Wednesday, November 17, 2004

just a little something till i get to post proper...
1: Its always darkest before dawn. So if you’re going to steal your neighbours newspaper, that’s the time to do it.

2: sex is like air. Its not important unless you’re not getting any.

3: No one is listening until you fart.

4: Always remember that you are unique. Just like everyone else.

5:If you think that nobody cares that you are alive, try missing a couple of car payments.

6: If at first you don’t succeed, skydiving is not for you.

7: Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

8: Some days you’re the bug, others, you’re the windshield.

9: Good judgement comes from bad experience, and that often comes from bad judgement.

10: Duct tape is like THE FORCE. It has a light side and a dark side and it holds the universe together.

11: There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.

12: Generally speaking, you aren’t learning if your lips are moving.

13: Experience is something you don’t get till after you need it.

14: Never miss a good opportunity to shut up.

15: We are born wet, naked, hungry and slapped on our ass. Then things get worse.

16: Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.

17: There is a fine line between hobby and mental illness (and I think im waaay over it-Darke)

18: No matter what happens, someone will always find a way to take it too seriously.

19: There comes a time when you should expect other people to stop making a big deal about your birthday…around 11 years old.

20: Everyone seems normal till you get to know them.

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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

   *yawn*
so tired.... ~_~


so freakin bored. got a tonne of stuff to do and no real desire to do any of it.


had a weird dream this morning. I had a dream i was playing poker with my mates and i had an excellent hand. i cant play poker, but i just knew that this hand was the best hand you can get. The stakes were rising and I was just about to play my hand when the FUCKING ALARM WENT OFF!!! i never saw how it turned out. T.T
not that i would have mattered, but its annoying knowing you're going to win, and then get the chance swiped from you.

*sigh*

I've managed to get all of vol.1 of See No Evil onto fictionpress.com. huzzah! Just got vol.2 (chaps 5-7 and the not yet existant chap8 and epliogue) to go. After i finish, Im thinking of doing a little Omake. just for a laugh.

Yesterday we were told by our english/comms teacher that he wants to have our work folders in by the end of the week so he can check our work and get it ready for a Parent-Teacher evening. My work is covered, and i mean COVERED with doodles. its not finding the doodles in the work, its finding the work in amongst the doodles. i might have "not tell" my mum about the evening. ^^;

We have a cadet talent show coming up soon. i might sing in it or something. i dunno.

here, as promised is the results form the handwriting test i did. Its pretty accurate actually. if you dont wanna read it, skip to the bottom.

Here is your analysis.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Phil has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Phil fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Phil has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Phil is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Phil would like to leave the past behind and move on.

Phil has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Phil's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Phil has regarding sex and physical things. So, his lower zone stroke is large, so his sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Phil is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.

Phil is very self-sufficient. He is trying not to need anyone. He is capable of making it on his own. He probably wants and enjoys people, but he doesn't "need" them. He can be a loner.


Phil has a temper. He uses this as a defense mechanism when he doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around him.


Phil is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Phil basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Phil's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Phil slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Phil can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Diplomacy is one of Phil's best attributes. He has the ability to say what others want to hear. He can have tact with others. He has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Phil can disagree without being disagreeable.

Phil will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!


Phil uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Phil does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest.
All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise. Phil will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone.

He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally. Phil is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially.
According to the data input, Phil doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.


if you read all of that, have a cookie.

congratulations.

I cant be bothered to think up a random question or interesting thought. so, taking a leaf from Flueky's scrapbook, i want you guys to ask me a question. anything at all.
or tell me something interesting. anything at all. be free of your inhibitons. ^^

laters y'all



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Monday, November 15, 2004

2005...
^^

thanks for your comments yesterday. im going to think it over and decide. ill let you guys know when i come to a decision.

Yesterday didnt go too bad. ^^ it could have gone worse. Could have gone better, but it could have been worse. ^^;
someone dropped their drum. *sigh* and we kept getting out of step. and it was freezin cold. but otherwise, it went well.

