Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Hey! So sorry I didn't get to sites. I was real busy though. I dropped my applications off. Wish me luck! I am really hoping to get a job soon. I am thinking of making a resume this weekend. I started cleaning my room out from all the crap I don't need. I am going ot clean the house tonight. I have no homework and I need something to do. Well I don't have anything to say. I love you Brandon and I miss you lots.

Ashley
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Monday, February 25, 2008

   Hey! How is everyone? I am okay! Well I am getting my belly button done sometime. Probably next weekend. Brandon said he would go with me. I really miss him so much.Yes Lily I have talked to him. Um..I am dropping applications off and driving a little today. I got nothing else to say. Later!

Ashley misses Goober
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Sunday, February 24, 2008

Hey! Well today I am not sure what I am doing. I didn't hang out with Cody yesturday. Not to be mean but I am kinda glad. Brandon Lathrop asked if I wanted to hang out when he got home. Which is suppose to be today. I don't really know if we will or not. I don't think we will. I might see if Ashley wants to hang out after her bridal shower. We all know who I would really love to hang out with but I know he probably is busy or doesn't want to hang out just yet. So I am giving him his time :) I know it is best for him and I want him happy. I am now just waiting and thinking. Later!

Ashley Marie
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Saturday, February 23, 2008

Hey! Today sucks! I miss Brandon like crazy and I wish he was here. I keep thinking of all the times we had even if they weren't always so good. I miss everything and I am going to wait for him forever. No matter what! I love him and no one can tell me otherwise. I am so tired of people saying forget him is a asshole but I don't think he is. He may have hurt me twice but I still love him and can't hate him. It is impossible for me to stay mad at me when we were together and I still can't. I ain't even mad at all or have been. I have been confused as hell but I have the right. Yea today I am going to hang out with Cody but that doesn't mean I am going to have fun. Not to be mean but he can get a little over strong. He is my best friend though and I am sorry but nothing more. I don't love him like he loves me. I have had my heart stole by Brandon Dearborn already. I LOVE YOU BRANDON DEARBORN!!!!!!


About yesturday I dropped off applications and I forgot to put on one that I would work weekends. So next weekend if I don't hear from them I am going to call them to update my application. I did apply for about 8 places. I know that 2 places were hiring for sure and the rest was just to be on the list. I talked to Greg from my last job. He said he would update my application. So I am hoping he can get me back in their for some money. The only thing is, I promised I would go to college. I might do something that is different than college but gives me a certificate. What else..I went driving. I am not bad. Everything was coming back to me. I am hoping the weather is nice so I can drive more. I am going to practice the things I need and then take the 5 hour course again and then off to sign up for my test. Wish me luck on ewverything please.

Ashley
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Friday, February 22, 2008

Hey! I have 2 new poems and I changed 2 of my old ones. I will be posting them. Please let me knwo what you think of them. Also I am still praying I get Brandon back. I miss him so much and I love him. with all my heart still. I am sorry I haven't commented but it's hard when your comment boxes won't work and you are depressed beyond belief. I hope Brandon Scott comes back to me soon. *half smiles* I am hoping I get my fairy tale happy ending like in Bridget Jones 2. Don't laugh at me I like that movie.

Untitled: By AM
When your In Love I always thought,
You would never say your pretty to someone else,
Because you had found your one and only.
I once thought so many things,
But I realize I was wrong.
I use to think all men just wanted me for one thing.
I realized when I met you.
Not all men are the same.
I realized I want to be with you forever.
I even realized if it would be better for you...
I would let you go.
I love you Baby!
So I don't want to do that.
If I could that would be last
But we were raised different,
So I am not sure if you will still love me
Like you use to


Someone else maybe: By AM
Stab my heart in two
I don't need it
Smack me once or twice
I might learn
Listen to my reasons
Don't believe I am doing this to hurt you
I do this because of how I am raised
What happened to us?
I use to be your love
Or so I thought
We were insepetable
You were always loving up on me
You would tell me everything
But now you don't
We would laugh and joke
But that got screw up also
Maybe I should just be someone else...


Never love me again: By AM
I cry a river just for you,
I cry to show how much I care for you.
But little did you know why I cry.
I thought you would know
Because of the way I couldn't lie
I was wrong...
You didn't see why my heart was bleeding
No one did really
All I wanted was for you to love me and care for me
But Baby, You aren't sure anymore...
That scares me so much because I am afraid,
Afraid you never will love me again


Untitled: By AM
You say you are falling out of love with me
But babe you can't just fall out of love
Your going to realize one day
The person you love, loved you back
Just as much...
But you might not get her back
You might not realize right now
That you love, care, need or anything now
But later you will be kicking yourself in the ass
Because you miss her to death and wish you was there with you
I am sure you will realize before that day come

I love you Baby...
I couldn't help it...he was just so amzingly perfect that I wanted him to be my everything.
I promise Brandon I will always be there with you no matter what.
I hope this doesn't happen to Brandon and I.

Baby please come back to me...I love you and I always will. I don't want to be with anyone else. I want you and no matter what happens I will always be here for you. I just hope I am with you when I am there for you. *a single tear falls and a half smile shows* Just remember if you need anything just ask.
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Ashley loves Brandon
Hey all! Please pray I get Brandon back and everything is okay. I want him back and I want him to not bottle everything up inside. I want him to tell me everything and us to be together forever. :( Please everyone please pray.

Ashley
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Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Trying to win the love of him back
Hey! Thank you all for praying. I really appreciate it. Well I have been talking to Cody. Cody is making me feel better. He understands and when I get in my moments of hating myself he tells me something to prove me wrong. I don't know if some of you remember me talking about Cody. He was the guy that loved well still loves me. Cody is going to hang out with me all weekend long. Friday we are going to the movies and going to see his mom. On saturday we are going to my cousin's house. Cody is trying to help me feel better and give Brandon his space. I love Brandon so much. I better go. I am tired! Later!

Ashley
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Monday, February 18, 2008

   Slowly dieing away without his love
*cries* We were really close but he had his reasons. I just wish we would get back together. Please everyone pray that we get back together and things are okay. Please *cries harder* I lvoe him and I don't want to lose him. I don't want him to find someone else either. I couldn't handle it. I am going to try to give him space. I can't help but want to talk to him or see him. I just want him so back badly. He didn't mean to do it yesturday but I pushed the issue. I wanted to know what was bothering him. He has been putting it off so not to hurt me. He never wanted to hurt me...For Valentine's day I got 6 roses, a Happy Bunny shirt and hoodie. It was the best Valentine's day gifts ever. I just wish it didn't end like it did. *hugs her teddy crying* I wish my friends on here where here. I need someone to hug me. I wish I could have someone talk to him and make him see I am for him....
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Sunday, February 17, 2008

My Death
Brandon and I are not together anymore. *cries* I love him and I can't get him back anymore. What am I going to do? *cries harder*
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Hey all! I am going to call Brandon this morning to see if he is in a better mood and to see if I can hang out with him. Yesturday sucked bad and I am hoping today gets better. Wish me good luck. I am hoping to make up for breaking his promise he would get me something to make up for it but I don't see that happening. He never breaks him promises and he broke this one. It hurt really bad because I had a time when he promise all of them. Yesturday he didn't even care he broke it when normally he would. He seemed to not care about me either yesturday. *sigh* I am going to now. I won't be getting around to pming people my comment but I will read your post. Later!

Ashley the broken one
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