Saturday, December 4, 2004

   What Does This Have to Do With the Price of Eggs?

Mood: Pretty solemn-like. Currently Playing: |Monster Rancher 4| - |Pokemon FireRed| - |(no GCN games at the moment)| Well, my mom finally solved the log-in problems I had since I last updated. Can't recall what exactly she did, but it dealt with cookies. :-P Anywho, my best friend came to town Friday, and me and Dad went to pick him up around 2:30-ish. We hung out and played games and stuff. We went to one of our friend's houses because he was going to lend out a volume of Chobits in exchange for Bloodrayne II. He stayed until about nine in the evening, and another one of our friends picked him up. He's still around, just visiting other people, particularly in the rural areas because 75% of our friends live out there, lol. I felt empty and sad when he left. I'm horrible at good-byes, and I was unusually quiet and mumbly when he was saying good-bye to me. ;_; I just knew his girlfriend was gonna get the majority of him...and stuff... ...*sighs* Am I being too selfish..? Dammit...I wish I could see him again--despite the fact that he stayed for like, practically half a day, I still feel like there's so much left undone and unsaid. Which reminds me...we did more gaming and hanging out with me and my family than talking, because it's known that it's better than phone and IM. Not saying that we were wasting time, but... Ugh. Just one of these days...the two of us can just simply spend time together one-on-one, talking, walking, just me and him. <:-( I've been thinking more and more about what the past year has given me as it's coming to a close. It brought me distance, emotional agony, resentment, confusion, new friends, a personal drastic change of demeanor...it just makes me realize...that my life has just started, and this's nothing compared to tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, the next decade... ...and clear up until me and all my friends, cousins, and siblings are old, and our experiences will be repeated by the generations after our own, and our parents and grandparents have passed away of old age, and most of our relatives... I don't know what next year will bring me and Jon, and my family. I'm scared, but I'm also excited. I'll be 20 next summer, no longer a teenager. It's--kind of a sad thought...like the feeling you get when you're leaving your parents' warm, toasty house and into your cold empty apartment (to make a generalization). I think I'm just thinking too much right now...so... ...Anyways, today my gramma and stepgrampa visited to attend a friend's surprise birthday party in town, and dropped in so say hi. After the party they came back for dinner. They're still here as I type, but they'll be leaving in a few. Mom, Dad, and the grandparents are on the couch watching episodes of The Carol Burnette Show. Heh, I love that show a lot. Pretty funny stuff. :-D Ok, well, since Winamp's finished downloading, I need to close out all these programs to run a scan on it, so I'll have to end my entry here. :-D Well, g'night people! Thank you for enduring my boring entry. X3 And Now Erica Presents You the "Pic of the Night." Yeah, I Guess He Does Resemble a Monkey. -_o

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