Friday, November 26, 2004

hello again y'all.
first off, a quick reply to your comments yesterday:
Chained Angel: *huggles back* oh well. hope your Bday went well.

Flueky: PIE!!! I LIKE PIE!!! *SNARF*

Ceekari: I know. it like : what the Fumoffu? it could be a swear word or something. LOL

Britt: rah. mashed potatos. LOL. we call them Spuds. ^^

Mamaki: yes, i do read the comments. and I always appreciate you commenting, even if you dont read the whole post. cheers. woot.

Demon Messiah: TURKEYUYY!! I LUV TURKEY. *more snarfage* hmm. perhaps I shoulda had turkey before chocolate pie. im such a shmo.

Mammimi: Yeah, i'll trade. is it warm where you are?

Living Doll: Thanks, you too. I hope your plug suit gets on alright. ^^ LOL

Chocobo Gene: yeah, up us. rah.

Its non uniform (break dress code day) at school today. we were gonna hold a protest in our 6th form common room about something or other. something about lack of sofas and Mr. Naylan being a cunt. I didnt bother. Most of sixth form locked themselves in the common room using a bike chain thing, but the head of 6th form just cut them open with bolt cutters and told them to stop being stupid and sent them to their lessons. so that was a pointless waste of three minutes. *sigh*

If you dont like exceedingly long posts, i suggest you stop reading now.

Nothing needs to be said. Nothing needs to be done. Ladies and Gentleman, i present to you my greatest creation ever:

"SEE NO EVIL SPEAK NO EVIL: THE END!!!!"


CHAPTER 8: HEAR NO EVIL…

We had returned to my house without a word. Kida muttered about wanting to be alone to let what I had told her sink in. I obliged her.
I sat there in the dark, no TV, no radio, nothing, except for my thoughts.
I got out the photo we had received this morning in the post. It had seemed like an age ago. So much had happened since then. I was still sitting there, “staring” at the photo when Cain walked in. I hadn’t heard a peep out of Kida.
“Seraph? You in here?” Cain flicked on the light. It sputtered for a few seconds before it started to hum steadily. But my world remained dark. And it would remain so if I took this job.
“Hey, nice pic.” Cain’s voice was just above my shoulder.
“Yeah,”
“Uh-oh. You have the “look”.”
“What look?”
“The one that says, “I have a deep and serious problem and I don’t know what to do.”
“Is it that obvious?”
“Yeah. You told Kida about the job I take it.”
“Yeah,”
“And?”
“I don’t know. She hasn’t said anything since we got back.”
“How did that go by the way? The date?”
“It didn’t.”
“What? Why?”
“Kida organised a Car to the restaurant.”
Cain was silent for a moment, which was uncharacteristic for him.
“You okay?”
“Yeah. I got part of the way there before I freaked out. Thankfully, I met Ryoko and she put things into perspective for me. I’ve told Kida about the accident as well now.”
“Im sorry you had to go through that. She didn’t tell me.”
“Its okay, really. I’ve got to get over it sooner or later.”
Cain didn’t hear me. “Oh man, what kind of brother am I? I should be protecting you. If it had been mum or dad, they would have checked every last detail…”
“CAIN.”
He fell silent.
“Im not a kid anymore. I’ve got to stand up on my own two feet and live my own life. Like this job. It’s a decision I’ve made. Its something I have to do by myself. I can’t be wrapped in a plastic bubble all my life.”
Cain sighed. “Yeah, you’re right. Sorry,”
“You have nothing to be sorry about.”
“If you say so. Im going to go to bed now. I suggest you do the same.”
“Yeah. Good night brother.”
I heard him padding away to his bed, muttering to himself.
I picked up the phone and called the office.

“Chief? The answer is yes. I’ll do it.”

