Sunday, February 10, 2008

   story!

Whats with myotaku right now? Its so odd, some of the options on the backroom aren't there. Its weird! Well anyway. Here is a story I started writing yesterday. It is about 2 pages long so far. Its gonna be longer, and Im gonna work some more on it. Ever wonder what is in the thoughts of a teenager under depression? The thoughts and pain of wanting to die, or kill or anything that to everyone else seems, oh I dunno, insane? Well, here is my diary or journal of it. It all started that day when my mom was killed in that accident. “Daddy, where is mommy?” I asked. “Sania, she isn’t here right now, and will never come back.” he replied. “What do you mean she will never come back?” I said as tears began to fill my eyes. “Sania… she died.” he told me. He looked so sad, it hurt him to tell me that. “She… died?” I stumbled on the words. When it suddenly hit me. Mom was killed in the car accident. I lived through it… but she died. “Sania, don’t worry; we’ll live through it.” he smiled to me. But, even though he smiled; I could tell… he really wasn’t happy at all. I don’t know what he went through, but I know what I went through. A few weeks after that he seemed perfectly fine, like nothing happened. A few years later, I lost everyone but my dad. After my mom’s death, I never did cry for anyone else. I told myself the night I found out my mom died, that I would never cry for anyone else. No one will ever see me cry again. Now I am 16 years old. I have long brown hair. I have beautiful green eyes. (my friends told me they were beautiful). I am 5 foot 6 inches. I’m a music goddess! Or by what my friends say, “someone who happens to love music more then life”. Which, I have to say is very true. “Sania, please clean your room.” my dad tells me. He doesn’t seem to remember that mom even died. He just… forgot her. Like she was never in our lives. It makes me annoyed to even be related to him! How could he have forgotten her so easily? He already has moved on too, meet my step-mom, Sara. “Hey honey bun.” Sara laughs. She laughs at everything! She is so annoying! I can’t believe how dumb she is too! “Hey snooky bear.” my dad replies. What the hell! Did he just call her ‘snooky bear’. They are so odd! “Sania, can you please go clean your room!” my dad yells. “Fine! I’m going! Yesh, I wouldn’t want to watch you two for a minute longer anyway!” I yelled. I then ran up the stairs to my room. I don’t even know what he sees in her! She is nothing like mom! Mom was so smart, brave and kind. It was all my fault that she died. If I didn’t ask her to drive me home that snowy night. I didn’t know that the roads had ice. Its all my fault! Its all my fault… I should of never made her drive. Time to clean my annoying room. I then picked up all of the black random pieces of clothing. “Why do I even bother?” I mumbled. I just threw everything into the closet. I ran down the stairs. “Dad! I finished!” I yelled to him. When I got down the stairs I saw him with another woman. She looked like she was 25! “Dad…?” I stared at him. “Sania! I didn’t think you would be done so fast!” My dad yelled. “Well, who is this sweet girl?” the woman asked. “I’m Sania, his daughter!” I yelled at her. “What!? You have a kid!?” she seemed surprised. “Uh, yeah.” he mumbled. “Well, I’m out of here then!” the woman stamped off mad. “What was that for Sania!?” he yelled at me. “You were kissing another woman! She looked like she was 25, dad!” I yelled, trying to keep the tears from coming. I must not cry. “She was not 25! She was 29!” He yelled. “Dad, that is still way younger then you! Also, you have a wife!” I screamed. How could he do this to us? I know I hate Sara, but still! “I am only 42! So what if I have a wife!” he yelled. My head hurts so much! He is too old to be dating a 29 year old! He should care about Sara! Looks like he can’t love anyone! I bet he doesn’t even love me! Wait, does anyone love me? “Dad, just like you said; you’re 42! She is definitely younger then you! Don’t you love Sara!?” I was on the edge of tears. I will not cry for the annoying Sara. But still, why did he marry her if he doesn’t love her? “Sara is just there. I don’t care about her.” he whispered. “Dad, how could you marry her if you don’t love her?” I told him. “To get rid of the pain your mother left me…” He trailed off. I stood paralyzed by that. Does he still care about mom? “Sania, are you listening to me? I told you that you should just but out of my life!” He yelled. “Fine, whatever! I don’t care anymore!” I yelled. “You know what! Just go to bed now!” He yelled at me. “Fine.” I ran up to my room and slammed the door shut. I jumped onto my bed and just screamed into my pillow. “God damn It!” I screamed. I then just drifted off into a dreamless sleep. “Sania dear, get up.” Sara laughed. Why does she always laugh at things that aren’t funny? “I’m up, I’m up.” I yelled. I quickly got dressed and ran down stairs. “Sania, there is no breakfast for you because of yesterday! Also, no lunch and no dinner!” ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ What do you think? Is it any good? I hope so. I can't get to any sites because I have to work on my project. Only reason I am online is because I have to work on online research. I hope you ejoy my story and have a good day!

