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I got my salad tossed a Red Lobster Listening To:Misery Business-Paramore Le Quote: "There are Tree Huggers, but we are the Tree Sleepers." _Jess
Im apologizing in advance for the lack of postage and comments this weekend. I was very busy. And busy is an understatement.
I went to my friend Jess's house to spend the night like a normal teenager. And I got the weekend of err...all weekends?
It started out, I got a call from my friend Jess and Nick to come over to Jess's for the day. I said "Yes" because I havent seen Jess since the last day of school. And when I got there we decided to take a walk to the nearby grocery store to visit Jess's boyfriend Keenan [nicknamed "Keeny" by me]. On the way there we picked up her friend Brendan, an overall "badass" delinquent. We walked up the hill to the grocery store running into roadkill.
After Nick and Brendan staring at the roadkill for five minutes, we agreed it was a turtle and kept at the direction of the grocery store.
Yada Yada Yada. We bugged Keeny until he got called to the front desk and went to Burger King and got lunch. [FYI: Our BK sells kick ass Cherry Coke Icees.]
Then we went back to Jess's house after me witnessing Brendan smoke pot...er...yeah. Jess was going to a show later with our friend Tony and asked if I wanted to go. I said yes. [why wouldnt I?]
The Concert was amazing. 3 local bands played and...er...Jess and Tony's friend Ashley got her hearing 'permanantly damaged' after all the screams and moshing. And I even got my head touched by the lead vocals to one of the bands. [lolz. He tried to rip off my Bow...] and then he dedicated a song to 'the special ladies who he didnt expect to see at a screamo show...' >.< Overall I had a great time, and got home in time to call my mom and ask to spend the night.
She said Yes, and me and Jess went into her computer room to settle in for the night. Then her mom got a call from Brendan [the one mentioned earlier] saying he's stuck in Lewistown[a kind of city-ish place with a bunch of chain stores] He gave us 'directions' to where he was and we dumbly took them, getting lost.
Last time we listen to Brendon.
After calling him and grilling him for 15 minutes trying to find out where he actually was [downtown Lewistown] and pick him and his friend Hayley up. XP at 1:00AM
Jess and her Parents had a truck show to get to and a cake to bake by 8:00 in the morning...so we took Brendan home with us and made him shower and help us make cake...and failing.
So we told Jess's sister to go to the bakery and order a chocolate cake with peanut butter icing, and went to bed watching Pitch Black. [at 4:00AM]
Then getting a good 4 hours of sleep we woke up at 8:00 and rushed around getting ready and all that Jazz...and going to the bakery to pick up the cake and before we knew it we were on the way to drop the cake off and go to the Mac Truck Show. [ZzZzZz]
Halfway there we noticed that the cake we bought for the friend of Jess's family got all smashed up on the car ride there and the icing on it was melting [bad bad bad news] So we stop at another bakery, order a premade cake and drop it off.
[leaving out the details]
Then we arrived at the Truck show, watched the parade, walked through the exibits, saw a cute emo kid[lol] and then left for a while to go eat.
At a buffet.
Which doesnt go well with me, because I got grilled for eating 'bunny food' AKA salad, corn, breadsticks, broccoli and rice and french fries while they ate steaks and ribs.
...yeah.
Then we went back to the truck show. Me and Jess were EXHAUSTED so we fell asleep under some trees and slept for an hour and a half...I am no longer a tree hugger, Im a tree sleeper.
But after all that I decided to stay ANOTHER night at Jess's. That night was normal, except for McDonalds at 12:00AM and Daniel Drama.
But overall my weekend was VERY intresting. I felt like I was in an episode of some wacky sitcom or reality show [their mom is hillarious. she dances to bohemian music in their van]
I thought it was extremely intresting...even though you might not...it was one of those 'if you were there you would have known' deals.
You know that I could crush you with my voice Listening Too:The Pros And Cons Of Breathing -Eff OH Bee[lolz] Time¢¾: 9:04PM already...
Bury me standing under your window
with the cinder block in hand
Yeah cause no one will ever feel like this again
And if I could move
I'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you
I must have dragged my guts a block
they were gone by the time we (talked)
Woah
I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice
Woah
I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice
Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me
Hide the details
I don't want to know a thing
I hate the way you say my name like it's something secret
My pen is the barrel of the gun.
Remind me which side you should be on.
Woah
I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice
Woah
I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice
Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me
Hide the details
I don't want to know a thing
I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel.
I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel.
Woah
I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice
Woah
I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice
Woah
I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice
More FOB lyrics. Haha. Its how I feel now.
Im pretty much, slowly getting over Dan.
I listened to FOB blaring in my room all day today...for hours...
Every song I owned I listened to.
And the ones I could relate to I played again and again.
The Pros And Cons of Breathing is how I feel.
Its awesome finding songs I can relate too.
I think I can tie a FOB song to how I feel every time of every day. Its kind of creepy.
I got some more drama brought to my yard today.
by a 'friend'
["Take this to your grave and I'll take it to mine."]
Hes calling me out on false info...and just being straight up annoying. Its lame.
And I dont care.
I have more imporant things to worry about.
I couldnt keep my hair straight today...
so its all bouncy and foofy.
haha
To the Listening to:XO- Fall Out Boy Time¢¾: 6:58PM
I comb the crowd and pick you out
My mouth moves too fast for you to figure it out
It starts eyes closed to fingers crossed
To "I swear, I say¡±
To "I swear, I say"
To hands between us, to ¡°whatever it takes too¡±
Drinks at the club to the bar
To the keys to your car
To hotel stairs to the emergency exit door,noo
To the love, I left my conscience pressed
Between the pages of the Bible in the drawer
¡°What did it ever do for me¡± I say...(I say...I say...I say...)
