Sunday, October 19, 2003

   randomeness...
yep yep random stuff. randomness #1: i hav just finished reading gravitation issues 1 and 2 for the third time, and im NOT re-reading them again, so im gonna hav to wait until december- DECEMBER- until i can read any more gravi goodness. *sigh* sooo far away... but, there is good news. maybe. remember audrey? how she moved away a couple months ago and wat not? well she might be coming bak soon! yip! yea i kno, im a walking paradox. one day im smiting friendship and the next im doin the cha cha slide and having pocky parties 2 celebrate the *maybe* return of a friend. ah well, theres DES for ya. in any sense, i am feeling rather cheery today, sooo BEHOLD my kawaii yami/yugi and shuichi-chan! MUWAHA!





errm, i really reeeeeally REEEEEALLY hope that audrey can com bak so if ur religious could ya pray or somethin? much thanks ^____^
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   friends...
i hav another random question for you all. what are ur thoughts/feelings on friends? are they really worth having? and when i say friends, i mean like the kind of friends that u always hang out with and talk 2 prolly every day at school, on the phone, whatever. i see no problem with having friends online (lik u guys ^-^) you never have 2 deal with "call me as soon as you get home" or "sorry, im busy tonight. maybe some other time". online you don't really hav any commitments 2 each other so ur never really dissapointed. but ur still there for each other (in a sense) and its always on your own time too. just log on, leave a comment, and whenever its convenient for you, log back on. no hassle. with real friends you have promises broken, trust lost and feelings hurt. even if u truly are best friends with someone and ur friendship is never lost or broken, ur still going to end up dissapointed. eventually you'll both go your seperate ways, be it after high school, college, whatever. either way you lose. so im just wondering what your thoughts are on the matter.
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Saturday, October 18, 2003

hehehehehehehe...

You're goin' down! FOR MURDER!
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Night Walker, the second class of vampire. You are
depressive and introverted, making it hard to
reach you. Your servants are very few, because
you do not like to take prisoners. Your powers
are comprised of shadow magic. You are lonely
deep down inside, but won't let others see your
true self. You should try to open up more
often.


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Friday, October 17, 2003

   some quality time with DES: part 2
yea well, here it is. i couldn’t really think of much to write here, but i tried! mmkay, so far we hav the addictedness 2 cutting and the avoiding of people. now on with the rest...

~ still 6th grade~ all of my days were goin pretty much the same. go to school, come home, lock myself in my room, repeat. thrown in a little self-mutilation, and u pretty much hav my life up to this point. i hated living then. every day it would get harder and harder to do the simplest things, im not even sure why. i never told anyone how i felt. i convinced myself that they didn’t care and didn’t understand.

one day i got in a fight with my best friend (audrey. i’ve mentioned her before, i think) after the fight i gave myself possibly the deepest cut that i came out of this whole mess with. it ran from my elbow down to about my wrist. i used my dad’s little red pocket knife i had stolen from his room. before we made up three days later i had given myself twelve cuts on my left arm, three on my right shoulder and seven on my right arm.

~around the third quarter~ im not sure how long all of this went unnoticed and i didn’t care, as long as it stayed that way. but nothing ever stays the same. one day during lunch audrey accidently spilled her water on the hoodie that i had been wearing about every day (don’t look at me like that. it was the only one i had. i had 2 hide those cuts somehow...) i kinda started to feel uncomfortable, wat with everyone lookin at my wet hoodie all funny and everything, so i took it off.

throughout the rest of the day people kept askin me things like “what happened to your arms?” and “how did you get those cuts?” and i’d respond with “my nieghbors cat” or “i got in a fight”. this seemed to satisfy them, so i pretty much just blew off the whole thing and forgot about it. a couple of days later i was called down to the counselors office during math, second period at 9:53 am.

behold, part two. not the most interesting thing in the world, but then im not the most interesting person :P oookay, part 3 will tell about my counseling experiences and such. then i think that this’ll pretty much be done. at the end u guys will see how u all tie into this. i think that its kinda cool/strange how i can remember all of the little details.

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obsessed? whos obsessed?!? im not obsessed...

