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myOtaku.com: dark sephiroth
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Monday, August 9, 2004
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 I dont know whats wrong anymore, a few days ago i thought my life and taken a turn for the better and that i had a perfect reason to carry on. But something has gone wrong, i dont know what but for a while i just feel down, and no one realises. One of my friends who told me she could tell me anything, has stopped telling me her problems, she wont tell me anything, i dont know how to help her. I dont think i could even if she did tell me i have been feeling worse day by day, im either angry, stressed or just plain down. I wish i could just wake up and forget why i hate life, why i feel bad for no reason. I think i have just repeated myself bout 10 times now, but i just cant think straight possibly why i havent been updating with my story. *sigh* im sorry for such the shitty post, but i need this off my chest, and it seems none of my closest mates never read my site, so them finding out most likely wont be a problem, plus they most likely think im doing this for attention or something, people like to think im some sorta attention seeker. My mum and older sister both think i wont tell them anything and when they ask that i get angry, but how do you tell your mum and one of your biggest idols that you want nothing more then not to wake up, to go away forever. And my sister is leaving soon, so im not sure she will ever know how much i look up to her, she going to university and i dont know when i will see her again. No one realises that i feel like this, possibly cos i seem too good at hidding at it now, im not sure thats a good thing, that im able to hide all my depression and not even my closest of friends can tell anything. Im sorry for such a crappy post but i need it off my chest before it eats me alive, i dont want to bottle things away anymore. As a close friend of mine once said, Life is a curse, but let me change it round so it fits me, My life is a curse, to myself and everyone aorund me.
You came from the darkness. Non-trusting, you most
likely will spend most of your life alone.
Where did you come from?
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