Saturday didnt go too bad. My package fianlly came. (HUZZAH!!) so my bro could have his Bday present yesterday. My bro is now 14. he had a Ney York Yankees birthday cake. he loves the yankees. despite the fact that he's never seen a game live. its kinda hard when you live in London ^^;
My Saikano vol 2 Manga and "Last Samurai" DVD came through with the pressie also. Saikano is a dirty book. i couldnt put it down. ^^

also, on saturday i was working on the checkouts, forced smile and all, when this customer came up with her kid. it became apparent to me that this customer couldn't speak, as she kept doing sign language to her kid, who translated it to me. It felt like an episode out of "See No Evil" ^^
anyway, as she was about to go, I said "thank you" in sign language to her (its kinda like blowing a kiss) and she smiled in a suprised kinda way. it made my day, to be able to do something like that. I used to know a bit of sign language but all i know now is thank you. oh well...

to finish today i have my 2005 calander in its entirety. here we go.




My "Earth Angels", doing a parody of a famous pic...












My "Earth Angels: Heaven and Earth" crew...






My "Earth Angels: Guardian Angel Police Force" crew



WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE?

answers on a postcard ^^

tomorrow im going to post my results froma handwriting analysis test i did. probably. laters y'all.

Thought for the week: "the simple fact of the matter is that God gave men a penis and a brain and only enough blood to run one at a time..."
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Friday, November 12, 2004

*floats down from sky. raises his right hand* YO...
Chiyo-chan's "father" scare me. 0.o;

thanks to everyone who signed my GB yesterday. (i was bored so i signed alot of poeples GBs myself.) and thanks to everyone who has commented.
Luna is fine. purring like a kitty. ^^
cost me £90 tho! cost me about 20-30 quid in parts and the rest in Labour expenses! luckily my mum paid for it. ^^;

My cadet band is coming togther slowly. we've got the remeberance parade on Sunday. I hope it goes well. wish me luck. ^^;

Also, there are RUMOURS flying around my school and the all girl school that we're twinned with that Nicola (the girl who I lend my Manga too) has a crush on me. I think its just the rumour mill chugging, all i've done is lent her some manga, and everyone is blowing out of proportion. I haven't aksed her yet. Not sure if I should. What do you guys think?

Lastly today, here is a little list for you guys. Its the page numbers of my archives where you will be able to find all my "See No Evil" chappies. Im currently in the process of uploading them all onto FictionPress.com, so it will be easier to access, but thats gonna take a while. so here we go. please note that this isnt a definitve list and the page numbers will change as i post more often.

Chaps 1 and 2 : Page 9
Chap 3 (first part): Page 8
chap 3 (second part) and chap 4: Page 7
Chap 5: Page 6
Chap 6: Page 4
Chap 7 : Page 1

Still have Chap 8 and Epilogue to go. hope that helped. as i said, I am trying to upload all chappies onto fiction press, but thats gonna take a while so, bare with me.

Have a nice weekend, and Ill see y'all on Monday or sunday.

laters...
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Thursday, November 11, 2004

LSD: LUNA SERVICE DAY...


so yah, Luna is in for service today. means im on my lonesome. ^^

i wanted to share a few things with you guys...

First is an extract from Luna's User manual:
WELCOME
The scooter presents you with a challenge to master the machine, a challenge to adventure. You ride through the wind, linked to the road by a vehicle that responds to your command as no other does. Unlike an automobile, there is no metal cage around you. Like an airplane, a pre-ride inspection and regular maintenance are essential to your safety. Your reward is FREEDOM.


kinda poetic for an owners manual i thought, but its really got the spirit of riding in there. something you only understand after riding a motorbike/motor scooter. something thats different from riding in a car or other four wheeled machines...

nehoo, on to the more serious stuff. Its Rememberance Day today (see yesterdays post)
so we start off with this...