Comments (6) | Permalink

Friday, February 8, 2008

   Being Dragged Away

So, sorry for not being here for a few days. I have been so busy! -_- I have gotten a whole lot of homework. I have been reading posts anyway. But I don't know if I actually commented lol If I didn't sorry, if I did XD whatev. I have been replying to pms, and thats about it. I haven't had the time to post, and if I did it would of been late at night for me. Well, I am not going to be on tonight, saturday or sunday. Tonight I am being dragged to my mom's house. Its her birthday tomorrow. Its annoying, I really don't want to go over her house -_- Saturday morning we are going to go out for breakfast. I will be back at like noonish. Um, I will reply to pms, but that is about it. Except tonight I can't reply to pms really. But tomorrow at noonish and past noonish I can. All sunday I will be working on my homework. I have so much! I will get online after I finish it all. Today is the MathCounts competition ^_^ Caitlin is going as an individual! I didn't have a high enough score, but I am okay with that. Wish Caitlin luck. So, all today I will be at the College. Its gonna be fun! I'm only going because 1. I wanna get out of school (who doesn't?) 2. The college has better food then the middle school XD 3. I love math! (duh) Right now I am watching Doctor Who XD Its awesome. Its like the newest series, the one with Martha. Its prob like the 3rd episode in the series. Its pretty good. But I liked it better when it had Rose. But she's in a parrelle universe XD So, she is sorta no help really right now. Well, anyway. I hope you all have a good day!

Comments (3) | Permalink

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

   Jazz Band

Well I want to talk about last night. I had Jazz Band at 6:30. It was fun, I got to talk to Reyna for a lot of it. She's cool. I think she is nice to like everyone XD I sit next to her a lot. Well, I was asked to play Sir Duke. Well a part of it. I was like "Do you mean me? Me?" because there is a guy named Caleb. And he usually NEVER calls on me! Since I am only a 1st year in monday night! I was so messed up because I didn't think I would be called on! It was so annoying too! Then he wanted me to play it by memory! I don't like memorizing Jazz songs! I only remember songs with easy notes at points. Half the time I don't remember them! I do practice! Every day! He said if we don't have that part memorized then it means we don't practice! He is so annoying -_________- I DO PRACTICE! EVERY DAY! FOR A STICKEN HOUR! YESTERDAY FOR TWO! Not to mention I was tired from practicing too much! Sorry for that rant. I was just really annoyed at that. I feel special, I finished most of my homework before last night. So I didn't have a lot to do. I only had to work on english. It was so easy!! YAY SHORT CHAPTERS!! lol We are reading The Ransom Of Mercy Carter. I already finished the book. So I really am just re-reading it. lol Go reading the book in one day! Math is pretty easy. Okay, not pretty easy! Absoutlutely easy! lol We are multiplying fractions. Its so easy! I think it has been one of the most easiest things that we have learned! Or I just learn things to fast lol Or, I just understand things to quickly. I have nothing else to talk about really lol Well, since I got nothing better to do I will comment everyone's comments. ElvesAteMyRamen: Yeah, I know football is boring. Thats why I barely watched it lol Achmed rocks! "I kill you!" lol You went to bed at 5am? Lucky lol pink candy1: I don't know why its called football while they don't really use their feet lol I did have fun. Even though someone's mom *glares at Caitlin* kept taking my picture! She kept stealing my soul!!! Shinigami shinobi: I dunno if I was. Was it on RagingFlameSprite? If yes, then yep XD She's my best friend. She rocks! I did have fun. Twin Fenrir: Its not a bowling championship. Its a football game, a big football game. Its the last one too, I think lol I absoutlutely hate it. But watched it anyway. Is there football in Canada? *shrugs* HAVE A GOOD DAY ALL!!

