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myOtaku.com: DarkWolves Faith
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
 Time of Post: 12:00
Listening to: Love is a Battlefield
Quote: Just go and hang yourselves!You should have hung yourself 50 years ago! -Seras to the Nazis.
Hey,
Sorry I haven't been around much this week, but like I said last time I posted, I'm going to visit everyone on the list today. So, how've my friends been? Good I hope.^^~
As for me, I'm kind of down. I had a bad week. I've been under stress all year, bottling things up. And Thursday a girl said something to me,(which wasn't even that bad, I don't even remember what it was now.) And that did it, I broke down. Just something that small set me off, and what do I do? Cry. In front of her, in front of everyone in Spanish class.(Normally I wouldn't do that, but that's the consequence of locking stuff up.) I'm a mess when I cry though, I was whimpering and had my black hair sticking to my face and..ugh.
Did the girl care? No, she just went on saying that the reason she's so mean to people is that she's had a bad life. Which is abunch of bullshit because just because you've had it bad does not give you an excuse to be a bitch.
She did apologize the next day, though. I forgive her, even if I still don't like her. So I suppose it's all over. Then why bother with it? Because I hate the fact that I'm sensitive like that. I am really really bad. I'm not a crybaby, I honestly don't cry that often, but I always feel like I want to. I can't hate people, I can't fight anyone. I heal and trust.
I hate it. It allows me to feel what other people feel, and I rely on it in my drawings, but is it really worth it? I suppose I'm supposed to be hurtful and extroverted. But I don't have that in me, I don't want it to be, but yet I, and probably alot of others, suffer for it. Tell me, what happens to us?
I would crawl up inside myself like I usually do, but a person can't do that when one loathes themselves. Or one part, at least.
I just don't get it, why does everyone half to fight over nothing? And be cruel to each other. And yet, if you don't do things as such, you're considered weak. I want to turn my back on the world so bad sometimes, I'm losing my faith in it. If I had any to begin with.
Oh, I didn't mean to rant like that. Gomen nasai. New art is up too.
Ja mata,
-DarkWolves
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