For The Fallen
With proud thanksgiving, a mother for her children,
England mourns for her dead across the sea.
Flesh of her flesh they were, spirit of her spirit,
Fallen in the cause of the free.

Solemn the drums thrill; Death august and royal
Sings sorrow up into immortal spheres,
There is music in the midst of desolation
And a glory that shines upon our tears.

They went with songs to the battle, they were young,
Straight of limb, true of eye, steady and aglow.
They were staunch to the end against odds uncounted;
They fell with their faces to the foe.

They shall not grow old, as we that are left grow old:
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them.

They mingle not with their laughing comrades again;
They sit no more at familiar tables of home;
They have no lot in our labour of the day-time;
They sleep beyond England's foam.

But where our desires are and our hopes profound,
Felt as a well-spring that is hidden from sight,
To the innermost heart of their own land they are known
As the stars are known to the Night;

As the stars that shall be bright when we are dust,
Moving in marches upon the heavenly plain;
As the stars that are starry in the time of our darkness,
To the end, to the end, they remain.


now, two minutes silence.
















and finally, Last Post.
*plays Last Post on his trumpet*
*claps his hands and bows*

Please remember that your freedom today is thanks to the valiant efforts of those who fought in both world wars and all conflicts since. Yes War is wrong, violent and devastating. But it takes a hero to go to war and fight for our freedom.

Good Luck to Flueky on her test today.

Peace and Love.

Darke.
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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

na nu na nu konnichiwa to you...
i feel better today.

but then, who wouldnt after watching Dai Guard vols 2 and 3 on DVD and a little 45 min piece called Madox 01 straight up. thats right. from 3:00 pm when i got home i watched all three DVDs and extras all the way thru. pure anime, straight up. stopped only to empty bins, eat and do the washing up. SW33T.
so yah, happy and stuff now ^^ have a cookie y'all.

Luna is in for her sevice tomorrow. its also Rememberance Day tomorrow. 11th of the 11th. to remember all those who fell in the two world wars and those who have fallen in other conflicts. as the saying goes: "because the war to end all wars...didn't"
so i will be holding a two minute silence tomorrow in a mark of respect. and then on sunday I have to do the formal parade where we go and lay wreaths and stuff at the war memorial. i have to take the band, and they are so not ready. its gonna be a nightmare...

i learned today that your life is not your own. somehow during Communication Studies we went off on a tangent (as is common with Mr. Simpson) and somehow got on to the subject of smoking, and people's excuse is thats its their life and they can do what they want. Mr. Simpson said no, its not. the only people who can claim their life is their own are bums and other people who have no family and no friends. if I died, it would effect a large number of people, supposedly. so if you are thinking about killing yourself, stop to think about who it would effect, and how selfish you are by taking your life away from them.

ne hoo, i've got tonnes of work to do, so i've gotta sign out now. ill finish off with some lyrics...

Win or lose, sink or swim
One thing is certain we’ll never give in
Side by side, hand in hand
We all stand together
Play the game, fight the fight
But what’s the point on a beautiful night?
Arm in arm, hand in hand
We all stand together
La-
Keeping us warm in the night
La la la la
Walk in the night
You’ll get it right
Repeat
Win or lose, sink or swim
One thing is certain we’ll never give in
Side by side, hand in hand
We all stand together

"We All Stand Together" Paul McCartney

thought for the day:
Why do Americans call it a football when the players are always carrying it around?

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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

cheer up...
i am not going to post about my day yesterday, nor am i going to post about my life in general. ive been too depressing recently, so i am going to attempt to cheer you guys up.

how am i going to do this, i hear you ask? um...good question. im just going to randomly type till i hit a topic. people who dont like long posts should flip to the end where i should have a fun and uplifting thought...

starting with a poem i found:

HUGS

It is wondrous what a hug can do,
A hug can cheer you when you're blue.
A hug can say, "I love you so,"
or, "Oh, I hate to see you go."

