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Sunday, July 1, 2007

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I know I haven't posted something where I've been angry at someone in a while and If you don't want to read something depressing you can just ignore me.

You know I'm thinking of just giving up. For years now I've always felt like I'm the last person my parents care about. They have my sister. She's successful she got straight A's all through elementary and she got high 90's all through high school. Then there’s me. The middle child. My younger sibling is the boy. All I get is C's and D's throughout elementary if I ever get higher than that it's a miracle. Then I go to high school and I end up failing a class. They are always asking me why can't I get the achievements my sister is getting? Am I stupid? What’s wrong with me? I constantly get reminders of how stupid I am and how much my sister is better than me. Just the other day when she came back from grad she had achievement awards and my parents were flaunting these awards at me like they expected me to do the same thing. It's always the same thing over and over. I'm always the one who fails miserably. They probably hate me and despise the fact I can't do what my sister can do. Even my brother does better than me. To make it worse all I do is get tormented at school anyways because of my problem with picking my eyelashes. Well that’s a result of all the pressure maybe. It's I guess an alternative to cutting myself. I hate this so much. And what I have friends who can back me up? NO. I don't. My friends hate me they always have I didn't even do anything wrong. Maybe they just think I'm pathetic. Even all of them do better in school than me. They get attention from their parents. They probably don't want to hang out with me just because of what other people say about me. This is so stupid, why am I here? I'm just pathetic, stupid, and worthless. I should just die or something. I hate this so much. I go to bed in tears every night because I can't do anything right. Even this morning they yelled at me about all these stupid things. I'm always the one getting blamed. I just want this to stop. I'm in tears right now because I know it probably won’t change until I can find a way to make my parents happy. I probably wont they don't care nobody cares I bet none of you care about anything I've said in this post. I don't care. I guess I'll just go on not caring about anything then I can be forgotten so I don't have to put up with this...

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