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myOtaku.com: dark sephiroth
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Monday, August 16, 2004
Im going....
 Yes for about a week i will be gone, i feel nothing. I feel dead, nothing anyone is saying is getting through to me. I found out more about Rance and well i cried *again* you wouldnt believe how much i have cried over him, and he couldnt give a fucking shit im sure. He says sorry for making me go through this, but the thing is he meant me having to go through him going to hospital. But i know the full story know, and its alot worse, THE WHOLE FUCKING THING KEEPS GETTING WORSE. Shame he dont realise just how much he means to me. Nothing is going right, nothing. I feel nothing, at all, all my family can see something is wrong, they take one look at my face and asks whats wrong, but how can i say 'i want to die, because i feel dead inside'. Im trying to be there for him, but half the time he acts like he dont need my help, well i cant force him into taking my help, but he can at least AT LEAST fucking appericate what i do for him, i havent slept right since i met him, i havent been out with my mate michelle in ages, i have been ignoring family, there r shit loads of things i gave up for him, and well he doesnt seem too bothered with the sacrifices im making. Well for this next week im going to get stoned and pissed out my face to forget why i hate life so much, see now im driving to drugs hah, god what a state im in eh. Well im going now, c ya all next week....
I ave gone round to sites and said byes to those i usually swap comments with, and a special thanx to Ma Jr, i no we aint the best of mates, we have had a bad time eh hah, but u r still there 4 me, and damn, thank ye loads eh
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