Comments (4) | Permalink

Monday, February 4, 2008

   wow O_O I haven't updated

Well, as you can tell from my title of the post. I haven't updated in the past few days lol Let me tell you why. Well on friday I sorta just forgot. ^_^' But I did sorta go to sites, sorta. On Saturday I just didn't wake up early enough. lol Sunday I just didn't cause 1. I didn't wake up early enough and 2. Cause no one is really on Sundays. Well, sorry for not getting to sites or posting. Yesterday I came over to Caitlin's house. I slept over too lol I am posting from her house right now at 6:17 in the morning. I told my dad we were gonna watch the football game so I could sleep over lol Cause he knows it gets over late. So I slept over!! YAY! lol It was fun. So yesterday we had an anti-superbowl party. Where we barely watched the game. We only really saw the end lol Jacob came over. We just really played guitar hero 3 and DDR. We watched Jeff Dunham too. He's funny lol I don't know if I spelt his last name right. Whatev. I really have nothing else to say right now. lol Except that I get to go outside earlier then I do at my own house for the bus lol What fun! I didn't even get out of bed at 5...it was too dark lol But I kept waking up in the middle of the night. So I got a normal night sleep lol For me at least. Well hope you all have a good day!

Comments (4) | Permalink

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Accelerated Math

Well, I didn't post yesterday. Sorry, but I am posting now at 5:47 in the morning. I don't think I got to sites either. lol Sorry. Yesterday I woke up at 6 because I didn't have to go to school until like 10. I went to my mom's house at 7 then she brought me to my therapy session at 8:30. It lasted until 9:45ish. It felt very long. It was mostly dead boring. I didn't talk much. I learned more about what happened when I was a kid lol I forgot that I went into the hospital when I was 4 months old for a whole week. Most of everything else I remember. Then I got to health. We are becoming one of her favorite classes ._. NOOO!!! That can't happen!! ._. I don't want her to like our class. I really don't know why we are so quiet! We just happen to be quiet in that class! You should see us in any other class...then she'll think differently of us! Mrs Fairbanks came up to me and asked if I wanted to be in Accelerated Math! I was so happy to hear that! I really hate math right now, because its so easy for me, I get so bored in school cause I'm not challenged. In all my classes I yawn, maybe that's why the only class I really am not tired in is Band XD Social Studies was pretty boring. Ssr was boring cause I was reading something and felt sleepier. I almost fell asleep again. Band was so much fun again. lol I love band. We worked on this one song. Today I have the Jazz Assembly for the school! I can't wait! We are gonna be awesome! I hope...lol I will get to sites when I get home. I think posting in the morning is easier. lol Since I don't have to remember to post in the afternoon. Hope you all have a good day!

Comments (5) | Permalink

Monday, January 28, 2008

   50 questions

Don't listen to the title of this post lol Its not really full of 50 questions. Its just something I'm gonna talk aboui somewhere in this post. Well, how are you all? I haven't posted in a while because I've had nothing to talk about and I've been getting more sleep. On friday I was forced to my mom's the night before. She then in the morning asked me like 50 questions! It was so annoying! I hated it. She really annoys me sometimes. I'm prob gonna be forced there in like a month or so. Notice: I will not take anyone off because of last week. I didn't really post and I didn't really go to sites. It was very busy last week. So instead I will wait until this friday. But I shall stop posting about Caitlin. Yesterday I made 3 AMV's which 2 of them are up on youtube. I got really bored yesterday as you can tell lol Saturday I had my concert!! We rocked!! It was so much fun. There were like 6 bands that played. My dad recorded them all. I can't wait until he gets me the CD for it!! *glares through the walls to my dad* lol Today I have school. Tomorrow morning I have a therapy session. What fun. I'm trying to get out of 3rd period lol I don't want to go to gym. But whatev. My appointment is at like 8:30 or so. Then my next one will be next wedsneday I think lol or sometime next week. I took a shower this morning because last night the water was freezing and wouldn't warm up! It was so annoying. But this morning it was warm, which was good. I took it at 5 XD It actually woke me up some. Today I shall get to everyone's site I hope! Just to tell you all, I have Jazz Band tonight until 8:30! The assembly is wedsneday and the concert is thursday!!! I can't wait! Jazz Band starts at 6 tonight, so I won't get to any sites after that time. Hope you all have a good day!

