Saturday, August 18, 2007

Well, theOtaku’s been weird, hasn’t it? I have all these pics I wanna post and I can’t until the maintenance is over with >.< So…my brother’s friend Nathan is sleeping over tonight. Blah. The two of them gang up on me now =( My mom and I had a girls’ night with my aunts and cousins on Thursday and Tim had been over Nathan’s house at the time, so when we left my aunt’s house, we went to go get Tim. And I went inside the house and Tim suddenly comes up to me: “Yeah, I really am taller than you are Nat.” Me: “Shut up. That’s just cuz you’re wearing shoes.” Tim: “So are you!” And then Nathan walks over to me…towering over me (mind you) and goes: “Hey…uh…where’s Natalie? You seen her anywhere? Oh! There you are. Sorry, you’re just so short that I couldn’t see you.” *cries* I’m only an inch or so shorter than Tim! Why must little brothers and their friends be mean? I gave the kid good 14 years of my time…okay…maybe not =P

Tim and I got into a fight on Friday though. Let me explain why. Tim does not make his own food. He does nothing around the house except mow the lawn now. He is almost 15. I tell him all the time he should get his own breakfast and lunch, but he refuses and gives me that puppy dog look that all siblings like to do. I’m just too nice. But on Friday he just started to piss me off. I asked him if he wanted lunch and he was all: “MAKE ME FOOD!!” I told him if he was so hungry, he could make it himself. Then he started to whine and I tried to ignore him. He came into my room and tried to slap me across the face (he does that when he doesn’t get his way sometimes). I tried swatting his hand away and only resulted in hitting my hand against my desk. Tim thought that was amusing and starting laughing and pointing in THE MOST FUCKING ANNOYING WAY EVER. I HATE IT. It’s not a smart thing to do when I’m already pissed. So I kicked him in the leg.

I know, THAT was mature XD I didn’t hit his knee though…just his shin…so nothing’s broken. But by god, that kid can be so whiny and annoying and GRABBY. He tries to hug me 24/7! Tell me – is it normal for almost 15 yr old boys to continuously try to hug everyone around them? Call me crazy, but I don’t remember my guy classmates ever doing that in high school. If they did, I would have been very scared. Also, Tim likes to talk like he’s freakin’ 2 years old sometimes. THAT gets annoying as well. For all those pics I draw of me and my bro, we honestly have a bizarre relationship. He annoys me to no end but I still love the kid. I think about all the older siblings in anime shows that have little brothers and I wish sometimes that I HAD little brothers like them. Dude, I’d love to have Sasuke as my brother ^-^ I’d totally give him tomatoes all the time.

Peeps, I dunno if you knew this already, but I’m a bit of a pervert. I swear I wasn’t like this in high school. I’ve been corrupted. But now I find myself searching photobucket for smutty pics of ItaSasu, SesshomaruInuyasha, and other Smutty McSmutsmut pics. =P We can totally rule out me being a lesbian, I can tell ya that right now. I was confused a year or two ago if I was, but I realized something. I like looking at pics of two girls together, but I’m not completely sure if I’d ever date another girl. I’ve liked guys since preschool and that, my friends, will never change. So either I’m bi (though I’m not sure liking anime girls counts as liking the same sex…) or I’m straight but like girls together anyway. ES MUY CONFUSING!!! I totally just used Spanglish there XD

So…I dunno if anyone’s interested or even still reading this…but…my love life is non-existent. The closest I got to having one was in 11th grade when I was gradually getting to know my crush, Fox. That’s not his real name, but he preferred everyone call him that. He sat behind me in a class and we talked all the time. He asked me to draw stuff for him and me, being the nice person I was, always did. Seriously, I would have done ANYTHING for him at the time. But I was so damn shy and could never tell him how I felt. I remember we were talking on AIM and he was like: “Natalie, if there’s something you want to tell me, just tell me.” And I almost did. But I think I was too scared of rejection. So…my opportunity went out the door at that point. I found out that he had a girlfriend anyway but she was a “lying bitch” as he put it and had dumped her or something. I spent time comforting him. And then he comforted me when my grandfather died. Gave me my first guy-hug, actually. I’d never been hugged by a guy before, so I was kinda…shocked and excited. Yes, I was kinda socially retarded way back in the day, stfu =P Then he was forced to drop out of the school and get his GED and I never heard from or saw him again.

Well, that is, before Anime Boston this year. What are the odds that after nearly 2 years of not seeing Fox, I would see him at AB? I thought it was a cruel joke. Cuz my heart like went into spiral motions when I saw him and I KNEW it was him from his costume. He was dressed as a fox anthro person. He had a tail and ears and wore a silver trenchcoat thing. And what was even crueler, he knew my friend’s boyfriend. I wanted to say hi to him, but he probably didn’t even remember me. AND he had a girlfriend with him. I had wanted to IM him one day and just be like: “Hey, this is Natalie from CHS. I dunno if you remember me or not. You sat behind me in Martineau’s class. Anyway, I meant to tell you this back then, but I had a huge crush on you. I know you won’t feel the same way about me, but I just needed to get this off my chest cuz it was bothering me. Take care.” Thing is, he’s never online anymore. *sigh* ANYWAY, so now, my love life is…nothing. I have no crushes, no online sweethearts…blah. I did come close to maybe hooking up with someone at AB though. Three guys in the hotel room across from our room kept flirting with us and like…dancing for us in their window. My friends and I eventually went into the lobby of the hotel and we met up with the guys. We were gonna go to the rave together later that night…but we kinda lost them somewhere along the way. It was a shame.

So this is like…really deep for an update here. I didn’t mean for this post to be so damn long, but there’s just a lot on my mind right now and I feel better when it’s written down and not in my head. Well…if you’ve read all this CONGRATS and thank you for listening to me rant and stuff. I feel like I should go out and meet people…but I’m not very social. Hell, almost all the guys I know are either: straight and taken, bi and taken, or gay. Not fair =( ANYWAY, I should shut up now. Bye for now! And hey, if anyone wants to chat, come talk to me on AIM or MSN. I usually only sign on when I know there’ll be someone I know on =P TTUL!

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