Friday, September 14, 2007

Quick Update~
Time of Post: 7:3o

Hey,
Remember me? How've you all been? I hope you've been well. ^_^

Things have been alright with me. I like my school pretty well, I usually have abunch of work, but it's alright. My mother is living with us now, and she's better too.

I haven't made many friends in class though..there are a few people who are nice to me, which is good. And an anime fan who is cool. They have an anime club and art club there as well, which I'm a member of..but..I'm just not a group person, you know? I don't really know how to talk to people, and I'm very shy. When I do try and talk I usually end up saying something stupid, or the other person misunderstands. I'm more of a loner anyway, but everyone has a limit, and I'm lonely. Maybe I just alienate myself, but you can never tell.

Oh well, enough of my problems. I really do hope you all have been good. ^_^ I'm on fall break right now, which means I'll have time to swing by all your sites~

Aside from that, I forgot to leave you all with my other accounts..feel free to e-mail me whenever, I love to hear from ya: darkwolves_faith@yahoo.com.

Here's my deviantartpage, which I lurk around frequently:

http://darkwolvesfaith.deviantart.com/

I'll talk to you later! *hugs*
Ja mata,
~Blue
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Thursday, August 16, 2007

Hiatus
Time of Post: 1:oo

Hey,
Thanks for you alls support in my last post. It made me feel better and it's very much appreciated. <3

But I have to say that I'm taking a temporary hiatus from here. I'm going into a new school on Monday, and all the classes that I signed up for are difficult. I want to get into Savannah College of Art & Design eventually, but it's expensive and hard to get into. So..I have to really work work work my last few years in Highschool.

But I'll be around, and I'll stop by some sites every now and then. I really hate to not be as active here much anymore, but I don't have much of a choice..

The only thing I can say is that I'll be around Deviantart.com alot, as I have to concentrate on my art. Username's DarkWolvesFaith there too.

I wish my friends the best, and I'll talk to you all later.
*hugs**

Sayonara,
~Blue
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Saturday, August 11, 2007

Not Dead
Time of Post: 12:oo

Hey,
Once again, I'm sorry that I haven't been on. Just now got internet connection. But alot has happened within this past week or so. My life has been flipped totally upside down.

My mother started drinking again, because she's an alcoholic. But she drank on top of taking some kind of pills, and I'm surprised she's even alive. I don't know what triggered it, but I came home to her drunk and my parents fighting about a week ago. I had to break them up before they hurt each other.

She was bad, I mean, I couldn't even understand a word she said. She said some not-so-nice things to me and my father. I just can't explain to all of you how horrible it is to see your mother in that condition, so I'm not even going to try.

So we left. I'm no longer in South Carolina, me, my dad, and my brother moved to Georgia. What else could we do? She was so trashed, she couldn't even walk straight. She even called my friend when I wasn't home, and tried to get her to take her to a bar.

It sounds selfish, to say that we just left like that. But I can't live with her, not like that. Living back there would have been miserable. I think it always was, but I'm just now realizing this. I'm here with my family, and it feels as if a dark cloud has been lifted from us.

It just breaks my heart to leave her though. And I'm not explaining everything in this post because it'd be too long.

Right now she's in the psychiatric ward because of how she's acting.

I'm afraid though. We don't have a house, we're living with my grandparents, my uncle and two cousins. It's a full house right now, not that I mind. I'm just afraid of being all alone in a new school, and I'm sad for my mom, but I'm too mad at her for words right now. I'm sure I sound selfish, but there's just too much to explain, and I just wanted you all to know why I've been absent from here.

Plus I may not be on as much. Don't expect me to be on all the time like I used too, because I'm going to focus more on art, my writing, and soon school.

But I'm not leaving, and I will be lurking around here, drop a comment here and there. I just can't be on as much as I used too.

Hope you all have been well, I really missed my friends. <3

~Blue
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Sunday, July 29, 2007

Back again
Time of Post: 4:oo

Hey,
Blue returns. I was happy to see my family, but they left the day before yesterday, and now I'm sad. I feel really dead today as well, I don't know what the deal is. I think it's because I got up late.

I just hate being with my parents, we never go anywhere and I just waste away in my room. We have absolutely no food, and school starts pretty soon. But ya know, I could get lucky and die before the 20th comes around.

I'm sorry, I'm just in a bad mood, I miss my cousins, and I'm stuck with my spazzy mother who does nothing but sleep.

I may submit fanart later, if my mother will let me use the camera, which I doubt. Otherwise I guess I'll update my fanfic.
Much luff,
~Dark
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Sunday, July 22, 2007

Quick Post
Time of Post: 10:oo

Hey,
Just posting to say that I've got relatives visiting, and they live far away(dunno when I'll see them again) so I won't be real active here for about a week. Sorry about the visiting then, but I'll swing by your sites whenever I get the chance. =)

Much luff,
~Blue
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Friday, July 20, 2007

Anime bashing and it's stupidity
Time of Post: 3:3o

Hey,
Thanks for the warm welcome back everyone! It's appreciated. =3

I'm kind of pissed off though. Not real bad, just a tiny bit. I can across an anti-anime site the other day..and I can't believe the things they say about us. XD It really doesn't matter, because it's ridiculous and kind of pathetic. But it's also very irritating.

I think it's more directed at the rabid fangirls. You know, the really really bad ones.

Some people say that anime fans are perverted nerds that don't have a life, and never bathe. Okay, I've heard about those fat stinky guys that cosplay as Sailor Moon, but I've never actually seen it. Have you? And I'm a huge anime fan, but I bathe daily, and I'm not butt ugly.

I'm not a pervert either, hentai scares me.