Comments (6) | Permalink

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

   Evil Parents (not what you think lol)

Okay, so here is the link to my best friends site again. Best Friend Well, yeah. Still dont forget no commenting then you are off my friends list on friday. So, I woke up at 5 again this morning. It was fun XD Especially after waking up at like noon every day after going to bed at like 1 in the morning. Well today I get to go to school!! What fun! (sarcasm) I have gym today...I think. lol I hope so, cause if I dont then Im bring gym clothes for no reason. Which will piss me off if thats the case XD I have had a ton of homework lately. I will get to everyone's site when I get home! Just to tell you, Im gonna have to leave at like 6 for jazz band. Tomorrow I cant post at all. Sorry! I cant even go to sites tomorrow! But, tonight I will get to as many sites as I can before 6! SORRY!! So, the reason for the title is, cause my parents got me into old music without me noticing XD I actually even remember some of the songs Ive found. Well, Ive been well I suppose. Hope you all have a good day!

Comments (10) | Permalink

Monday, January 21, 2008

   Hit a ceiling fan

Well, its 12:33 at the friend's household! I'm having an awesome time at my bff's house! Best Friend! Please visit! She is annoyed that no one has. I'm probably going to talk about her site every day for like a week. Okay, so I cried yesterday morning. It's because I read some letters from my grandma when she was alive. It made me mega sad. My mom made me cry again about my grandma when she called. I hated it. She always seems to think that I know everything! Well, I don't! Half the time I don't know about what I feel, or what I think! So why can't she leave me alone!? I don't know. It just pisses me off. Okay, so I went to my friends house at like 6 last night. First we went onto the computers. I talked to my friends. Replied to pms, and imed people. We first played ddr, which I absoulutely had a blast with XD I HIT THE CEILING FAN!!!! WITHOUT EVEN TRYING!!! It was so funny. Hence the title of my post today. My mood is a ? mark because I'm having mixed feelings. I really don't know what I'm feeling Then we played guitar hero, and we still are! lol I'm playing on hard! It's so much fun! It started to hurt my wrist, but I don't care! I don't know what song I am going to play next. How is everybody? I'm okay I suppose. This post is all over the place lol Well, today I don't have school. So I will get to as many sites as I can! But I can't promise anything, cause the laptop I am using closes the window when I close a comment box. Its very frustrating! But, I'll get over it. I've been reading a fan fic of Fan Fic Site You don't have to go there. But don't forget to comment before clicking any links!! Cause I only know how to change the page from being my site to becoming another site. I don't know how to do the pop-up site one. I hate those, so I never learned the code, sorry! Well, I think I shall be off now! I hope you all have a great day! See you later! P.S don't forget, if you don't comment me at least once until Friday, unless you note that you can't, then you are off my friends list! But if you do contact me in any shape, form or matter. You are safe. Have a good day all!

Comments (3) | Permalink

Sunday, January 20, 2008

   whose line is it anyway!?