* * *

It was Three AM. I still hadn’t fallen asleep. Too many thoughts were buzzing through my brain. I got out of bed and went to the toilet. On my way back I poked my head in Cain’s room. He was snoring up a storm. I laughed silently to myself. Cain could sleep in any situation. It was a handy talent considering his profession took him to some unpleasant spots from time to time.
I continued down the hallway. As I passed the guestroom, I could hear noises coming from inside. I slid open the door.
“Kida?”
As our symbiosis connected us to each other, I could see in the moonlight streaming in from the window that Kida was packing her bags.
“Kida? What’s going on?”
“Im going home.”
“Why?”
“I’ve got to go back to school next week. And if we’re never going to see each other again, there’s no point in keeping my stuff here…”
She was rambling. I could hear the tears in her voice as well as see them in the edge of her vision as she concentrated on her packing, trying not to look at me.
“I…” I paused. In my vision, Kida’s hands continued their motions of trying to organise her stuff.
“I was hoping you would come to see me off at the airport.”
Kida burst into tears. She got up and threw her arms around me.
“I don’t want you to go. Why can’t you turn down the job?”
“I have to do this. You’re going to be finishing your final year of school. We need to focus on our own lives. I can’t keep you dragged down with me in the dirt. I didn’t have to drop out of school when I lost my site. It’s a decision I’ve regretted doing since. I don’t want you regretting not finishing school because of me.”
“But why do you have to go? Can’t you stay and I’ll visit whenever I can?”
“I’ll go crazy. At least this way Ill be engaged with a project that means I wont spend all my waking hours agonising over you.”
Kida removed her arms from me.
“So you’ve made up your mind then.”
“Im sorry.”
“So am I Seraph. So am I.”
I left the room.
And when I woke up the next morning, Kida was gone.

* * *
KIDA: The familiar site of my home village filled my view as I made my way up the path that I had ran down that fateful afternoon to be with Seraph. I was upset that he had to go, but accepted the fact that he had a life to lead. A life that didn’t include me.
During the train journey I had felt my heart tug and pull, like a dog on its leach, trying to go back to its owner. But it didn’t hurt as much as it did the last time I had felt it tug.
I made my way through the village to my house.
My mum was outside on the veranda that circled our house, sweeping. When she saw me, she dropped the broom and ran to me, grasping me in a tight embrace.
We parted and we began to converse in sign language.
>Well this is a surprise. I wasn’t expecting you back for another week. Is everything okay? Where’s Seraph?>
>Seraph...he’s got a job that he has to go to. It’s kind of urgent.>
>When will you see him again?>
>I...don’t know.>
>What do you mean?>
>This job...it’s overseas.>
>He just abandoned you?>
>NO...no. He knew I had to go back to school. He said...he said he wanted me to have good career prospects. He said he didn’t want to drag me down with him.>
My mum was silent for a bit. Then...
>Do you feel that way too?>
>I’m not sure. But...I do want him to take this job. It’s good for him...>
>What about what’s good for the two of you? What about your connection?>
>I don’t know. I just don’t know.> I was on the verge of tears again, my gestures becoming clumsy.
My mum hugged me again. I took comfort from her embrace.
>I...I just want to be with him...I don’t want him to go...>
>Do you want to go with him?>
I looked at my mum.
>What?>
>Do you want to go with him?>
>Is that possible? What about school? What would I do?>
>I don’t know. But if you feel that strongly, about him, I don’t see why I should stop you. Don’t worry about school. You’re a bright girl. You’ll do fine.>
>I have to find him! Before its too late!> I swung my bag up on to my back.
>I don’t know when I’ll see you again.>
>Don’t worry about that. Go.>
>Thank you! I love you mum!> I set off at a fast pace, back to Goto so I could catch Seraph before he left for the airport.