Not all anime is full of sex. And they complain about big boobs in some series. Yeah, it is overkill, but not every female is like that. The only person in my fandom who has them, er, rather big is Seras. But you don't see her walking around naked, so it's really not a big deal.^^'

Then they said that it's stupid when they try and make things in anime realistic. Such as guns. Well excuse the creators for wanting their art to look good. =/

Oh, and they bitch because we call ourselves Otaku, when it's actually a bad insult in Japan. It is. But here in the States, it just means 'anime fan' correct? So what's the deal?

There are such things as good art, good cosplay, and great characters and plot. We aren't stupid.

People are narrow minded sometimes. That's fine if you're not into it, but you don't have bash it and make yourself look like an arse.

What are your thoughts on this?
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Teh wolf returns!
Time of Post: 3:oo

Hey,
I'm back finally. I missed my friends alot though, and I hope you all have been well. =3

I had a pretty good time, it was nice to see my family. I'm worried about one of my cousins though, he acted kind of funny. =/ I told him I hope he feels better soon, and he thanked me but said that he wasn't sad. Which was a lie, I could feel it, but it's none of my business. I just hope things turn out alright.

The bad thing is that I miss all of them now that I'm back here. It was nice to be in a stable household.

Anyway, do you like the new theme? I made the background and submitted it as a wallpaper of TheO. I finally got my PxS theme~!

New playlist too, full of songs that remind me of them. Yes, I'm that picky. If I have a theme, I have to go all out. XD (Just like my last batch of songs matched my psycho Seras theme, lol.)

Some of those fit them so well it's scary. Oo Like The Walking Dead, The Promise, and Ocean Breathes Salty. Wonderful songs.

Oh, on Livejournal, I joined a community called Hellsing_Drops. You claim a friendship, character, and couple, and do either a fanfic or drawing based on a theme. But you have to do all one hundred themes. I'm doing the challenge, but I'll be in way over my head.^^' Please wish me luck.

Well I might be going over to a friend's house later, so I don't know how many sites I'll get to. But I'll visit tomorrow for sure.
*hug*
Ja mata,
~Blue


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Saturday, July 7, 2007

Art Dump
Time of Post: 1:3o

Hey,
Sorry I've been lacking with my visiting, but I've been kind of busy, as I was over at a friends house.(It was fun, we slept in a tent^^). I hope you all had a good 4th too.

Mainly I'm posting to say that I'm leaving for now. I'm going to Georgia tomorrow to stay for a week or so, which is good, but I don't have internet there.

..In other news, I uploaded abunch of new fanart, so please take a look if you'd like. Thanks.

I love you all lots and will miss you terribly. *sigh*
Sayonara,
~Blue
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Monday, July 2, 2007

THEY LIVE! Well, kind of..
Time of Post: 4:3o

Hey,
What's up everyone? Nothing much here, just having a Hellsing spaz. (So be warned of the happy rant. I'm sorry.)
___
Newest chapter of Hellsing is out~! And PxS fans are rejoicing everywhere. Why? Because Pip lives~!

Wait, no, that's not right..he's still dead. Ok, he appears, in Seras head. *And* he's got shadow matter on him. Which means..that his soul is indeed there. (What I was hoping for)

Seras and Alucard have the ability to absorb souls of the ones they drink blood from. It wasn't explained very clearly, so at first we all thought it was only the victim's memories. No, it is indeed the whole package.



And at one point he says
'Hey, hey that's not you.
You're stronger than that, that's not the woman I know.
Come on girl wake up let's do it.
Let's do it, let's get together and then beat him up.'
___

In other news, I went to Inuyasha rating on Livejournal..and I am Kikyou. I really don't know how that came about, but I was honest when filling out my profile.^^' I don't have any complaints, I like her but I was just surprised.

Ah, and I have a question: Can any of you make me a wallpaper? I need a background for my next theme, and I want it to be Pip and Seras. But there are virtually no wallpapers of them, and I don't know how to make one.

I will supply pictures for it, and in return I'll draw you three pictures of whatever you want.(Not a very good deal, but it's all I have to offer.) Let me know if you're interested and I'll PM you with details. Somebody please help me here.^^'
~~~
I need advice..I can't talk about anything else, because I really don't have much of a life.(Not that I can, my family is dirt poor right now so we go nowhere.) I've been feeling really bad about that lately. I'm just in one of my moods where I hurt and ponder and beat myself up over and over again. Me being me, my drawings, everything. My drawings are just not good enough! I swear I draw and erase, draw and erase until my hands bleed, but it's not good enough.

But what can ya do? I'm an Otaku, not a normal teen. People usually don't get that. I'm expected to have alot of friends and be dating and worrying about things like that but I'm not. I never will, either. I'm being me with my weird interests yet I'm a loser because of it. I'm torn. Dear lord I know this sounds so angsty and stupid, but sometimes I think my life is pointless. Not life in general, just my life. Me. I really am nothing. I want to give up at times, though you can't give up on life, so I guess it doesn't matter does it?

This post is long, thank you for reading if you did. I luffs you all~ =3
Ja mata,
~Blue
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Thursday, June 28, 2007

Time of Post: 1:oo

Hey,
....My quiz got accepted..and now I really regret that rant I did yesterday.^^' I told you I probably would! Lol. My opinion still stands on mainstream anime here though, and some of the fanbrats, but that's it.

I didn't mean to offend anyone, I don't think I did, but just incase, sorry.

Though..my quiz got accepted~! I'm happy. Some of you said that you wanted to take it, and there's a link down at the bottom of my page.

Could you tell me who you get if you take it? You don't have to, I'm just curious. XD

Anyway, thanks for coming by again today. =3 I luffs you all.
Ja mata,
~Blue
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