Tuesday, April 17, 2007

   Funny
Omg.My interview will be on tomorrow.Im feeling so freaking scared,nervous and tired =S pfft.I don't know what to prepare more,but I still don't feel that Im ready enough to face the interview.Just wish me luck guys.love chuuuuuu<3
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

   Ordinary is my middle name
I had a nightmare last night.I dreamt of someone that I have forgotten so long ago.Oh well.Tonikaku!Today was an ordinary day for me.Everything went well.I woke up around 8 to 9 am,hitted the gym for awhile.It's really frustrating when you know you always run,but still it doesn't do any good to your weight.Oh who am i blaming?MYSELF.Food is temptatious.IT'S TRUE.Then,I helped my mom to cook,watched tv,practiced the piano,had some thinking about my upcoming interview.You know,stuff.

Great.Everyone is almost getting ready to get in college.Some of my friends will be starting theirs by next month.HOO-RAY for you guys!=D But me?Im stuck at home doing everything which sometimes equivalent to nothing =S Friends,friends will be off to somewhere else.And we,we will meet new people.Ah.Talking about meeting new people.Im veryyyyy excited about it!We gotta meet new people to move on =D Urgh,but considering the 'people' at my future college...=___=; .Oh well!Won't let something like that bring my spirit down!Me still hoping to meet new and interesting people =)
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Monday, April 9, 2007

   Green light
Im still not feeling well.Having a sore throat and flu,but Im getting used to this rocker voice of mine x) My maid is having a stomach ache today,so I had to help my mom to cook.Oh,and today I received a mail from the postman.The first thing he said was 'Syamim?' ,and I quickly nodded.It was a mail for me.I knew it!It was from mara.I quickly torn the envelope *actually I already forgot this word,but thanks to fara =),haha! * and read the letter.It says 'sukacite dimaklumkan...' ,you get the point =).Urghhh...I don't know where to start.I don't know what to prepare *sigh* ,and thanks to the interview I need to cancel my upcoming driving test.The interview is on the exact date of my driving test's.Yesterday I went to F1,it was fun.There were many HOT guys there.LOL.Seriously!I mean,come on,even the drivers are hot.The weather was hot as well,but the guys were hotter!Lol!I think I already got myself a sun burn.Perfect =\.Last Friday I went to KYUEM to hand over my application form.The college was...ergh..=_=; I think Im going to be a little depress there since 90% of the kids will be scholars.So,in other words,they're all smart-asses.Me?Im just a regular girl with an average result =S But I guess what could go wrong with a healthy competition right?My dad wanted me to reconsider back,and yeah.I am considering about it now.Perhaps I don't mind anything like that,I just wanted the best for my future! =D BUT...fook that college,they won't let me having a new car!They said,no personal vehichle is allowed.Dammit.Oh well,I think I need to practice my piano now since my teacher already membebel last week x) Ciao!
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

It's just a feeling.
I didn;t do anything much today.I practiced playing piano in the morning,then watched tv.To be honest,I was never really a fan of AF,but bless to my sickness joyfull jobless days,I sort of beginning to watch this season this time.My parents really resent that show.They said it's a waste crying of programme.I agree,so that's why,I believe I'll only be watching that show in a short period.
I think it's amusing really how one can say such words then forget em like it was just an evening.Funny really how we tend to remember things even after days,weeks,months and even years.The next thing we knew,we keep replacing every pieces with something new and better.My mistake,not replace,just sort of push those things away and let other things break in.I've realised so many things thruout my days.It's amazing how we can see things clearly and much better than last time,and half of it thanks to the feeling of loneliness.Everyone has that in every corner of their heart.No matter how many people they are surrounded with.I don't feel it much,but I do feel it sometimes.It makes me think a lot of things and sort of making me appreciate myself even more.
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Friday, March 23, 2007

What a 'lovely' day.
He said 'Death is not my worry'.I realised he was way too against with her opinion.Maybe that's what brought them together.Anyway,I failed my driving test today,for both sections.Now I know how those rejected contestants feel when Simon told them how terrible their voices actually are.Feels like a loser.A number one pro failure.But after hours of feeling depressed and sobby,I realised it was all my fault in the end.I didn't practice at all except for yesterday,begging for ridzuan's last minute help.Maybe today was just my bad luck day.I don't know.Judging from the song that that guy kept playing 'nadzirah,nadzirah'.Who the hell is nadzirah????I was pleading for it to stop.

Stop.I plead for the same thing from Him.Quietly.
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Sunday, March 4, 2007

If
Today my eldest brother is officially engaged with his girlfriend.I spent quite a lot of time talking to him this time.We could just sit on my bed,and talk for hours.Or I'd just listen to what ever he's going to story me.He loves doing that.It's unstoppable.He told me about almost everything.Uh..I guess he was just trying to calm me down.He knows well that Im very worried about my upcoming SPM result.There's only a week left.*Sigh* Then,something hit me.IF only I did go to MRSM Taiping,maybe I'd perform better for my exam.Right.Or maybe,it just won't make any difference.Then,I started to think again,If I'd be given another chance to repeat the whole year,perhaps I would study even harder and concentrate more on it,or maybe it just won't make any difference as well.Ah.It's too late to think and regret about everything.Im so freaking scared to face it.What IF I cant handle the truth????What IF I cant accept my result???I feel so shitty right now.Ok,Syamim.Breathe.Breathe girl.LOL.
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Sunday, February 18, 2007

Explains everything
Seberapa pantaskah kau untuk ku tunggu
Cukup hinakan dirimu untuk s'lalu ku nantikan
Mampukah kau hadir dalam setiap mimpi burukku
Sanggupkah kita bertahan disaat kita jauh

