Wednesday, March 12, 2008

   So...Randomness
So....What's up everyone? I'm just sitting here and had a few minutes before class started. So, what's everyone been up to? Me, Not much. I ran away from home for a couple of hours. You remember my friend Reaper? Well, he wanted to come over and hang out with me. It's a long story, Short version is, me and my mom got into it. She acted like she was going to hit me so I told her to do it. When she didn't, I went out side and acted like i was going to leave. She stopped me and grabbed my phone and I ran off.

I wound up going back home. My mom wasn't mad that I ran off. Reaper had told her that he wouldn't talk to me again. When I text him and asked if he was mad at me, he said no and that it wasn't my fault that my mom flipped out. So now we are still talking and we're not going to let her know that we are. The best thing about this is nobody in my family knows about this website and no one knows that I post stuff like this on here. It's a perfect way to vent.

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Monday, March 10, 2008

   My Weekend
Hi everyone!!! How was your weekend? Mine was awsome!!! I hung out with my friend and his two friends. The one I'm blogging about is...well, i'll just use a nickname...Reaper. So anyway, Reaper is a pretty cool dude. He came to my house to hang out after everyone was dropped off. He lives close to my house so that's cool. My mom seemed to like him except when he put his arm around me. She got mad because he's 25 and i'm 17. I told her that it wasn't even like that. We both want the same thing. Just a close friendship. Besides, I'm old enough to make my own decisions. I'm close enough to 18. She can just chill out. She tells me she trusts me all the time. Why not now?
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Wednesday, March 5, 2008

   Good News...Sorta
Well, Strength doesn't hate me and he is now talking to me again. Right now we are just friends and I'm ok with that. I got some answers and I'm glad. He got answers too. He was so afraid of hurting me and I wound up hurting him first. When we wasn't talking, that hurt, but I have no one to blame but myself. He was hurt that I lied to him and I am now kicking myself in the ass for it. He knows why I did, but I'm not entirely sure he accepts it or not. He's probablly still mad. But at least he's talking to me. It's going to take time for us...me to fix things. Just taking baby steps. Wish me luck!!! I'm going to need it!!!
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Tuesday, March 4, 2008

   Break-Up
Well, me and Strength broke up. We was hanging out saturday and then he went to this girl's house to help her through some crisis, (I'm not at liberty to divulge what the crisis was.) Anyway, I was fine with that. But he didn't go home until like 3:30am. Then the next day, he was over there again and this time, she was fine. He didn't want to txt me while he was over there and i thought that was kinda suspisous, like any girl would. So i sent a friend of mine a txt that said i thought that maybe he was cheating on me because i had a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach that he was. Anyway, He accedently got the txt and he asked me if i trusted him and i told him no, I was being honest with him because he doesn't like liers. But he still got mad and said i had lied to him before about trusting him and i did tell him that i don't trust anyone.

So now, we're not talking and its making me really sad. I hope that in time he can forgive mr for whatever it is he thinks i did. Whatever it is, I just want to tell him I'm sorry.

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Thursday, February 28, 2008

Hey
Hey everyone! How is your day going? Mine sucks ass. First, we had to go to the lad for my british lit class and work on a project that's due tomarrow and i'm not done even though ive worked my ass off on it. Then we had a tornado drill in math and i had to go to the lab to work on yet another project, now i'm in third and im supposed to be working on a project in here. And i have to work on a project in fourth too.

It also sucks because the only way i can talk to my one true love, Strength, is at lunch and thats through texting. I love txting him because it makes my day better. But nothing beats having the real thing around. I miss him so much and i wish i still went to LCA(his school, my old school). At least i get to see him this Saturday and he might be able to spend the night with me. Don't worry, we won't be doing anything like what some of you might be thinking!:P He knows im a virgin(i'll say it loud and proud!!!) and he said he's not going to push me to do something i don't want to. He's sooo sweet and understanding!!! Only one of the millons of things I love about him!!!! Thinking about him makes me smile and puts me in a better mood!!! And because I'm venting and thinking about Strength, I feel a lot better!!!

Got to go!! Don't forget to comment!!!;p

---I'm an Atheist, why arent you?---
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

   It's been a while.
Hey everyone! What's up? Wow, it's been a long time since i've posted anything. I've just been buisy with school and life as I know it.

Things haven't really changed much. I'm still living with my mom and she's turning 38 in one day(Feb 28). My little sister is still a bitch and annoying the fuck out of me. School sucks ass as usual and I really hate the assistant principal and a teacher named Coach Comely. He told me to shut up right in front of the assistant principal and that ass hole didn't do a god damn thing about it! Plus, the assistant proncipal has my hat and wont give it back until I apologize to C. Comely, and I'm not going to because I didn't do anything wrong. I hate authority! Especially those in power that are corrupt and think they can get away with anything!

On a happier note, I have a boyfriend. His nickname is Strength. (I don't think he would want me to put his name on here just because it's the internet and you never know.) Anyway, Strength is...was a friend of mine that I liked for a really long time. After a while, I fell in love with him but he had a girlfriend so I didn't tell him. Then I moved and we started txting more and he came to my house one saturday and he told me he was in love with me. And, we started going out.

Strength is the greatest guy ever!!!! He's so sweet and he doesn't put me down or try to force me to do anything I don't want to, like my x did. He's so supportive and he is a really great kisser. Plus, it doesn't hurt that he's really hot. I'm supprised I managed to be with him. The truth is, I never thought I was good looking enough for him, but he tells me everyday that I'm beautiful. He's also very smart and funny and he can make me smile for no reason at all. I'm so happy with him!!! I know that it sounds to good to be true, but I don't think it is. I love him a lot more than he relizes. Ok...I have to go. It's almost time for me to change classes and I should have been doing my work, but....I can't stop thinking about Strength and I wanted to let everyone know I was still here. Ok, Talk to you guys later!!!


----I'm an Athiest, Why aren't you?------
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

   I GOT KICKED OUT!
Ok, a couple of weekends ago, I went down to my mom's house. That Sunday, we were getting ready to take me back to my dad's. Well, he calls me and asks if i was getting ready to come home and i said yes. Well he told me when i get home to pack my shit and leave! I asked why and he said because I cause too much conflict! I guess he was talking about how I always faught with the step sister, Jeri Ann. Every time we'd fight, it was because she'd start shit! She'd go in my room and steal my stuff then give it away!!! And I don't know how many times I told my dad and her mom about it, but they didn't do a goddamn thing about it!!! How fucked up is that!? Anyway, I asked him and he told me he was tired of dealing with all my bull shit and he wanted me out. So I was like whatever and hung up the phone. Well, Jeri calls me an hour later and said that David(My dad) said he was sorry and he didn't mean it and he wants me to come back and I told her no. She asked why and I said I couldn't take it anymore. Always getting bitched at no matter what I did. Even when I was good and did all my chores and stuff! I still got bitched at and blamed for shit I didn't do! Now, I'm not saying I was perfect, far from it, but, C'mon man....Anyway, I told them no, and how messed up is it that he didn't call to say sorry, he got the step sister to do it for him?(I didn't say that part). Now I live with my mom. It's not so bad, she's off dope and has a job now. I've been living with her for a couple of weeks and I keep thinking about how a father could do that to his daughter. What kind of dad kicks his seventeen year old girl out? He's supposed to want to protect me! To scare the guys she's dating! That kind of stuff!!! WHAT THE HELL IS THE MATTER WITH HIM?!!
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