Saturday, October 22, 2005

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Stolen survey from... wow my memory went just now... ^^;; Well, it was someone else's xanga...
Ten years ago:
--I was seven.
--I was in 2nd grade.
--I lived in Colorado Springs, Colorado.
--My brother and I actually got along with each... O.o
--My life was better... I think I actually enjoyed it...

Five years ago:
--I was 12.
--Was in 7th grade and spiked to whole 2nd qrt.
--I moved to Hawaii.
--My brother and I started to not get along so well...
--Life started to become not so enjoyable...

One year ago (within the past year):
--Turned 17.
--Moved to a new house.
--Brother and I hated each other... still do and forever will now.
--I was used.
--Life meant nothing to me; I wanted to die.
--I met Alix, my happy pill. ^-^

Yesterday:
--Was boring like any other day
--I realized I'm a toy to friends yet not really friends.
--Talked and RP with Alix.

Snacks I enjoy:
--Cookies!
--Pixie Sticks
--Chocolate

What would I do with a 100 million dollars:
--Travle the world.
--Visit friends; Alix, Krystal n' Chris n' Nicole, and Jennifer n' Amber
--Buy anime!

Places I would run away to:
--Colorado
--Japan
--Where ever Death will take me...

Favorite television shows:
--Dragon Ball/Z/GT
--Yu Yu Hakusho
--Inu Yasha
--Full Metal Alchemist
--Cowboy Bebop
--Trigun
--Many, many more....

Bad habits:
--I guess procrasting

Biggest Joys:
--Anime
--Computer
--Video Games
--Talking to Alix

Things I would never wear:
--A whole outfit of pink! >.< EW!
--Dress just to wear to; it has to be for an occation
--Skirts; same reason as dress.

Five favorite toys:
--Pocketknife
--Computer
--TV
--Anime
--And I dunno...

Five fictional characters I would date:
--Trunks
--Hiei
--Dark
--Uhm....Knives, I guess...
--And ummm...Scars? lol I dunno...


Hehe, okay that was... uhm... entertaining for awhile...

Uhm, today... I talked with Shannon! Oh yeah! Haven't seen her in like... two weeks. T.T But I was able to talk with her after school today. ^_^ ... Though, my brother got mad at me for "wasting 10 minutes of his time." That's what I hate about having to drive to school with him every day! And he won't even let me drive! The hell, dude?! We wouldn't even have to drive to school if we didn't move, but we had to. And we go to the same school, since it's our last year there anyways, so there wasn't really a point in going to a new one, the one here. I swear, Life likes screwing with me... He enjoys it, like I'm his toy. ...Life's little toy, that's what I am. And to others, too! I was put here on Earth to be Life's little toy and to be used by others.
And I can prove it: Chris! He freaking 'befriended' me so he could get to my friend easily and faster! I swear! And I'm not the only one to thinks/knows this. Shannon thinks so, too. She just told me after school! Though, when she told me this, I already knew Chris used me. Been knowing for quite awhile now. And hearing it from Shannon makes it all more ture and real. And after Chris and my friend broke up, he ignores me, like I'm just another face in the crowd to him. Shannon notice it. Sure, there are those few times where he actually talks to me... but that's 'cuase he must of gotten bored, and decided to use me as his entertainment for awhile. And to think, I almost slipped up saying something to him subconsciously that I could have regret. So glad I caught my tongue before I finished that sentence...
And he isn't the only one whoes used me. Oh no. There's others... Carlos and DJ; used me for their own pleasure. But, I'm not going back into that. I'm just going to anger myself some more, then go into another depressing round. Not worth it. Not worth it at all.

Well, I guess I'll go now...

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