It never calls me when I'm down
Love never wanted me
But I took it anyway
Put your ear to the speaker
And choose love or sympathy
But never both
Love never wanted me
¡°I hoped you choked
And crashed your car¡±
Hey ¡°tear catcher¡±, that's all that you are
And ever were
From the start
I swear, I say
I swear, i say
To hands between legs, to "whatever it takes too"
Drinks at the club to the bar
To the keys to your car
To hotel stairs to the emergency exit door,no
To the "love", I left my conscience pressed
Between the pages of the Bible in the drawer
"What did it ever do for me" I say... (I say... I say... I say...)
It never calls me when I'm down
Love never wanted me
But I took it anyway
Put your ear to the speaker
And choose love or sympathy
But never both, no
To the "love" I left my conscience pressed
Through the keyhole as i watched you dress
Kiss and tell
Loose lips sink ships
[x3]
To the "love" I left my conscience pressed[x3]
Between the pages of the Bible in the drawer
"What did it ever do for me" I say
hah. I wanted to post teh lyrics to XO.
Parts of it describe how I feel.
I found a 4 leafed clover today...I wished on it and pressed it in my favorite book.
I bet everyone can guess what I wished for.
I wished for love...>.<
I got my pictures back from the last day of school...Photobuckets being slow so they're on my myspace if anyone's intrested. ^^
Just in case you people havent saw FOB's new video. >.< ima nerd
But yesh.
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Sunday, June 17, 2007
Im going to attempt to make this blog as un-emo as possible Listening to:Shores of California -The Dresden Dolls Time¢¾ : 2:38 PM
I was going to try and talk to him.
I havent so far.
I know I have to. But Im afraid to take the chance...
But thanks for all the comments from everyone on yesterday's blog. They were great and made me go *awwww* I really need to go shopping or something.
Do something fun to get my mind of Dan for awhile...I think I should get back into my drawings. Art is a great thing to keep my mind off of unwanted things.
Tomorrow we're going to Wal-Mart to get the pictures I took on the last day of school.
So I can show all you guys my amigos and amigas.
That should cheer me up...because Im happy in all of those pictures.
But *sigh* back to the Daniel thing.
I cant let him go.
and if I try to, Ill probably become a head case.
and on a lighter note:
"Here's to the kids. The kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of coke & Patrick or Sonny playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained high school party. Here's to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. Here's to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. Here's to the kids who never were too good at life, but still were wicked cool. Here's to the kids who listened to Fall Out Boy and Hawthorne Heights before they were on MTV...and blame MTV for ruining their life. Here's to the kids who care more about the music then the haircuts. Here's to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush. Here's to the kids who hum "A Little Less 16 Candles A Little More Touch Me" when they're stuck home, dateless, on a Saturday nightHere's to the kids who have ever had a broken heart..from someone who didn't even know they existed. Here's to the kids who have read The Perks of Being A Wall Flower & didn't feel so alone after doing so. Here's to the kids who spend their days in photobooths with their best friend(s). Here's to the kids who are straight up smartasses just don't care. Here's to the kids who speak their mind. Here's to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep. Here's to the kids who second-guess themselves on everything they do. Here's to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that.Here's to the kids."-Pete Wentz
This is why I love Peter.
He can sum me up in writing. <3
Just talk yourself up. Then Tear yourself down, Listening To: For a Pessimist Im Pretty Optimistic- paramore Le Quote: Bleeeeeeeeeeeeh. Le Time: Too late for you.
I am a wreck.
I can't do much of anything. Due to that stupid kid. All I can do is bitch about it.
I spent the night at Dani's and watched horror movies...but that didnt work.
Something stupid would always lead my brain back to him. Everyone's telling me:
"talk to him, talk to him"
and I WANT to...
but I fear things will get evem worse.
But then again.
It is going to be hard as fuck to forget him.
So im just torn.
Torn between why he acts like this and what to do.
I dont think Ive ever had such an emo blog.
hah.
~Aaya
I feel like throwing up.
Seriously.
I said Ive felt bad about boys before...
but I HATE them now.
I seriously feel like throwing up.
This isnt fair! Wasnt I good enough? Am I just a fling? What is wrong with me? Am I disgusting?
Is there someone else?
I feel used.
I feel sick.
I feel ignored.
This makes me sick.
I knew I was being ignored. I feel stupid.
I feel lame.
Ive never felt this low in my life.
I got too attached too early.
dsfdkfjhdfkjd
This is so dumb.
I NEVER want to see him again.
He lost intrest.
I KNEW it
I dont want to do anything.
I feel so low.
I cant take it anymore.
i hate being avoided.
I HATE it.
bleh.
I just...feel...so so so bad.
I want to run away.
And dont even think about telling me to forget him. Because I cant.
I WONT.
I dont want to.
I had everything planned out.
But I was the fool this time.
I just want to go die.
What. Wasnt I good enough?
I gave it my all.
and I get fucked over.
This is so lame
Im so lame.
But I cant stop thinking about it.
dfsdkfla
I HATE THIS.
Busy
I never thought I could be so busy in the summer.
Im sorry for the lack of posts/comments/messages.
Im not on much anymore because Im preoccupied with other things...and Im on myspace a lot more.
I got my salad tossed a Red Lobster 
You know that I could crush you with my voice 
To the 
Im going to attempt to make this blog as un-emo as possible 
err 
I feel like throwing up. 