A hug is a "Welcome back again."
A hug can soothe a small child's pain
and bring the rainbow after rain.
The hug! There's just no doubt about it,
we scarcely can survive without it.

A hug delights, warms, and charms,
it must be why God gave us arms.
Hugs are great for fathers and mothers,
sweet for sisters, even fine for brothers.
And chances are favorite uncles and aunts
will love them more than potted plants.

Hugs can break the language barrier
and make the day seem merrier.
No need to fret about the store of them,
the more you give, the more you get of 'em.
So stretch those arms without delay
and give someone a hug today!


how mushy...

:3

human interaction...we all need it. even us loners. but if you're sad and lonely, feel safe in the knowledge that someone is always watching out for you. might be someone you know, might be an angel (if you're into that sort of thing) or it might be you yourself.

heres some intersting thoughts i kinda pinched off of Purple Pinguins site...

at least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you

at least 15 people in this world love you in some way

the only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you

a smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you

every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep

you mean the world to someone

if not for you, someone may not be living

you are special and unique

someone that you don't even know exists, loves you

when you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it

when you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world

when you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it

always remember the compliments you receive; forget about the rude remarks

always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know

if you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great

aint that a loada... (fill in word of choice here) ^^

I told you once
I told you twice
all seasons of the year are nice
for eating chicken soup with rice

*hands out chiken soup*

i luv chikens...

its raining here..BUT never fret. Im going to go home, put on my big wellington boots (aka wellies ^^) and go splashing in puddles. I dont care if people look at me strangely. puddles are cool.

lame joke: "its raining cats and dogs outside!" (slang for pissing it down)
"how do you know?"
"i just stepped in a poodle (poodle=puddle ^^)

cor blimey gov'ner. its raing cats and dogs outside. Im gonna go up the apple and pears and grab my nellies then go outside to have a old tin bath...

(cockney rhyming slang...roughly translates :"bloody hell. its pissing down outside. im going to go upstairs and grab my wellies and then go outside to have a laugh...")

im british. we speak funny and eat weird food. ^^
*puts on an upperclass british accent* i say. one notes that we seem to be having an excess in light precipitation today. one wonders if one should go and retrieve ones umbrella? might be a good idea, what? chip chip, tally ho and wotnot...



nehoo, im going now. my random prattling has probably been as amusing as watching paint dry.

mmm...solventy...