* * *

KIDA’S MOTHER: I watched my daughter set off back to Goto so she could find Seraph. As I watched, a voice spoke beside me, despite the fact that there was no one there.
“Do you think she’ll be okay?”
“I’m certain. That bond they have is strong enough to withstand anything Life throws at them.”
“Like ours?”
“Well death couldn’t stop it.”
“That’s true.”
I smiled at my husband, Hiroshi Chihara. Although he had died several years ago, his soul was still linked to mine via symbiosis, and would remain so until my soul shuffled off the mortal coil. I hadn’t told Kida. Even though she had symbiosis herself now, I don’t think she would understand.
“She’s grown up so fast, hasn’t she?”
“Yeah. I hope that she’ll get there in time. Those two are destined for each other. Together until the end of time, whether they realise it or not. They’re destined to be together.”
“Is that a speck of sentiment in your eye? Its making you cry.”
“Baka.” I smiled.

* * *

SERAPH: I was upset that Kida had gone, but accepted it. It was, after all, what I had wanted her to do. I couldn’t have her dragged down with me, but I couldn’t stick around, waiting for her everyday either. Part of me was saying that I had no excuse, that I could easily stick around. Part of me even considered joining up with her school, which was for kids with special needs. But no. This was the path I had chosen. I had to stand on my own two feet and walk on.
Cain had taken the day off work and together we had taken the train down to the airport. It had taken a while to get down there, but we were now standing in the check in section. I had just checked in for my flight as was about to go through to the departure lounge. I wished Kida was with us. Even if it was just to say good-bye. I missed being able to see, and I missed the company I enjoyed with her. But I had to let her go.
“I guess this is goodbye, at least for now.” Cain was saying.
“Hmm? Oh yeah. For now. I hope.”
Cain sighed. “You sure you’re gonna be alright?”
“Yes, I’ll be fine. The airline staff will take care of me. I’ll be in New York before you know it. I’ll give you a call from the airport to let you know when I get there.”
“How’s you’re English?”
>Where can I find a taxi? How much is that? Where is that?< I rehearsed.
“Very good. They don’t speak much other than they’re own mother language over there.” Cain laughed.
“Yeah.” We stood silent for a second, then hugged.
“You take care Seraph.”
“You too Cain. Perhaps you’ll move closer to the office now huh?”
“And give up my large house? No way.” We laughed.
“I’ll be watching from the observation lounge. Not that you’ll see me or anything, but I’ll be keeping an eye on you till you get on the plane.”
“Thanks. Good bye Cain.”
“Bye little Brother. And remember: you read from left to right, not right to left.”
I laughed, then turned and was guided through customs.
I had to wait for a while, but we got called for our flight remarkably quickly, and I was guided through to the gate.

* * *
KIDA: By the time I got back to Shinoi, I was too late. There was no one there. I remembered Seraph telling me what flight and terminal he was going to at the airport. I ran back to the train station and caught the next express to the airport. I practically hit the platform running and made my way to the check-in area. I knew I was late, but I still had hope.
I couldn’t see him. I looked at the departure boards. His flight was boarding. I ran to the departure lounge. As I got there, I ran into someone. As we backed off each other, I could see it was Cain.
“Kida?”
I gestured frantically. He caught my meaning.
“Seraph has probably gone through to the gate by now…”
I took off towards the gates.
“You won’t be allowed through! You’re gonna miss him!” He yelled after me, but I wouldn’t be stopped, even if I had to get on that plane.
I leapt over the gates, and ran towards the gate. Security noticed me and pelted after me, but I didn’t care.
As I made it to the gate, I could see him get up and walk towards the gate.
“Seraph!” If there was ever a time that I desperately needed a voice, it was now. I cursed the gods for my disability, and his, for he could not see me waving and trying to get his attention.
Suddenly I was tackled to the ground by several security guards.
I tried to get up, but they were too strong. Seraph was heading into the gate!
I made one last effort. Now or never.
“SERAPH!!!!”

* * *

SERAPH: Just as I was about to enter the aircraft, I swear I heard someone call my name. But as I listened, I could hear nothing. I shrugged and was then guided through to the waiting plane.

