Friday, May 28, 2004

occuring things
Well it's Friday, thankfully and a three day weekend to boot. Hell yeah. Get to see my G/F really soon today. We are going to go to lunch and hang out for a bit. She and I had our talk a few days ago which left me hurt, confused and very sad but determined to make this work. I love her and want nothing more than to be with her. She was a little upset by my last post and I gave her my password to edit out the comment she found disturbing, but she removed something which she should not have and that was my remarks about the gay bitch ass punk on this site who goes by the name Hanij or Ryan Parker if you prefer. Next time this little fuck decides to cybersex or beat off over the phone to someones girlfriend he better make sure he knows who he's fucking with. He was very close to not seeing another day and the only thing preventing that at the moment is my love for my G/F and the desire to have the relationship that we as a couple wanted together.As for this little uncurcumsised, masterbating punk ass bitch i think you're fucking pathetic. Thats probably the closest you ever even been to getting laid. As for the captain save a ho routine that you practise on this website do it with somebody who actually gives a fuck. Say the fucking word or fuck with my G/F again and I'll be on the first plane to Kansas to slit your fucking throat you cocksucking little bitch. Am I angry? Yeah. Bitter? Yes. But I dont blame just him. No my G/F is to blame as well. She was the one who decided to break up with me over this gay ass shit, but I love her and do forgive her this one last time. She did something similar about two years ago and it greatly affected our relationship and I was a total prick to her for quite sometime. I promised myself that I would handle this current situation the best way possible without giving in to my anger, even though this shit is far, far worse than what occurred before. Second time she has lied and cheated on me. Never again will I go through this or be this nice about it. I almost lost everything over this. If it wasn't for Crystal I would be homeless right now. She was the only person who even cared about what I was going through and actually helped. My G/F did in time, but before that there was no one else. I want to thank Crystal for giving me a place to stay and for being my friend when all my other so called friends turned away or lied to me to cover my g/f's ass. Fuck them. Fuck 'em all. Anyway I might seem a little angry at the moment, which I am, but not at my g/f or any one particular thing. I have a very bad temper and have been holding it inside for quite sometime and feel the need to just rip something or someone apart. Maybe soon the opportunity will present itself. Regardless I just want to say I am happy that my g/f and I are back togther again. We still have some issues to work out, but this has brought us closer together.I love her and am willing to do almost anything for her.Only time will tell.
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Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Blah,bitch,blah....
Just sitting here bored and alone.it's about 12:30am and i have to go to work at 4:30am.Tired but cant sleep.Just have alot on my mind I guess.Was happy I got to see my g/f today. Kind've worried about tomorrow though. She is writing me a letter. Just worried b-cuz in the six years of us being together she has always had difficulty in facing problems and talking about them. Recently all she does is get angry or upset then runs away. If we are to ever resolve these problems she needs to be completely honest and talk to me. I love her with all of my heart and there is nothing I wouldn't do for her. I really think I am handling this better than the first time even though this is far worse than before.I hope tomorrow goes good. I dont want to argue or fight, I just want to understand what happened. You say you love me sweetheart and want to marry me then make me believe again. Anyway, enough for one night.
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Sunday, May 23, 2004

   It's Sunday and I am just hanging out with my g/f waiting to go get something to eat. Bored, but happy to see her.
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