Hey! Well, I'm writing my post on a document again. Its actually much easier doing this. I'm gonna post this at like midnight again. Its so much simpler, then not posting at all because on weekends I don’t get out of bed until like noon. So, how is everybody? I'm great actually. Okay, so now let me talk about my day yesterday lol (when I post this it will be tomorrow) Saturday: Got up at like 11:50, had a very restless night. Ate breakfast at noonish. Got onto the laptop at like noon. Talk to my friends. Replied to e-mails, pms, and anything else. Few hours later at like 5, I went outside cause I had no one to talk too. Stayed outside till 6, despite the cold. Lol I'm so smart, aren’t I? Left at like 6:30 for marbourough.(sp?) Got there at like 7. My dad set up the place with the people. I went and sat down. I listened to my music until they actually started the show. I then laughed my ass off for 2 hours XD IT WAS SO FUNNY!! I loved it! It was just like whose line is it anyway?! XD It rocked! I noticed the two guys sitting behind me were part of the show, when they finally went up XD It was so funny! It was so much fun! I got home at like 11. My dad had to help clean up and stuff. I got home, replied to any e-mails and pms I got. Now, I'm just talking to my BFF Caitlin. Best Friend! Really, please go to her site! She needs more gb signings -_- She isn’t new, just not very famous lol So, I have 155 gb signings!! YAY!!! does happy dance I have like over 100 friends XD I'm already noticing who does and doesn’t comment my site. I'm pretty tired. takes small nap Okay, so. I will get to as many sites as I can today. It depends on my mood. -_______- I have an odd mood lol Well, I changed the music so it doesn’t go to AFI right after the native American music XD Cause, it just seemed a little odd, and it broke the mood. Lol Well, I have nothing else really to say. Have a good day! Have good night sleeps! Have fun and be with your friends!! See yah all later! Love yah guys!

Comments (7) | Permalink

Saturday, January 19, 2008

   lol

Hello Otaku!!!! I haven’t posted in a while. Sorry, I haven’t even gone to sites either! So sorry! I'm actually writing this on a document at 11:50 lol I will post it at like midnight! Nothing much has happened to me lately. Yesterday there was no school! YAY!! does happy dance I didn’t get to any sites yesterday. Well I did, but didn’t lol I signed a lot of guest books. I got bored really late at night. I have so more friends too lol I think I shall put up links again for all of my greatest friends off myotaku. An announcement. Anyone who doesn’t comment me in a week, will be off my friends list! I have been getting very annoyed when I have commented someone site and they haven’t commented me back! If you say you can't, then I shall understand. But after a while of no commenting, it does get annoying! I also don’t want one liners, those are very irritating too! Well, that was my small rant. Anyhow, lately I have been listening to some native American flute music. I love this type of music! I am part Indian! Also, I have my own animal guide XP don’t believe me, fine. But even someone said I do. Actually I have 2. Since I am the wolf. That’s why my theme is wolf. Also I love wolves, and I think I shall keep this theme for a LONG time. I changed the song though. I changed it to some native American flute music. I think it works well together. So, I have 142 guest book signings!! YAY!!! And what is with the “temporarily locked for renovation” thing? Its been up for a while. So I still have 755 views. Which I probably don’t have that many anymore. I'm just wondering about it. When do you think that will change? Okay, so I am going to be a lot busier then usual! I will get to sites as best that I can! If I don’t, I am truly sorry! I will get to EVERYONE’S site today! (actually its tomorrow because of the time I'm writing this XD) I just have to say, that I love everyone’s site. They all look so nice! Later tonight I am going to go to this show thingy that my dad is controlling a camera too! Its gonna be fun! My dad said that it is funny, and a bit racist and adult like. Whatever. I hope its gonna be fun! It better be funny too! XD I can't wait! Well, from here to then I will 1. sign some more gbs 2. get a little sleep XD 3. talk to anyone who is online. So, here is some random info about my contact junk. If you ever actually want to talk to me. Yahoo Instant Messanger: foxywolf_11 AIM: viodio13 e-mail: foxywolf_11@yahoo.com and for myotaku: DarkForever XD duh. Well, hope you all will talk to me! I get bored and lonely XD But if you do use any of these type of contacts, TELL ME FIRST!!! So I don’t just ignore you XD Well, if you pmed me I wouldn’t ignore you XD But any other type of contact yes I would! Okay, so my best friend RagingFlameSprite, really wants some new friends! She is NOT new! She just doesn’t like that people that she signs gb don’t sign back! And that everyone she comments doesn’t comment back either! She also is annoyed that I have more gb signings and friends then she does XD And Ive been here less time then she has. Well, here is a link that will bring you to her site! So please visit her!! Best Friend! Please! I'm begging you all to visit her!! Well, I hope you have a good day all! See you all around!! Be safe all!! Let God or whatever you believe in watch over you! ^^ See yah all!!

Comments (4) | Permalink