* * *

KIDA: “Now then young miss, what do you think you were doing?”
The guards had got me to my feet, but I was not listening. I had missed him. I had missed him.
“Excuse me miss. Im talking to you.”
“She doesn’t speak.” I turned to see Cain standing there. Somehow he had managed to get to the gate without also being caught.
“Do you know this woman sir?”
“Yeah. She’s a friend of mine.”
“Well then, can you accompany us to the office so we can ask her some questions?”
“Sure. But first, can we watch that jet there leave? Its got someone important to both of us on it.”
The guards were reluctant, but Cain persuaded them. We went up to the observation deck, under supervision, to watch Seraph’s plane move out to the runway. It paused, as if pondering its ability to fly, and then shot off down the runway. I was already in tears. But as the plane took off, I was slammed to my knees by a sharp, fierce pull at my heart.
“Kida?”
The pain was intense. It lasted until the plane disappeared over the horizon. I was helped to my feet then, taken away.

* * *

SERAPH: I was settled into my seat and awaiting the in-flight entertainment to switch on. Suddenly the plane juddered forward at an increasing pace. My heart suddenly felt it like it was being wrenched backwards through my chest. I grunted in surprise and pain. As the plane rose, the pain continued.
“Excuse me sir, are you alright?”
“Yeah,” I gasped. “Just wasn’t expecting it, y’know? Are all take-offs like that?”
“Normally.” The flight attendant giggled. “Let me know if you need anything.”
“Sure thing.” The pain gradually eased as the we settled into flight, but I had a feeling that it would never really go away.

* * *
KIDA: I got off pretty lightly I guess. With some help from Cain, I managed to get an interpreter and together we explained what happened. The Airport Police took it really well, but I my passport was voided for 6 months all the same. I now had no way to go after Seraph. Cain took me home to Yokosuka. I bowed in thanks to him and he nodded.
“Um, I know you and I can’t really communicate that well, but if you ever feel the need, you’re always welcome at my house. You know, if you ever want to...I dunno.”
I smiled sadly, then replied to him by writing on paper.
“Thank you, but im going back to school. I probably won’t see you again. Thank you for all your help.”
“Anytime Kida. See ya.”
He turned and headed home. I did the same.
My mum was sitting on the step of our house, flicking through a photo album when I walked through the gate. I guess we didn’t need to say anything. I ran to her arms and broke down. The tears flowed like the rivers during the summer storms. I cursed my disability over and over until the words were empty and meaningless and all I was left with was an empty shell. My mum comforted me. And I felt another presence there as well. I don’t know who it was, but it felt strangely familiar, and I took comfort from it.
After a while the tears stopped. We went inside and I began to explain what had happened.
I would be stronger from now on. I wouldn’t cry anymore. Life had to continue...

