Friday, November 26, 2004

   uhh hap....py?
my moods change alot. but im happy right now which is odd lol. i got a new friend! her name is Princess Zelda but i call her Z. i dunno whats with me and letters of the alphabet lol. anyways... bout thanksgiving, i ate lots, got money for Christmas early, ate more, picked out my gifts already, ate more, played Halo 2 with my brother (he just got it and its awesome!), ate more, went shoping with my mom for her stuff, ate more, came home finally and guess what! ATE MORE! im so full... luckly i dont gain weight unless i work out so im safe. well i gotta get goin so ill post tomorrow if i have time. see ya round.

(>_<) haha funny

XTSpeed
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Sunday, November 21, 2004

   DIE YOU STUPID FUCK
what a nice title huh? thats my fav saying lol you stupid fuck. anyways im really pissed off today so im probably gonna be an ass to everyone i know. nah i know ill be an ass. few holes in the wall now lol my knuckles are messed up now and my seat has holes in it lol little knife holes. i need help honestly. i almost stabbed myself instead of a cardboard box. i think im gonna admit myself to a mental hospital. i have anger problems like no one but luckly i can kinda controll it. i think i went off on kasi one time a while ago. i dont even remember what about. but it only happened once. one too many times... i need help. help me... someone... i think i will... im gonna get help somehow. maybe after christmas. im not taking any fuckin pills though. thats all bs it wouldnt work on me. should i do drugs? if i get high maybe i wont hurt so bad... i cant talk about what has crushed my soul though... maybe someone can read my mind cause im not gonna tell anyone. anyways i have 30 mins before i gotta go drive. hope i dont wreck... this shits really buggin me and i cant stop thinking about it. i didnt get to sleep till 4 last night so i may fall asleep at the wheel. o well. ill see ya folks around.
"if someone is gonna kill your best friend, wouldnt you tell them? or would you let it happen?"
thats kind of my case... no no one killed anyone though its a figure of speech. maybe you can figure it out. see ya round.
X.T.C
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Thursday, November 11, 2004

   lost friendship
why is religious beliefs such a argueable thing? i just lost a friend who believe the same stuff i do except she thinks that the one thats right for her will just show up but i say you cant expect to find a needle in the dark, you gotta turn on the light and look. then that lead to me telling her that we shouldnt hang out cause im a bad person and so she said ok. i think i fucked up... it hurts to lose a friend... but not as bad as i thought it would... im fine really and i think its a bad thing. any words for me just leave a comment. any ideas on how to get her back PM me. thanks to all 3 people who read this. Rayea has gotten me thinking that ill write my own story... just cause i have nothing to do anyways. ill write some and post it.... monday maybe. i wont be back for a while. hope to hear from everyone on this.

"good things come to those who wait, but great things have to be earned."
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