in my intro (kawaii design) its all dark art. So i take no credit for it. Themes for a while (until my depressions besides to die down eve abit) will be dark. And the next one is quite creepy.
A side of Iruka we aint seen (from what i know of the anime so far). And i like it. Kinda fits me mood too.
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Thursday, October 7, 2004
New Theme
Why the new theme...and why so soon after the last one. Cos that guy you see is how i feel basically. I will brin my other one back when i feel better. Nothing else to say.
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New Job..Maybe
I still havent finished my room, yesterday shortly after posting on here i went up and started to tidy up, throwin things away. I ended up with 7 black sacks full of things to throw away oO;; damn and i still aint finished XD
Ye know i layed in bed for several hours just thinking, dont you hate when that happens? I just layed there, thats what you get for thinking too much into things neh? And it seems my friend Trish might be able to get me a job, if she does i will grateful. I know alot of you complain how much you hate working, but take it from my point of view. Your only friend is at college weekdays, no one else is in the house, and im by myself for a very long time. Surely working has to be better then that? Plus its coming up to X-Mas i would like to buy some prezzies for people ^-^
Yep as ye can tell NEW THEME, no dont worry i dont plan to change this one anytime soon, cos i love this one. I love dis pic, its one of my fav, especially with Kakashi sticking out his tongue, how cute ^0^ thankies to Animeblue Gurl again. And thankies to Val (my lub <3) for that banner, the angels cry one.
Pretty piccy *strokes pic* dude im soo obsessed its unbelieveable XD
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Wednesday, October 6, 2004
New Room
Seems my dad has decided to change the rooms around abit. But the cool bit of this is i get to have the laptop in my room, all to myself ^-^ it will be mine lol. But the sucky part is i have to clean up my room -.-; this is guna be a task and a half. My room has been hit by several different wars. Heh no one oes up there cos they are scared of it >.> ah well lol.
Damn i hated last nite, i seem to be gettin back into this habit of crying myself to sleep -.-; it aint fun, not at all. I dont even know why i cry, i just do. I swear if i start waking up begging to die again im guna go nuts. Anyway enough of my depressive life, instead heres a depressive poem lol:
Oh Little One
Why do you sigh oh little one,
As if people hear your pain.
Why do you cry oh little one,
No ones cares so you nothing to gain.
Why do you love oh little one,
Your love is never returned.
Why do you hate oh little one,
No one cares, have you not learnt.
Why do you scream oh little one,
Your voice is carried in the wind.
Why do you bleed oh little one,
Spilt blood won't change a thing.
Why did you go oh little one,
Everyone misses you dearly.
Why did you die oh little one,
I place flowers for you yearly.
Yeah you can tell tis about a neglected child who in the end kills him/her self. And after his/her death people finally start to take notice. How strange taking notice of a dead child when they could have easily saved em by spending a little bit of attention to them.
Ohh and Sanada, you aint forgotten me love ^-^ so dont worry neh?
I love this pic, although its quite long i just love it ^-^
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