* * *
SEVEN MONTHS LATER
* * *

I had got on with my life. When I had initially returned to school, life was colourless and dull, filled with a melancholy sadness. But as the year continued, surrounded by friends, I learned to smile again, even to laugh. But even so, a portion of my heart was still filled with an unfathomable emptiness.
And now, I was graduating. We sat in the main hall of our school, our uniforms all smart and immaculate. My mum was sitting in the audience at the back, all proud and tearful.
We sang the national anthem (those who could) and then the Principle gave his speech. Then they called out our names. One by one we went up to collect our certificates.
“Kida Chihara!”
I stood as the audience applauded. As I made my way to the podium, I glanced in to the audience to see if I could see my mum. As I spotted her, I thought I caught a flash of white hair. But when I looked again, it had gone. I shook my head, putting it down to wishful thinking. I had to put him in the past and walk forward. I accepted my certificate with a smile and sat back down. And then, all at once, it was over. I had graduated form high school. I said goodbye to my friends and tears flowed again. Then I made my way to find my mum.
She was standing there beaming. I hadn’t seen her so happy since Father had been alive. We hugged and then she grabbed my hand gently and pulled me away from the celebrating crowd.
>Where are we going?>
>It’s a secret.> She took us to the locker room where we store our outdoor shoes. She then let go.
>Wow mum, its um...the locker room.>
>Someone wanted to see you.> She nudged me round the corner.
Standing there in the late afternoon sun was Seraph.
I took a step nearer and then a warm feeling rushed over me, one that I hadn’t felt for a long time. I almost fainted with delight that we still had symbiosis after all this time. Seraph looked up as, I assume, the view from my eyes entered his mind.
“Seraph?”
“Kida. Its been a long time.”
I rushed at him and tackle-hugged him. He lost his footing and we fell to the ground.
“Wow. I had forgotten how disorientating this was.” He smiled and I hugged him again.
“You came back.”
“Of course. You didn’t think I was going to miss your graduation, did you?”
“Are you here to stay?”
“No.”
My spirits fell.
“Oh. I see.” I had been foolish to get my hopes up.
“Kida,” His voice was exactly as I had remembered it. Warm and comforting.
“your mum and I...we’ve been talking. And I’ve had a word with the Chief.”
“Yes? Go on.”
“Well, if its what you want, you can work with me. Be my photographer. Come overseas with me.”
We were both silent for a minute, him in anticipation, and me in…well, speechlessness.
“Well?”
“Are you joking? Id love to work with you. I don’t think I could ever lose you again!”
We hugged.
“Ac-hem!”
We looked up to see both Cain and my Mother standing by the doorway.
“Im guessing she said yes?” Cain asked.
“Yeah.” Seraph sounded so pleased and relieved. I realised that the seven months overseas must have been as bad for him as it was for me. But now we were together and nothing was going to change that. We were where we wanted to be. We were where we were meant to be.
“Well then. I guess this calls for a celebration.” My mum suggested.
We left the school together, heading for my home, already making plans for our future together as partners in work.
I hadn’t realised how much I had missed Seraph until I saw him standing in the locker room, the sunlight gleaming off his hair, his scarred eyes managing to seem so sad and lonely. But not anymore. We were together now. And that was all that mattered.
And that is our story. Well, not quite. Seraph has one more thing to tell you guys. I hope you enjoyed reading this story as much as I have living most of it. And its ironic isn’t it? A girl who can’t speak gets the last word. Almost.

And so.

Life Continues.

* * *

EPILOGUE.

AUTHORS NOTE: It is now two years after Kida and Seraph left Japan together. Kida is now 20 and Seraph is now 21. Seraph takes up the story:


* * *

SERAPH:

It had been just over two years since Kida and I decided to go and be partners in the field of journalism. We had seen many places, met many people and shared many experiences together, all the while strengthening our bond.

I know that I have only ever held your hand
But just one touch is more than enough to understand
There's a masterplan
And although I know I don't believe in destiny
Maybe it found me

And now we had returned to Japan. It was early summer and the rainstorms had not started just yet. We had visited Cain back at home and gone out to dinner at the “Akamatsu” like we had planned back then.
Then we travelled back over to Yokosuka to see Kida’s Mother. We had stayed the night, and when we woke up in the morning, it was a bright sunny day. So I asked Kida to take me up the trail that had lead to the neighbouring peak, like she had promised me the first fateful summer we were together. Kida had leapt at the idea and we spent the morning walking the trail hand in hand. We finally reached the observation point near the peak.
There, standing proudly in the sun, was Mt. Fuji-san.
“Wow.”
“I know,”
“It’s been so long. It looks better than I remember. This trip was definitely worth it.”
We stood silently together, enjoying the splendour of it all.