Total Yaoi Fan


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Thursday, October 16, 2003

   FREE POCKY FOR ALL!!! *throws bundles of pocky*
oy, today in spanish some chick called anime 'cartoons'. so, of course, i kinda... exploded, shall we say. and boy, did i show her. i think shes scared of me, yep. but thas not what im happy about. i am VEEEEEEEEERY happy because my friend and her girlfriend are actually gettin married!!! AND THEY WANT ME TO BE IN THIER WEDDING!!!! ^______^ WOOOOOT! im so happy about this becuz i was afraid that they wouldn't go through with the wedding. see, a while bak they kinda got into a fight. a humongous-gigantic-huge-reeeally-reeeally-big fight. they broke up and canceled the wedding and everything! i was so sad, they're perfect for each other, i KNOW they are. so i was veeeery upset/irritated wen all this happened. but its all over now, they're more in lov then ever and ACTUALLY GETTIN MARRIED!!!! awww, happy. but... there is a dillema. they can't decide where they're gonna marry. sooo im gonna ask u guys! some info: they wanna hav a gothic wedding. sooo will it be

A) church (i know. gothic, church... but they said that they really wanted 2 try the church thing... my friends are strange...)

B) on a cruise ship (they think that this would be awesomely cool and such, but maybe more of a honeymoon thing than a wedding)

C) any other places u guys can think of. *looks around at otakus* *thinks: maybe the last option wasn't such a good idea...*

well, there u go! i'd LOOOOOVE 2 hear ur thoughts and ideas! ^-^
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Wednesday, October 15, 2003

   freaky...

I took the fruity fruit quiz

made by rav-chan

Check out which fruit you are

does anyone else find it freaky how these quiz-thingys are always so accurate? hmmm... anyhoo, random question: what was ur first experience with anime? i'll start this one off. the very first anime i ever saw was, of course, pokemon. and yes, i still watch that show. i hav to! why? becuz i owe it so much! if it weren't for pokemon i'd prolly be watchin... oh, i don't kno... bugs bunny or somethin right now. and u gotta lov ash, pikachu and gary! even if u absolutely LOATHE the show, u still gotta lov those characters! they're just so glompable ^-^
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Tuesday, October 14, 2003

O.O
adam... just signed... my guestbook... *hyperventilating* MY guestbook! MUWAHAHA!!! ok, enough of that. as you hav prolly all noticed, i am currently on a MAJOR gravitation high, seein as how i've mentioned it or shown a pic in EVERY freakin post so far, so i've decided 2 just ride this out and see where it leads me... oookay, sooo here for your enjoyment are some toootally kawaii gravi piccys! ^-^










there, now that i've gotten that outa my system... daBish: are u sure that it's outa ur system? *grabs nekked yuki and shuichi plushies* DES: you wouldn't dare... Bish: *evil smile* DES: oh gawd, not again...


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random rant
does anyone notice anything famailiar with this quiz result? now why is it that they can hav a quiz result lik this, but they don't hav a gravitation section? *sigh* silly silly otaku...



What Cosplay Type Are You?


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oookay?

Masochist


The ULTIMATE personality test
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i finally got the new gravitation manga! WEEEEEEEE!!! i am happy DES. very happy indeed. however, i'd prolly be even more happy if i could keep it for myself. arrrg, heres how it goes.

1) i get the manga and read it.
2) my sister borrows it (she liks yaoi cuz of me. i've corrupted her. MUWAHAHAHA!!!)
3) Cassie borrows it
4) Sarah borrows it
5) Kaitie borrows it
6) i carry it around 4 an extra day cuz everyone that dosen't read it always wants 2 look through it 2 see the... umm... "interesting" pictures.

yep yep. random thought: anyone ever noticed how wen u cut urself sometimes after the actual cut in the skin heals, it gets all puffy and kool-lookin and sometimes u can see it bleeding under the skin? ok, moving on... im thinkin bout postin my 2ond installment of "some personal time with DES" maybe this friday for i hav no school. so i'll hav as much time 2 type as i need. so if that was somethin that interested u than... uh, look for it? yea... u kno, now that i think bout it, WEEEEEEE dosen't really seem lik somethin i'd say... and i hav a goal: get at least 300 site-visit-thingys by christmas. o yea, that'll happen :P
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