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myOtaku.com: dark sephiroth
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Ok i dont know who to seek help from nomore
 Im still as shitty as ever, possibly even more so, since im now angry, jealous and feeling very spiteful indeed, i have a feeling this is gonna be a day where i bite peoples heads off for the smallest of things. The one person i think can lift me from this mood, and he makes it worse without doing anything but being his normal talkative self. I aint gonna blame him for making me worse cos he didnt do it on purpose. But i really like him (this is Rance that i usually mention every now and again) and he comes back and hes telling me of this girl who keeps bitting him, and they use to go out, and amoung other things (which i wont mention) and i just felt this fire in my belly set off. I felt it big time and i felt it run thru my veins like a virus. Yes im jealous i kinda know that, but i have always been this way, always, i just cant help it. This is like mental torture to me, i use to hate seeing Michael Peek with other girls (this is another guy i really liked, years ago) and then he used it against me, actually torturing me on purpose for his own sick twisted fun (this is the bare basics of what he done to me, finer details are too hard too bring up). And its nearly the same this time round, and i dont want it, so i became avoident (especially since dat girl was with Rance when we were talking). I didnt talk like i usually would with him, i made sure i read everything over before i pressed enter (we talked over msn). He obviously noticed this cos before he went (i think he went cos he got annoyed with da way i was being, but he wudnt say anything) he told me to 'cheer up'. If only he knew how bad i was feeling at the moment and then i get Jealous and enraged (yes he dont know im depressed cos he neva reads MyO site, so the fear of him seeing this isnt really big). Ok im sorry for the huge vent, but i cant stand it, it seems the whole Peek incident all over again but with a slight twist.
Solitude. You are reserved and silent. You prefer
to be alone. People most likely anoy you if you
are around them for long periods of time. But
hey, you are a great listener and hardly miss a
thing.
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