And my world is filled
With so many things
But nothing compares to the touch of your skin
There's a symphony
And a melody that plays whenever you're around
I think I've been found

I took a deep breath, then let it out slowly.
“Kida,”
In my mind’s eye, the view of Mt. Fuji-san switched to me, as Kida turned. But it didn’t disorientate me. Not any more. I noted that I was shaking slightly, my hands in my pockets.
“I wanted to do this here. It’s been, what, three years since we first met? And in the last two years, we’ve been around the world and back together.”
I took another deep breath. Kida remained silent.
“And if I am to keep on doing it, then there’s no-one else I’d rather do it with than you.”
My hand edged out of my pocket. Through Kida’s gaze I could see the hand held a small box.
“Kida...”
I got down on one knee and opened the box.
“Will you marry me?”

I can see the sun and I can feel the rain
I can hear the wind call your name
I can feel your love but
There's one thing I can't do
I can't ever get enough of you

* * *

In that moment, something extraordinary happened that has only happened then and never happened again. Later, we would ask how it happened and why, but at that moment, I don’t think either truly grasped what was happening. But in that moment, I could see. Not through Kida’s eyes, but as if mine were still there, intact and healthy. And I had never seen anything more beautiful in all my life.
Kida, her beautiful eyes filling with tears, her radiant smile, and the sunlight reflecting off her hair.
And when she spoke, it was her beautiful voice. Her real voice.
“Yes”

And now I know that in the past I've been much too keen
But your eyes are the kindest that I've ever seen
I guess there's some things you just know
There's a voice inside telling me to hold on
And never let you go


There's a tune that plays
It's a sacred sound
There's a symphony I hear whenever you're around
And my world is filled
With a whisper of love and a promise
Of tomorrow

* * *

And in a flash, it was over and I was back to seeing myself with Kida’s tear-filled eyes. We embraced each other, filled to overflowing with happiness, under the ever-watchful gaze of Mt. Fuji-san.
I slid the ring on her finger and we embraced again.

'Cause when we make love I lose track of time
I can't count all the colours I see in your eyes
And while your heart beats with mine it's true
I can't ever get enough of you
Oh no


Now my world is filled with so many things
But nothing compares to the touch of your skin
There's a symphony
And a melody that plays whenever you're around
I think I've been found

I seem to recall it was raining that day when Kida was washed into my life, cold and naked on my doorstep. But today? Today the sun had never shone brighter.
We set off back down the mountain to tell everyone the news.
“We must tell mum first.”
“And Cain,”
“And we gotta let Ryoko and Koji know.”
“Of course. How could we forget them?”
“And I want to tell Sayuri.”
“What? Why do you want to tell Sayuri? You do seem to recall her rabid obsession with me, don’t you?”
“Yeah. I wanna see the look on her face when I show her this ring!”
The sound of laughter echoed through the valley.
People say happiness comes in many forms. For me, happiness came naked in the rain one summer morning. It just goes to show you that happiness does turn up at the most unexpected of times in the most unlikely of places.

I can see the sun and I can feel the rain
I can hear the wind call your name
I can feel your love but
There's one thing I can't ever ever do
I can't ever get enough of you


I'll never get enough of you
No matter where I go
No matter what I do
I know one thing's true
I can't ever get enough of you

And so, for the both of us, together forever, each complementing the other and making them whole...

Life Continued.


“See No Evil, Speak No Evil” END

All characters © Phil Weston. All events depicted within are a work of literary fiction. Any similarities or likeness of characters or events are purely coincidental.
This is all mine. Please don’t steal.
“I can’t ever get enough of you” Lyrics © Darren Hayes.

“See No Evil, Speak No Evil.”
Began: June ‘04
End: November ‘04



This will be up all weeknend, so you dont have to read it today if you don't want. Its also up on my fictionpress.com account (URL up top)
Its finally finished. My Raison D'etre. ^^ i hope you guys have had as much fun reading it as I have writing it. LOL.

Thought for The Weekend:*sings*
"why do birds suddenly appear,
everytime you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
close to the breadcrumbs in your pocket..."


Laters y'all. hope you had a good Thanksgiving. Peace and Love and butterflies...
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