Seberapa hebat kau untuk ku banggakan
Cukup tangguhkah dirimu untuk s'lalu ku andalkan
Mampukah kau bertahan dengan hidupku yang malang
Sanggupkah kau meyakinkan di saat aku bimbang

Chorus :

Celakanya
Hanya kaulah yang benar-benar aku tunggu
Hanya kaulah yang benar-benar memahamiku
Kau pergi dan hilang ke manapun kau suka

Celakanya
Hanya kaulah yang pantas untuk kubanggakan
Hanya kaulah yang sanggup untuk ku andalkan
Di antara pedih aku selalu menantimu

Mungkin kini kau tlah menghilang tanpa jejak
Mengubur semua indah kenangan
Tapi aku selalu menunggumu...di sini....
Bila saja kau berubah pikiran

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Monday, February 5, 2007

   Monday?More like a moanday...
I hate driving lessons.I just hate it!My instructor was ok.Maybe stopping and going down from the hill sucks.Urgh.It was my second lesson,and he already told to drive on the road.Im still a newbie.What do you expect? =\ Obviously,Im not really happy with my driving lesson today.Oh well,it's not really a big deal.Like,I think everyone's going thru the same thing.So,yeah.Im alright over all =D About my friend,everyone's pissing off with her right now.I think she hasn't realised it yet that Im one of them.I kinda feel sorry for her at times.I mean,I am mad at her,but I have no grudge toward her.Seriously.No matter how bitchy she is,I still consider her as a friend.It's just I cant trust her anymore.Im sort of ignoring her now.Trying actually.Maybe I'll get over it soon.I mean,I am ALREADY ACCEPTING her attitude.So like,I've already swallowed every single thing that she did to me.How mad can I be anymore?Maybe it's just her.Things that I can do nothing about it.I miss my friends.I mean,I miss Ajin,Azyan and Alia.Can you believe it,I haven't gone out with them yet.Just the four of us.It's really sad to think of it.They've been so quiet with me.I mean,it cant be me that always trying to be productive here suggesting to go out or maybe do a sleepover.So what if Im sick.I think none of them will notice about it.If Im quiet,then they're quiet as well.Come on guys,this isn't what we were planning right? =(
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

   Kupo!
Wow wow!This gonna be my first 2007's post eyh?^-^I havent's posted one eversince last december!I did try few times to post one,but then...er..I kinda lost track back then ^^; Well,let's see.This new year is so much better than last year.I watched the fireworks with a huge smile on my face.Despite worrying about my spm's result,I think this year will be a good year for me.I don't know.I can just sense the happiness I guess.Even right now,Im so happy with my life.I don't know why and HOW.But yeah.everything seems so perfect.Today,I didn't do anything much.I woke up.Checked up on my breakfast.I was so disappointed when I saw there were only sandwiches and some bread.Because I already told my mom I wanted her famous-tasty fried mee for breakfast.But she said she's gonna cook it tomorrow instead =)Then,after I settle dmyself,I went to play ff12.It was not as bad and boring as I thought it would be.I mean,usually when you started playing a game,you kinda feel lazy to continue because the starting is just so plain and dull.But this one,Im impressed =)I played that game until 4 sumthing.from twelve o'clock =D M e mommy just bought some pies for us.Erghhh..Im getting fat.This is so frustrating.But oh well,I love to eat.Can't help iT ^^; Ja ne!!!
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Friday, December 29, 2006

   Something to be treasured
Fine.Honestly,I've tried so many times to post this entry but I failed to complete it.So,this one,hopefully,I get to complete it.I decided to post this entry tonight so that I won't be forgetting these things in the future.I just got back from Turkey last monday.It was a hell lot of fun.Im still not sure whether it was because of the country really,or just because that I met some nice new friends.They were amazing.Turkey is a beautiful country.It's full of historical places and the scenery is damn beautiful.I got to ride on a hot air balloon.It was an unforgettable experince.Although we did a crash landing in the end.Urgh,I thought I was gonna die back then when my little bro hit on me.Some of the bags were missing.MAS sucks.Totally unprofessional.Should have take back that 'world's best airport' from them so that they'll wet on their pants.Thank God the bags were found back few days before we left Turkey.Turkish delight rocks.WEll,if you know what and how to buy them la.Urm.other than that,I think you guys gotta go there by yourselves.Hehe,I cant tell everything about it in here right?The roman structures and all that.It's really a worth country to be visited.

I met some cool people.When I said 'cool',I don't mean like those 'hip' n what so ever kind of people.Im so glad that I met them.I think they were really friendly and made my trip became much more happier and fun.I met this one family.I've never seen such happy siblings.I mean,they're not like intimate to each other.They were so...I dunno.Connected in some way.I was pretty much close with 4 of them.There were 6 all of them.I'd really like the 12th year old sister.She's...I don't know.Heh.This may sound cliche,but..you see,I never got myself a sister,a little sister.So you know,when I hung out with her...I kinda felt that kind of bond.Plus,apparently,she looks like me.The 14th year old sister was also pretty nice with me.I like her attitude.I also talked and hung with the brothers.I think they were really cool and friendly.We do't find these type of people these days.Then,I got to know a girl.When first I met her,I swear to God,I didn't like her at all.Blame her style.She looked really girlish and all that.But then,it turned out that she's really nice!!hehe.I'd really hope our friendship will go on.Cuz I'd really don't wanna lose them =\ It was nice meeting you guys!Keep in touch!
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