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• 1994-04-18
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• 2007-03-03
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• Ivon
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• As long as I can remember
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• Chobits,Eureka 7, Naruto, Trinity Blood, Bleach,Inuyasha , .hack , One pice, Yu Yu Hakushu , gundam seed , beyblade. Shaman king , full mental alchemist, Scryed,and Yugioh
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• I want to become an author
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• poetry
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Monday, July 16, 2007
Doesn't anyone care about me?!?!
I nearly drown, my dad doesn't care, I get hit by a mop that my little brother threw at me my mom doesn't care. T-T I want to stab them sooo badly!! I hate this!! They simply put a face and pretend to care, and in truth they just doesn't care...
*sigh* I'll explain people. I was with my dad this weekend, and he took us (me, my sister, my brother, my step sis, and my step brother) to some beach to go snorkeling. Well, at first things went well, my dad took us one by one to go snorkeling. I was the last one to go, I was nervous but everything was alright. There was so many fish! There was this bright orange one that scared my step sis, because she said one of the had red eyes o.o""
Then I went snorkeling again, but without my dad and with my little 9 year old brother, and my step brother. Well my brother was nice to me at the moment so he took us to this big rock where other snorkeling people were, unfortunately at the moment there was lots of waves, and I had a hard time getting my grip (I am still scared of the water) and then boom, the flipper thing you put on your feet to go swimming got lose I quickly grabbed it and put it up (scared since the water kept trying to pull me down) and then we went to go back to shore (no one noticed me being freaked out)
Well, guess what happen? The thing you breathe in (you know the tube thing) well, it was getting filled with water! So I couldn't breath, so I started freaking out mostly since my goggles started filling with water too! I couldn't see or breath, so I tried screaming out for help from my step brother and brother, >.> no one heard me (they were underwater) dam, so I tried swimming back (very far away)
T_T I can't swim that well, so I was panicking, since I was started feeling numb. No one helped me, I was alone luckily because my friend Valeria (actually she was my friend till 3-5 grade) taught me how to swim, so even though I can't swim that well... thanks to her I know how to swim good enough to reach to a place where I could stand up
*sob* I was soo scared!! I no one helped me, no one was there!!
And when I told my dad, he didn't care!! He just asked about my brother!!! Why??? Wasn't I important enough???
Well, my brother was drowning... yes he was going down to the ocean but some 11 year old saved him! Yes, i am happy that someone saved him (I'm not heartless) but, someone saves my brother yet when I was freaking out that I couldn't breath or see that well [some of the water got out] no one helps me...
*sigh* just so not fair, if I died right now, would anyone miss me?? Would anyone care *sob*
Well, afterward I guess it was alright. Even though I wanted to cry so badly because I thought I was going to die!! (this is my 3rd near death experience all in the ocean)
I missed Naruto, Bleach, and Blood + because us girls (me, my sis, and my step sister) had to sleep in a room without tv while the guys (brother and step brother) had the living room with tv all to themselves
Just great my brother is going to watch tv while I am trying to hear some music
Well, because my mom wants me to get off I just skip to what just happen. My mom, and step dad left to get some water (where I live you have to go and get drinking water by yourself) and my brother was going to call them because he wanted to know where they were. My sister told him that they said only call them for emergencies. This always happens, my brother says "I don't care" I get mad tell him to stop, and leave the phone alone we get mad. I get the phone... *sigh* he hits me, but this time he throws the f-word mop at me and hits me on the side!!
When my mom comes and I tell her, what she say? "What did you do to help around the house? Your not allowed to use the computer unless you help around the house!!" (I was using the computer)
No one cares!! I just hate this! I want to die! I mean, what's the point of me living if I had to deal with a mother who doesn't care about me or understands me, and a brother who just makes my life a living hell and keeps saying "I don't care" and with a sister who just wont shut up! She talks and talks when I was peace and quiet!! And then with a dad who doesn't pay child support (he owes my mom around 10,000 dollars) and doesn't care about me or understands anything about me.
I just hate this!!
I know, I'm complaining! But I can't help it!
I just want someone who says "I care" and means it and wont back stab me in the end
*sigh* I'll try to get through it... I won't commit suicide (me swimming like hell proves enough that I don't want to die)
Random Part Of The Day
"Stop making me repeat myself! Its bad for my health!" - Duo Maxwell (Gundam Wing)
QUESTIONS
1 - How often do you talk on the phone?
2 - Ever felt empty?
See ya and take care! ^.^
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