*passes out*

A bit of everything
Created by mamasmurf and taken 93 times on bzoink!
Basics
Name	Phil Weston
Age	17
Sex	male
Hair color	brown
Eye color	brown
Zodiac sign	capricorn
Heritage/nationality	british
Person your named after	middle name is after my great grandad
People you live with	parents, two bros
Favorites
Color	Green and Black
Band	Savage Garden
TV Show	Cowboy Bebop
Video Game	Gundam: Federation VS Zeon
Movie	City of Angels
Food	pizza
Room in the house	mine
Cuss Word	*censored*
Flower	rose
Animal	dolphin
Sport	dont like sport
Pizza Topping	pepperoni
Season	summer
Shampoo	um...
Hairspray	none
CD	Guns and Roses greatest hits
Gum	bubble
Resturant	Pizza Hut ^^
Late night activity	sleeping
Holiday	deserted island somewhere
Number	34 (as in PH34R MY L33T NEKID 5K1LL5)
Candy	double decker choc bar
Song	"welcome to the Jungle"
Starbucks beverage	creamy chocolate
Are you for or Against...
Prostitution	against
Abortion	whatever
Drunk Driving	against
Legalizing Drugs	against
Death Penalty	whatever
Illegal immigrants	against
Premarital sex	for
War	whatever
Hippies	whatever
Porn	against
Clothes on dogs	against
School Uniforms	against
Public Schools	whatever
Spam	against
Gay Marrage	against
Slavery	against
Interracial Relationships	for
Arranged Marriages	against
Republicans	whatever
De-forestation	against
Gun control	whatever
Zoos	for
Organic Farming	for
Affirmative action	eh?
Britney Spears	against to hell
Chuck Taylor's	who?
Preps	whatever
Genetically Modified crops	whatever
Curfews	against
Tommy Hilfiger	whatever
The Atkins Diet	whatever
Victoria's Secret models	who's what?
Friends...
The funny one	paddy
The weird one	nick
The dumbass	neil
The nerd	me (probably)
The rocker	rob
The crazy one	me
The drama Queen	morley
The athlete	no one
The writer	me
The poet	no one
The shy one	me
The prep	paddy
The prom queen	no one
The rebel	nick
The druggie	rob
This or That
Jello or Pudding	pudding ^^
AIM or MSN	neither
hotmail or yahoo	hotmail AND yahoo (Ph34r m3)
Carpet or hardwood	caqrpet
Cats or Dogs	dogs
Fish or mice	fish
Wine or beer	B33R!!
Abercrombie or Hot Topic	eh?
Cake or pie	cake!!
Kisses or hugs	hugs, you cangive anyone a hug, but only a few people get kisses
Golf or Poker	poker
Shower or bath	bath
Kinky or not	not
Independent Films or Big Company Films	either
Spoons or Forks	forks (for stabbing)
Do you...
Drink diet pop	ick
Eat a lot of junk food	yeah
Watch soap opras	no
Watch CSI	no
Wear make up	no
Take naps	yes
Own a cell phone	yes
Have a job	yes
When was the last time you
Cursed	yesterday
Had sex	never (shame!!!)
Went to the mall	ages ago
Ate	five mins ago
Went into a chat room	ages ago
Drank alcohol	was going to last night, but ran out of time. Donna you cow!!
Went bowling	a month or so back
Had a sleep over	yonks ago
Got arrested	never
Watched a porn	never
Stared in a porn	...
Went to the movies	month ago
Told someone a secret	other day
Gave someone a gift	other day
Had a gift given to you	today!! (thanks for the hug clair-chan)
Brushed your teeth	today
Died your hair	never
Gave advice	today
Word Association
Cat	dog
Fish	fingers
Jacket	coat
Yo-Yo	yoko
Bed	sleep
Frog	keep it dry
Hair	head
Ice Cube	freezer
Rope	bridge
Pillow	montana
Lion	king
Cage	fight
Water	works
Watermellon	fruit
Pink	champagne
Spider	man
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Monday, November 8, 2004

*WOOSH* ahhh *SWOOSH* ooohhh! *CRACKLE* weee!!
I swear, Fireworks have so much onomatapeia (sp?) attached to them, its ridiculous.

so yah, we had fireworks yesterday. not a huge display, just a lil half hour thing. quite amusing, i guess...

Work sucked (as always). Even the money is barely compensating for the crap i have to put up with.

RANT TIME:
WHY? OH MY FUCKING GOD! WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? WHO GIVES A SHIT IF IM NOT SMILING? GETTING A FUCKING LIFE YOU PRICK! *HOLDS UP MIDDLE FINGER* YOU WANKSTAIN!! Its people like you who make me feel depressed and homocidal. It took me two hours playing "Medal Of Honour: Frontline" with invincible and infinite ammo cheats active for me to cool off. You have the price of thousands of slaughtered digital germans on your hands now!



*sigh*
Luna has got her service due this week. so Thursday is LSD: Luna Service Day.

i might go and buy a DVD tomorrow. my order still hasnt been dispatched yet. it better be here by Sunday.

Heres another month for my Calander. Partly inspired by a comment from Flueky. Here's December...



enjoy.

Thought for the week:
Ibuki: "remember when you went crazy with Dai-Guard and stomped all those cars?"
Akagi: I did not "go crazy", I merely adopted an agressive policy regarding my Giant Robot feet.

Dai Guard: Office workers saving the world...


EDIT: word of the wise...when you are manically depressed, don't watch the director cut DVDs of Evangelion. if anything, it will make you more suicidal. just thought id let you know...
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